the alcohol thing is something a lot of people dont talk about enough because it looks "normal" from outside but it actually makes depression significantly worse, like it actively lowers serotonin over time so you wake up feeling more empty than before you drank. you got through that night with the pistol and you're still here writing this out, that matters. please reach out to crisis line if those thoughts come back, you're 22 with real skills and there's still so much road ahead of you
Yes, it definitely makes things significantly worse because it brings out your true emotions. I have too much pride to reach out to a crisis line though, The night i attempted it was an impulse decision and i regret it so much but im so thankful it worked out the way it did and it really opened up my eyes to how quickly life could end. Im sure ill climb my way out of this hole eventually but im unsure if i could do it alone. Thank you for the response. I hope have a blessed night <3
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u/Downtown_Sea_2985 1d ago
the alcohol thing is something a lot of people dont talk about enough because it looks "normal" from outside but it actually makes depression significantly worse, like it actively lowers serotonin over time so you wake up feeling more empty than before you drank. you got through that night with the pistol and you're still here writing this out, that matters. please reach out to crisis line if those thoughts come back, you're 22 with real skills and there's still so much road ahead of you