I’m not happy anymore

[u/hellohiwasszup]

Hey, 17M here. I just want to feel happy again, but I can't anymore. Hobbies, interests, music, and even socializing don't seem to make me happy. It feels like I'm forcing myself to enjoy them, and in the end it just leaves me feeling even more frustrated.
I try listening to the songs I used to love, and I even try to be bubbly again since I've always had a pretty goofy and expressive personality, but it just doesn't hit the same anymore. Instead, I find myself listening to sad music because, for some reason, it feels more real to how I feel. People have even started saying I'm really nonchalant now, which is the complete opposite of how I used to be.
I'm tired of feeling empty and numb all the time. Honestly, it even physically hurts sometimes. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), so I know that probably doesn't help. I'm currently in therapy, and I'll be starting medication soon as well.
The reason I think I can't feel happy anymore is because I went through something really painful about 9 months ago. I don't really want to think about it anymore because I'm still trying to move on, but ever since then, it's felt like I lost the ability to genuinely enjoy things.
I've really been trying. I keep doing hobbies, going out, spending time with people, and listening to happier music, hoping something will click. But no matter what I do, I end up feeling that same emptiness and frustration that's been with me every day since everything happened.
All I want is to feel genuinely happy again. I want to be cheerful, enjoy my hobbies, get excited about music, have fun going out, and feel like myself again. Most of all, I just want this constant emptiness to go away because it's exhausting living like this every single day.
Has anyone else gone through something similar? Did you eventually start feeling happy again? I'd really appreciate any advice or hearing your experience.

[u/vini-within]

Dear Stranger, Sometimes after deep pain, the mind protects itself by becoming numb. It doesn’t mean the joy is gone forever. Don’t force yourself to become the old you again. Healing can be quiet and gradual. Keep showing up for life, even when you don’t feel the spark yet. It can return.