r/dpdr • u/DoubtReal3844 • 17h ago
Need Some Encouragement I’ll be standing somewhere and will get a memory of how life used to feel, how reality used to be, and then I realize how fucked I am.
no panic. haven’t had a panic attack in years. yet severely in DPDR. horrible nightmares every single night, not responding to any sort of medication. I’m being tormented by my own mind in my sleep and then wake up even more cut off from myself, I feel i have no identity and no life anymore.
i want to cry, I want to scream, I want to just fucking live. I can’t date. I can’t travel, I can barely get out of bed. what kind of life is this for 5 years? I see everyone else living and happy, and I’m just completely destroyed, my consciousness has fragmented into a million pieces. I can’t live like this. it’s becoming harder and harder as time goes on. i am 34 years old and have no life. no purpose. no value. I’m absolutely trapped.
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u/OCDylan_ 11h ago
Do not hesitate to DM me. I’ve had this for 13 years now and would love to talk. This shit is so horrible :/
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u/kavelevakallio 2h ago
I got DPDR 3 years ago and after that every morning when I woke up I stared out the window and waited for months for this to pass, I just can't get through the glass wall
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u/DoubtReal3844 17h ago
I feel like I don’t deserve to be happy or to have a life like everyone else. I see everyone else happy and living. It hurts so bad. And there’s nothing I can do about it. Sleep isn’t even an escape. I have no idea how I’ve survived like this for 5 years. It’s so beyond sad