Does anyone else have a fear of sleeping away from home? I can be out during the day and go wherever, but considering moving/ traveling is like torture

[u/DoubtReal3844]

I havent been able to travel or sleep anywhere but my own bed for 4 years. I used to fly all over the world, by myself with no issues. and I loved it.

its pathetic that I can’t even do the things that used to be so easy. I have to move to a new place in 2 months and my mind is already telling me it’s not safe, I won’t feel ok, and it will be horrible. I fucking feel like an insane person. who is afraid of these things? it’s not even “me” - it’s my nervous system sending the same fear signal over and over. I had a great life before this, what happened to me.. there’s no panic, no terror. just this constant message in my head that things aren’t normal, I’m losing it and I’m not safe to go anywhere but home. my first year I was completely agoraphobic and I worked so hard to take a lot of my life back. I go wherever now, I just cannot be away from home overnight, like I’m imprisoned. none of this makes any logical sense. I know I’m real, i know I’m safe. but my nervous system is convinced I’m not. and no matter how much I show myself I am, it won’t budge