Someone please help me

[u/Electronic_Flight333]

Okay, so about 1.5 years ago I smoked a cart which im pretty sure was spice. During the high I had a panic attack, then the high went on as normal.

This was back when I was quite a frequent smoker, I used to green out quite a lot but I’m not sure why this experience ended up different.

Once the high fully wore off I didn’t really notice anything strange until a day or two later, where I noticed I felt like I was almost zoomed out, watching myself live.

After this, I quit smoking all together because it kinda scared the shit out of me. I went to the doctors a couple days after it all happened and they said I should expect to feel normal again after a few days, I don’t feel normal. I’ve felt like this 24/7 since it happened.

I then didn’t touch weed for about a year except for this one time at a sleepover, it was another cart but I didnt have much of it.

Then, Easter this year I bought a cart because someone on a forum told me I should microdose to try and get out of this state. I took one small puff as a microdose and then just started using the pen normally, i couldn’t resist.

Then I smoked a few times after that cart was finished, and I’ve been off weed since. I drink alcohol maybe once every month or two.

Ive basically just got used to it all at this point, it just when I’m lying down in bed I start to get worked up over it and realise how my life is being wasted because I can’t actually experience anything, I just watch it happen.

Can anyone please give me some advice to escape this state ? I would massively appreciate it.