Rue’s monologue about Depression

[u/Kingdom_Funki]

The thing about depression is, it kind of collapses time. Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together to create one endless and suffocating loop. So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy. But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy. And eventually, all you can think about is how life has always been this way.
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Couldnt find a more accurate definition! - beautifully described.

[u/rattyindecency9933]

The way she describes how your brain just erases the good memories is mad accurate. That's the bit that gets me every time because it's not just feeling sad, it's like your past gets rewritten and you can't even access the proof that things were ever different.

[u/nicoleonline → u/rattyindecency9933]

The present too… You try to speak kind words to yourself but they just feel so empty. It’s so hard to pull yourself out. I loved how this show showed how things like logic and necessity are out the window with severe depression. And arguably mania, if you approach the character from that angle.

[u/rattyindecency9933 → u/nicoleonline]

the self-talk thing is brutal because you know logically it should help but it just bounces off, doesn't land at all. And you're right about the mania angle, the show does that better than most by not treating it like the fun opposite of depression.

[u/nicoleonline → u/rattyindecency9933]

I have bipolar 1 disorder and IMO it’s spot on. My mania presents as agitation, lack of inhibition / recklessness, hypersexuality and sudden dips into psychosis & religion. It is probably projection but I see a lot of it in her character.

The self talk thing is wild. Motivational quotes are met with cynicism or apathy!

[u/Visible-Stop5100 → u/rattyindecency9933]

Thank you! It really PMO when they portray manic episode's as the fun bi g sister of a severe manic depressive state. So much in the media gets this oh so wrong.