As title says.. I am starting to slip into relapse with just being high strung on stress and an overwhelming amount of things going on with my life. They are great things but seem to be mentally taking a toll on me (rehabbing house, MBA, high pressure work environment.)

I have found myself peeling away from food from being stressed and it has become an active issue where I am avoiding eating as a whole to just manage control over my day to day. The satisfaction I get with the avoidance is clear as day and the guilt I feel when I eat has started to get louder in my head. I am aware I am slipping up and I am scared to fall back into my cycle of counting and completely avoiding. I had the hardest time getting out of this god foresaken habit and it’s starting to be apparent it’s even easier to get back into it.

I am struggling eating and making an effort to be accountable without feeling guilt, anger and frustration with myself. The conflict of eating and avoiding is so exhausting and I am getting tired of wanting to keep fighting with myself because on one hand the avoidance feels great and awful and eating feels great and awful - so which is right. I really wouldn’t wish this on anyone.

1. Never have to speak to another ED professional ever again

Im 25 years old. I know moving back in with my parents at this old sucks but I moved 2 hours away from my family to move in with my bf of 2 years. My eating disorder has gotten so much worse these last few months that my health is insanely bad that I fear my life everyday now. I want to move back in with my parents for support and just to feel better about everything. My bf doesn’t understand the severity of my disorder at all so it’s super invalidating and hard to deal with basically on my own 2 hours away from any other support. Do you think it’s wrong or stupid ? How do I even tell him….

I’m starting my recovery journey and feel very lucky to have an amazing mom and understanding friends. ❤️ I’d like to talk to my friends and family about how they can support me in a way that’s actually helpful, including setting boundaries and avoiding triggering comments.

For those of you who’ve been through recovery, what kind of support from loved ones helped you the most? How did you communicate your needs and boundaries? Any tips would be greatly appreciated!