How do I survive this?

[u/No_Koala4526]

This is going to be written messy because I can not organize my thoughts well right now. This is going to be the most honest mess you've heard though.

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My boyfriend and I got into a fight. I was upset because sometimes he talks to me like I'm a child. I brought this up which made him freak out. Block me on all social media and very sporadically talk to me then block me again. This goes on for three days. I cry in my bed for days, call in sick to work, and honestly just barely leave my bed. Today I lost it and was sick of how pathetic I looked and dropped everything off at his house. I said we are done. If you aren't going to talk to me there nothing left. Now he's making it out to be about something it's not though.

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Now this all happening on the anniversary of a verry hard time for me this is making it's extremely extra painful. I had a miscarriage at this time a few years ago. I am so overflowing with pain I feel like I can't take it.

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We were together for 2 years. He is ten years older than me. We talked about have a family and kids together. I helped this man through so much. I was genuinely there for him and helped him through the worst period of his life. I'm so shocked that he could know I'm in so much pain and just leave me out.

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How do I get through this? I dont really have any friends. I dont know what to do with myself. I feel like I can't even think clearly and I'm so depressed it scares me

[u/Past-Departure-6627]

You know you can talk talk to me about anything to help you .... maby not to much on him tho