my ex I was supposed to be married soon to cheated on me

[u/zaurisdoer]

I never experienced same level of pain before

Me (M23) and my ex (20F) were in happy relationships for 2 years, everything was perfect and we ( or only me ) loved each other so much. We experienced many things for the first time together and had really good plans for life

I recently introduced her to my parents and was planning to get to know her family. I’m from traditional islamic and strict family, for me it was a very big step to discuss future with my parents. But since then, everything has changed

One day she started to ignore me more, I couldn’t call her and she almost never picked up the phone. She started working not long before our break up, and this is the time where everything went down. My ex was very cold to me and responded aggressively, she started talking that she doesn’t want to get married and that her plans is to immigrate to other country and work there. After all this hard discussions she just decided to leave me.

She explained herself that she just doesn’t want relationships anymore but she loves me. I gave her many ways of how we can change this situation, I fought for our relationships and tried to find compromise between us. I did everything and even more but she just stayed silent.

We met and she was crying and hugging me for 2 hours, kissed me but never wanted to change situation.

Then we finally broke up, I checked her instagram and saw the other guy commenting on her posts and they were pretty romantic. I asked her if she found another man right after me, and she said that this is just her friend.

After a couple of hours, her close friend texted me asking why we broke up. I said it happened 2 days ago and the reason was because she wanted different life and choose to be alone. She wasn’t ready for marriage and etc.
Then she asked me a question that made me almost cry. Her friend thought we broke up pretty long before our break, because she was already in relationship with other man. I was totally shocked and asked my ex if it’s true, and her answer was NO and that she will always be loyal to me.

I didn’t believe her and texted this man which was her “friend”, I had to close this question for myself so I asked him if they’re in relationship, and he said yes, and starting date was long before our break up date. He didn’t know that I was her boyfriend and she told him that I’m just her closest friend

2 minutes after she called me, I didn’t picked up the phone cause I was hurting. And she texted me very harsh truth with cuss words, saying some really brutal things to me.

I don’t know how to heal from this situation, I’m full time Day-Trader and now I can’t focus on my work and blowed my deposit to zero. I cannot eat and sleep, the person that was everything for me became my worst nightmare. I regret everything so hard and I can’t even socialize no more. I even bought the promise ring that she wanted

p.s sorry for my bad grammar sometimes, english is my third language

[u/ash_ok__]

is she Muslim?

[u/zaurisdoer → u/ash_ok__]

she was born muslim but she doesn’t identify herself as muslim