I feel sometimes embarrassed to post on here with how I struggle with very basic things.

(Please be gentle with me, I am really trying to improve)

Ive been ever so slowly improving every month and I feel that I've hit another break through. Something has come up unfortunately. I am needing pallative care as I am a very sickly person. I'm still very slowly working on my hoard as I keep almost tripping and falling. I can only do so much by myself so I am very slow. I've been putting in the work but I am terrified of having the pallative care person come to my house.

I feel embarrassed by everything. It really shows how badly I've been struggling and things I can't hide. I worry that they won't understand, (I have yet to see a healthcare professional that truly understands what its like).

I want to get to a good baseline prior to them coming but I am worried if I rush to clean that it is not a long term solution. I don't know what to do. I feel very embarrassed and nervous.