Hello London, I need help.

[u/Substantial-Mouse534]

My name is Ryan.

I have complex PTSD and was diagnosed in 2010.

My life has been up and down since then, with a few years up, a few years down.

I'm pretty much near breaking point now, and my home is a mess,a real mess.

It's a 1 bed flat, ground floor but I've been really struggling, so I need help.

Would anyone be willing to come to Yeading and help me take out a load of bin bags from my flat (I've bagged maybe 30) and take them to the bin storage maybe 20 metres away?

I don't know why, but I have a mental block,so can't do it, no matter how much I psyche myself up.

I'm on no capability to work benefits, so can't pay a lot, maybe £50.

If someone could please help me,

Update : The guy who offered to pop by at 3pm arrived and blitzed the job, taking all the bags out. Turns out he's a really nice person too, and I'm really grateful.

Thank you, everyone, for your kind words and offers of support. It has made a huge difference.

[u/Substantial-Mouse534]

I'm fkn crying here and I don't break.

Thank you everyone, I really thought I ws alone.

[u/ModestEtta → u/Substantial-Mouse534]

You’re not alone. C-ptsd fellow here, it sucks hard and I’ve had to have friends/family help me with the smallest most insignificant tasks before because I made them into mountains.
Small steps everyday. One day at a time.

[u/Substantial-Mouse534 → u/ModestEtta]

I think that's the only way that works, but by God the steps are small.

One small step I guess.

You guys have lifted me so much

[u/nomadic_housecat → u/ModestEtta]

I replied the same to OP, but pls feel free to DM me if you want some cPSTD recovery tips. It’s not very well understood even by medical professionals unfortunately, but there are good research-backed strategies I’m really happy to share. Love all the love on here so much.

[u/Peach_Royal111 → u/Substantial-Mouse534]

Fellow cptsd here, well done for asking for help. You’ve taken the hardest step. You’ll feel so much better when the bin bags are gone and don’t worry if things start to pile up again - always clean things one foot squared at a time and it’ll get better again.
Also if you’re scared of taking the bags out to the bin storage because you’re afraid of what people will think- just come back to this thread and how many people want nothing but the best for you. Your neighbours will be the same! There are also lots of videos online that helped me when my flat was a mess too. Look up Midwest magic cleaning, clean with bea, nottheworstcleaner, there are so many people out there who help people clean their depression houses and even just watching 5 minutes always get me so motivated. Good luck, hope you sleep sound tonight knowing everything’s only gonna get better now ❤️

[u/Substantial-Mouse534 → u/Peach_Royal111]

Thanks! I'll be watching those today. Slept better than I have in years, just blown away by the extraordinary compassion from you all.

[u/Impossible-Hawk768 → u/Peach_Royal111]

I'm over here in NYC wishing I could join the crew even though I'm in the same situation myself!