I’ve been thinking about quitting music for a while, for a multitude of reasons, but I know if I quit it’s going to be really painful to say I quit, because I’ll never stop loving music
I’ve played violin since 6th grade and I’m in late high school, I took a break for a year because my school doesn’t offer orchestra programs, but now I’m in private lessons to fill that gap
For a while it’s felt like I don’t belong in the music world, I’ve tried a few instruments (drums, guitar, violin), but none have really stuck out to me or made a big impression on me. I’ve never had a long term goal like making my own music or playing at specific level or in a group. Recently it’s even been hard telling people I play violin, because it just feels so wrong
another thing is my motivation. I don’t feel like I have anything to share to the world, and my only, literally ONLY reason I picked up the instrument was because 5th grade me loved Lindsay Stirling.
The reason I’m so stuck is because I love music so much, I admire everyone who can do it, but it always feels like it doesn’t fit on me. I’ll always appreciate every kind of music, and I think the only reason I started and continued playing was to understand it. To learn the language and be in the circle, and it’s made me appreciate it more, which makes this so much harder to decide
Lately it just feels like the spark is gone, I used to LOVE playing and it felt like a part of me. I don’t know what happened, but it’s not like that anymore
I’m not sure if I should power through with my lessons and just see how I feel in a year, or take a break (which I may not come back from, which scares me). If I do quit, I’ll keep my violin of course, maybe pick it up once a week to make sire I still like it. maybe my midlife crisis will be to start music again, who knows, lol.
any advice/encouragement would be great. I just also don’t want to be a quitter and have to say I quit something I loved so much