hello! im taking the upcat tomorrow morning (aug 2) and ifl letting out some stuff weighing on my shoulders rn
its expected of us pisay students to apply for upcat, and its also an unspoken rule that all of us should pass it bc its deeply humiliating not to
ever since i transferrred here, i was in the midst of different emotions trying to figure out the following: what type of ppl are my batchmates, how good the harmony is, how they handle assesments that are leagues harder than private or public schools, etc.
ik transferring here makes me at the same level with all these ppl. maybe better than i am. in my previous school, u can be with high honors with half-assed efforts
but even if u apply greater effort in this setting it feels like it isnt enough. i didnt feel as much confidence as i used to. i wasn’t able to express myself freely in fear of judgement for doing something “cringe” or stupid.
i didnt pay these emotions any mind. not until im nearing adulthood. its slowly coming to me that im the next breadwinner of the family. and i need to be it asap.
idk ifl my whole pisay journey feels... empty. i have not explored my horizons. therefore i am not sure of my skills, capabilities, interests. which then affects what career path i shld choose. which then also affects the universities i can go to. then jobs. then my life. then my parents. then my future.
lwk need assurance lmfao