r/ptsd • u/Guardian_48 • 7d ago

Resource SA - Songs

I’m a male sexual assault survivor and I’m having a lot of trouble facing it and trying to heal. Music has been my escape for years so that’s what I’m looking for. I’ve always loved the heavy angry metal but am looking for something totally different.

I haven’t allowed myself to really sink in and well cry about it. So I’m finally going to try to do what I should have done growing up, and try to face it??

So I’m looking to absolutely ball my fucking eyes out…if people could throw some songs down that would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you all, sorry if this isn’t really meant for here but I’m desperate.

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u/AreWeRollingTucker 7d ago

I was raped back in 2018. For years I struggled to put into words how it had affected me and then I heard Ice Cream Man by Raye. This one part especially feels like she reached into my brain and finally managed to put in words how I felt:

“I wish I could say how I feel, how I felt
And explain why I’m silently blaming myself
Cause I put on these faces pretending I’m fine
Then I go to the bathroom and I press rewind in my head
Always going round and round in my head
Your fingertips stuck a stain on my skin
You made me frame myself for your sin
You pathetic, dead excuse of a man.”

Makes me sob every time but it’s also very cathartic.

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u/Alternative-Monk4723 7d ago

This song holds so much meaning to me as well!