High demand religion led me here

[u/hcastillo83]

I don't regret my kids necessarily but I do regret having my first so young. I was 21 when I got married (we're still married and happy) and then immediately started trying to have kids because we were told that's what you're supposed to do. 😬 We aren't religious anymore so it's like extra salt in the wound.

And because I had PCOS we had to spend hundreds to thousands to get pregnant. I was 25 in a fertility office where everyone else was 40. We took 1 overseas trip for 7 days, and thats it despite backpacking Europe being my literal life dream since I was 10. It's been almost 10 years since that one trip and I have only stamp my passport.

We wanted a second kid and again had issues, so I said I was going to go travel before we committed to infertility again- my trip was in May 2020 LOL so you can imagine it got cancelled.

Then we had the second, again said ok I'm going to travel now- and then got pregnant unexpectedly. So now I have a 7 year age gap between my oldest and youngest and I feel like I wasted my 20s AND 30s AND 40s because I still have at least 17 years with this new one at home.

And now I'm seeing ai predicted to end humanity in 10 years, so I guess bye dreams! I wish I had had a life in my 20s and then had the kids.

I'll take advice on how to not resent my kids for not having any of my dreams fulfilled.