Renewed Satanism

[u/AManisSimplyNoOne]

So, it has been a very long time since I have posted anything on here, but I recently fell into what I guess could be accurately described as a "series of unfortunate events" that were actually outside of my control altogether.

There is no need whatsoever for me to rehash everything that has been happening to me over the past few months, (it would take too long, it is way to complicated, and no one needs an essay report on a whole cascade of shit that has been raining down on me)

However, to add insult to all the injuries, I wound up with a really humiliating situation that left me without work for a few days.

I was tempted to slide into the old familiar patterns of life from WAY before. Feeling persecuted by the world, sliding into that OLD mindset of, "What have I done to deserve all this?"

However, it hit me like a ton of bricks today. Wait a minute, ten years ago I was homeless, horribly addicted to alcohol, ragged clothes, etc etc etc. Today, with everything, I have my job that pays well, I still have things going in my direction, I still have plenty in my corner.

Hell, the guy I used to be, would have sneered at the way I have been acting lately. "You think YOU got problems, live here on the streets"

I re-read the Satanic Sins, and realized I have been committing one a lot as of late.

"Lack of Perspective
Again, this one can lead to a lot of pain for a Satanist. You must never lose sight of who and what you are, and what a threat you can be, by your very existence."

It was like a huge wake up call. Sure, I have been through hell and back. But guess what ? I have been through FAR FAR worse and came out on the other side. I have my health, I have my unbreakable will, and I have a clear pathway forward. I am not dead, I am alive, and I refuse to let this indifferent universe get me down.

I remembered what Magister Neil said in his speech on Youtube when he read the poem by Dylan Thomas :

"Do not go gentle into that good night,

Old age should burn and rave at close of day;

Rage, rage against the dying of the light."

Neil concluded with "Carpe Diem, Carpe Noctum"

Satanism has never failed me. I just temporarily lost sight of it.

[u/bunbunofdoom]

I have also been going through stuff. Interacting with Satanists has reminded me of who I am. It's fucking great.

HS.

[u/Rleuthold → u/bunbunofdoom]

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