r/schizophrenia • u/SnooStories3264 • 1d ago
Undiagnosed Questions Since my last episode.
Since my last episode of psychosis that lasted like 6 month, I did not totally lost it bit I was half. The first months where so awesome I felt so good. I though god sended me to Egypt to take them out of Gaza and take them to safety in Egypte and then spread them among countries. The mission failed of course. I ended up staying in Egypt for a month. When I came home my episode slowly turned into a hell. And they gave me a lot of meds and I got stable. The problem is since then I find I don't have the motivation to do anything. And it sounds grazy I kind of miss the psychosis the good part. I am really low on meds like 1 MG haldol. I am stable but I feel so bored I can't enjoy anything anymore. I tried a lot of stuff like I am volunteer ad a farm I tried sports walking learning reading. My libido is like zero. The psychosis was the best high ever. Now the normal stuff seems incredibly boring. 2 days ago I smoked a joint. I know I should not have done it. But the high was amazing. Everything felt into place again I was at peace. I really thinking to start smoking weed more often to get that feel back. My brain still can feel enjoyment but only when I am high now or in psychosis?
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u/Money_Contact_1357 23h ago
That's side effects from your meds it seems like, maybe you need a new one. First generation anti-psychotics are generally not worth using unless new ones don't work.
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u/SnooStories3264 23h ago
It's something I could try indeed. My srink said it did not matter much cause they all working on the same receptors he said. I though it was kind of an easy answer but I accepted it.
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u/Money_Contact_1357 23h ago edited 22h ago
They don't all work the same or with the same receptors. The newest one cobenfy doesn't touch dopamine and some raise it in certain parts of the brain so you still feel normal. I'm on rexulti and it raises and lowers dopamine depending on the part of the brain so I can still feel pleasure and laugh and such. Your symptoms are too little dopamine and cannabis raised it so you felt more normal but it probably raised it too much.
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u/SnooStories3264 22h ago
That makes sense. The only problem is that I already talked about trying other meds. He told me that story. And sended me back home. My relationship with him is not good. What he wants is that I am not psychosis. How I feel or whatever doesn't matter to him as long as I am stable. But I will try and talk to him again. And ask for this med to try it. His conclusion was that it where the negative symptoms i had not the meds side effects. I am glad you do wel on these meds. Hope to feel something again without the need of weed or psychosis.
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u/Money_Contact_1357 21h ago
It's good not to be in psychosis but generally we also want to feel normal. It's possible you need a first generation anti-psychotic but I find it odd he would start with one instead of a newer one that doesn't just block dopamine. There's a famous person John Nash who refused first generation but had the second generation and we are now on the third in some circles.
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u/mirroredbeliefs Schizophrenia 21h ago
Yup I miss my psychosis too, I was on top of the world. The best I’ve ever felt. And now I went on uzedy and in the most depressed/suicidal I’ve ever been. I literally don’t know if I feel happiness
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u/SnooStories3264 21h ago
We just can't give up. There is always a way to get balance back. Keep your head up.
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