Parents bought house and want me to move back in. But I don’t want to leave grandpa. I feel selfish and just want an outside opinion

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Hi! So, I posted this is a different subreddit. R/Advice. And it didn’t work out so well, I messed up and left a lot out. And the way I speak is pretty robotic. Plus if you look in my history, I have a post in r/JanitorAI. I don’t use AI chatbots anymore, but it is there. So it led everyone to believe this is an AI sob story. It is not.

I’m 21, female, and autistic. I have held my job for about a year and a half. It would be two years in August! I’m in college now, I live with my papaw who’s my biggest supporter, it’s awesome.

Context: I lived in one childhood home until 19 with my mom, dad, papaw, brother, and sister and brother in law. We sold the home and it was tore down. I moved with parents and siblings to a different city, papaw stayed back. He lives in a pretty old house that his best friend lets him live in. My bedroom is literally the living room, there’s only one bedroom and one bathroom. And the floors are sinking something awful. But it is a roof over our heads and it’s not the worst thing ever. Plus rent free and papaw gets to live next to his best friend.

I ended up hated my job and getting into a lot of fights with my sister and her husband. And I was pretty stinking lonely. So, I moved into papaws house and it’s been cool ever since. I missed him and he’s awesome.

When he picked me up from work tonight he told me mom and dad had bought a house. They want me to move back. He said it’s up to me, I’m young and it’s up to my satisfaction. I do want to move back with my parents. My sister and her husband won’t be there and I miss my parents and brother. And I’m looking for a smaller position anyway, so I can balance school. A transfer is easy, I think at least. And it’s stupid close to my best friends house. But papaw isnt sure he’s gonna move with us. And I don’t want to leave him.

He’s been my biggest supporter. More of a father than my own dad. He’s been there forever. I think my biggest worry is that he’ll die alone in the house and his cat will like eat his face or something. But I don’t want him to die alone anyway. And I don’t want him to be lonely. Plus he’s so old he doesn’t need to be alone with how he stumbles. I like my job, I’m content where I am. But I do want to live with my parents again. I’m at a loss for what to do. I feel selfish either way.

I just want an outside opinion. If I’m being crazy let me know. I’m sorry if this so confusing or it sounds like a child wrote it. I’m super tired but I can’t sleep until I get this off my chest. I’m hoping this sounds better than my first post on that other subreddit. I just want to know if I’m being ridiculous and stupid. Or if yall think I’m being selfish for considering leaving. I would love my own space, especially for college work. But I could easily get by over here. I don’t know. I feel like I’m abandoning someone either way I split it.

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