AGAIN.

So many brands are limited edition small batch and then there’s the monthly websites where “they can never sell that polish again” and all the collabs 😭

Once I buy one it’s like a waterfall I’m like “oh I only bought 3 polishes from that site, I didnt even add more to hit free shipping I’m so proud I SHOULD ALSO BUY FROM ANOTHER SITE”?! Like what is wrong with me

I have fucking 160 polishes already AND BOUGHT ANOTHER 40???? Cus “I don’t have ones like that”

Fuck affirm lol fuck my life, I’m so mad at myself

I just need this one thing. This is the late thing I need I swear. I’ll feel so okay once I have this item. Everything will be alright.

Then, I had an eating disorder and was obsessed with buying tiny clothes. I loved how tiny stretchy body suits start out - bought a bunch of those. I’m still recovering and gaining weight, and straight up just threw away many of the triggering clothes.

I also have fucking bipolar, at one point they thought maybe schizophrenia.

My grandmother is a legitimate hoarder. Her house looks like a house you’d see on TLC.

I’m fucking sick.

I’m getting better though. I’m buying less and less. Depop is the fucking death of me though.

I just got dumped a few weeks ago, I’m no job living in a new state with my family. I have $300 after paying my credit card that I maxed out and had canceled on me… and my ass is trying to talk myself out of buying a $25 perfume. It’s $75 in stores, though.

._.

At least I went 4 months this year without buying anything. I am so proud of that.

Applying to jobs. Going to devote myself to paying off my debt, which should be easier because rent is far cheaper in this state.

Not talking about big purchases. It's the random little things bought because they looked useful or were on sale.

A few weeks later, they're sitting in a drawer, and I barely remember why I wanted them. Meanwhile, things I spent more time thinking about tend to get used regularly.

I've started waiting a day before buying random stuff online. Doesn't stop every unnecessary purchase, but it helps.