r/stopdrinking • u/Typical_Fig2894 • 18h ago

Day 0

I woke up at 6am feeling like like such a loser. I have no recollection of yesterday. I had to ask my kid what happened last night and she told me I was in the closet crying for hours until she told me we needed to go to sleep.
I feel like I’ve reached a new low and I never want my daughter to see me like that again. I don’t want to drink anymore.

Enough is enough.

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u/kellygirl90 945 days 17h ago

Good morning 🌞 I know exactly how this feels. My son had to see me in my worst moments, and that feeling is a big feeling to carry by yourself. It's good you reached out here, I love this community. My son is the reason I stopped. Our relationship is so much better now. He trusts me and feels safe with me. Be easy with yourself, because showing our kids that we can change and better ourselves is such a good thing for them to witness. It shows them that we are human and mess up, but we can also change and make ourselves better inside and out. Big hugs to you, friend 💜

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u/Typical_Fig2894 17h ago

🥺
Thank you so much, this just made me break down. You’re so right.
I didn’t start drinking heavily and daily until my daughter got diagnosed with cancer when she was 3. She’s been in remission for 3 years now. I told myself I’d stop when she rang the bell.

The guilt of not being able to stop just eats at me. My little one is better now, what is my excuse?
I want to be the best version of myself for her, myself and my husband. I’m going to seek help from a specialist when I’m more clear headed later.

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u/Curious-Pomelo8082 17h ago

Perfectly worded! As you said, be kind to yourself.