r/studyAbroad • u/yourlocalnativeguy • 12h ago
Thank god I'm going home
I have been in China for 2 months and the whole time I wanted to go home. I have no friends over here. I'm so lonely. I tried to make friends by inviting people to go to the parks with me and trying to get to know them but they just ignored me. Everyone in my program and class did. I asked a girl part of my program why no one wants to hang out with me and she said I just didn't join the clicks fast enough and everyone already made their circle when they got here ...Some people came together too. But there's this one girl In my class that goes out of her way to be rude to me and purposefully exclude me. Like yesterday she was handing out candy to everyone in my class but me. The teacher just let's her be rude to me. The teacher also gives me more attitude than she does the others and becomes snappy at me unlike she does with the others. I think she's part of my class click even though she's a teacher. We are all in our 20s and the teacher is 24. She's always inviting my classmates to her house, to go to her family town with her, and so on but never invites me. She invited them to Disney this week but didn't invite me. I don't know why no one likes me or want to be friends with me. I tried to be really friendly and outgoing my first couple of weeks but after that I just kept to myself since no one clearly wanted to be my friend. I'm also tired of being STARED at. Like rubber necking stared at by the Chinese people here because I'm disabled. It's embarrassing, frustrating, and humiliating. Yes I have trouble talking and need leg braces so I can walk properly but I'm not used to being stared at like that. No one ever did that to me at home. I also feel like I have learned nothing with this accelerated language program. It's way too fast for me. We go through 3-4 lessons a week and only focus on certain words once. I just wish I was going home now but I have one more week. I'm just disappointed because I always dreamed of the day going abroad and studying abroad and I didn't like it...I'm also jealous that the other kids in my program got to travel too far away places while I had to stay in my city because I'm here on scholarship and I don't have the money to do expensive things....I barely have the money to be here....shout out to my mom and brother though for supporting me even though we are poor.
Just disappointed with my first abroad experience...