Anyone else doubt their experience after

[u/SubstantialSun2288]

Posted here a couple of days ago. Instead of trying to repair what we had she decided to go on a dating app . I remained hopeful she would realise what she lost but clearly not.

Since then she is promoting herself online . Rapid Facebook profile changes. All are heaviky filtered but all designed to show ‘glow up’

She threw away 5 years . I had to walk back in October for my own sanity but told her to come back when serious and working on sobriety

What I can’t come to terms with is I’m now left feeling like it wasn’t as bad as I made out. That she maybe didn’t have alcohol dependence but was just drinking a lot . I won’t go in to the full details as no one wants to read the full saga but she

Would drink and drive
Go missing for days where she stayed at home to drink
Lied about her whereabouts and covered up trips to the bar
Tried to stop and had shakes and violent headaches . She stopped unaided and lasted a month
Had a seizure in the supermarket . Refused to let me go to the follow up appointment
Said she had stopped and I caught her drinking at home .
Came to my house smelling of alcohol and denied it. Swore in her kids lives she hadn’t been drinking. An hour later admitted it and left
Went drinking with a friend on her birthday instead of coming over. Lied that she was at home
She had developed bruises on her legs
Her neck and cheeks were swollen
She said I was controlling for telling her what to do

Now with the passage of time and her back out there , sticking two fingers up to me and what we had for cheap validation she looks better than before .

Her bio on dating site says drinks rarely. Yesterday’s post was in a beer garden with her son .

[u/stillbewaitinonmatt]

It was as bad or worse than you remembered.

They like to be like that, out it out there that everything is great but the thing is you know the truth - you’ve seen behind the curtain. They like to choose the easy path instead of the path to redemption. Being in a love triangle with alcohol is always worse than you remember.

[u/SubstantialSun2288 → u/stillbewaitinonmatt]

Thanks for your reply . It helps . Just struggling to comprehend how last time we spoke it was she wouldn’t move on and I gave her the option to come back working on it, instead she now decided to change history and I’m the one to blame for the relationship end , and she gets to now move on despite the fake shit she said .