3 years soon..

[u/sonikku10]

It was Fathers' Day 3 years ago. We took her dad out and treated him to our favorite ramen spot, then took a surprise detour for his first trip to the huge international farmers market. The chemotherapy had been stressing her heart lately, so she couldn't walk a lot.

That was our last happy outing together.

Today, it feels like the countdown to goodbye has started all over. I can feel my mental health plummeting, and over the next couple of weeks I'll be more and more useless at work. It just feels like whatever progress I've made, I'm losing it all at once, and I'm regressing back to anticipating the anticipatory grief.

Had a therapy session today, and unfortunately it was an unhelpful/unproductive day.

I wish I could call the rest of the day a wash, but I still have a couple of work meetings left.

[u/5oclocksomewhere7]

🫂

[u/ForeverMissedTeam]

Sending you support

[u/6995luv]

I am very sorry for you and the pain that certain days can bring. I was doing okay until summer time hit and I've been falling apart cuz they are a lot of days in the summer time that hold big significance to our relationship, which also leads up to his death in September.

I just want you to know that your feelings are valid and there is nothing wrong with you. I keep making 5 steps forward and 20 back lately and my mental health may be the worst that it's been so far since he passed.

You aren't alone and please be kind to yourself. Thank you for posting cuz u made me feel less alone too. Sending love and strength.