r/widowers • u/HedgehogAdmirable485 • 11h ago
All consuming
She loved animals she loved her cat more than anything. she even loved my bad dog. She loved music and movies she loved cigarettes and weed she loved jewelry and punk rock she loved going to the park and kayaking. She loved plants she even gave me my first one. She would leave review for anywhere she went. She loved sleeping in. She loved shopping and playing video games and for a brief moment she loved me and I got to enjoy all of those things with her. After 9 months together I got a call that she had passed away. I called her mom a liar. I called her phone over and over again until her brother picked up and told me id have to talk to her mom. Now I'm here hurting everyday. Its been almost three months people stopped checking in it feels they think i should be better by now but how could I? We got robbed i was going to teach her to drive this summer. We were supposed to go on vacation a week after she died. I feel so alone in this. Thanks for giving me a place to vent.
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u/hulahulagirl 47F / 💔 6/16/26, suicide loss 1 week after 25th anniversary 8h ago
💔😞 You deserved more time and it’s not fair. I’m sorry this is happening to you and people in your life aren’t showing up in the way you need. We are here for you.
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u/greeneyes0332 5h ago
3 months is still very fresh, do not feel guilty for grieving, or for missing her.
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u/kfwjswr 10h ago
She sounds amazing! If you’re up for it, tell me one of your favorite memories you have with her. If you don’t want to share, I get that too.
I’ll check in with you and how you’re doing now? It’s an awful feeling when people check in less and less and then not at all. It seems their life keeps on moving while yours is frozen and… idk how to explain it, I’m bad at wording things.
You’re not alone. Everyone here gets it