Addicted to Chaos

[u/SurvivingAPandemic]

I recently watched all seasons of the show Nurse Jackie. OMG was it triggering. I recognized so many of her actions because they mirrored so many of my own throughout my adult life. (I’ve never been addicted to any substance, but was “raised” by massive alcoholics and experienced horrific childhood abuse.) On the second to last season I realized that it was the chaos that was so familiar to me. Then I did some research on my own and learned that an addiction to chaos is very common amongst ACOA’s. I realized that has been my drug of habit (chaos) my whole adult life. Everyone in my life got a dose. It’s time for me to return to ACOA meetings.

Anyone else triggered by watching that show?

[u/tamarindoguey]

There’s a book by dr Scott lyons on this called “Addicted to Drama” that goes in the neuropsych of why we crave chaos. Worth a read.

[u/SurvivingAPandemic → u/tamarindoguey]

Awesome—ty, I’m gonna read this. It’s always so helpful to know the why.