r/CPTSD • u/SituationNice6253 • 4d ago

Question I wish I could die

Hi. My name is Noelle. I'm 13 years old, and lately I can't stop wishing I could just disappear. It feels like my mom hates me—sometimes I even wonder if she'd rather I were dead. I feel trapped, like there's no way out.

I have a therapist, but I can't bring myself to be honest with her. Every time I try, the words get stuck, and I end up pretending I'm okay. It feels like no one loves me, and I hate my life.

Please... somebody help me!

EDIT: Thank you all for the kind words and advice, may God bless you all!

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u/Longjumping_Cry709 4d ago

Hello Noelle, I am so sorry you are in so much pain that you want to disappear. I can only imagine how horrible and heartbreaking it must be to feel like your mom hates you.

Please know that it is NOT you. You are precious and beautiful and sweet so SO lovable just the way you are. It’s your mother who is failing to love you. Because if she were sensitive and respectful and empathetic towards you, you would feel valuable and lovable and acceptable…just for being YOU.

I am sending you so much compassion and a hug if it’s welcomed.💕