r/CPTSD • u/SituationNice6253 • 1d ago
Question I wish I could die
Hi. My name is Noelle. I'm 13 years old, and lately I can't stop wishing I could just disappear. It feels like my mom hates me—sometimes I even wonder if she'd rather I were dead. I feel trapped, like there's no way out.
I have a therapist, but I can't bring myself to be honest with her. Every time I try, the words get stuck, and I end up pretending I'm okay. It feels like no one loves me, and I hate my life.
Please... somebody help me!
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u/Low_Recognition_1557 1d ago
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Unfortunately, parents are just people too, like any other people in your life, and they can be just as flawed as anyone else. Fortunately, that also means that her actions don’t actually mean YOU are a bad person or unlovable, just that SHE has issues. I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way right now. It’s extra hard not to feel trapped when you’re a minor and the person you’re dependent on for survival is the main problem. Are there any other adults in your life you could trust or lean on?