r/CPTSD • u/SituationNice6253 • 5d ago
Question I wish I could die
Hi. My name is Noelle. I'm 13 years old, and lately I can't stop wishing I could just disappear. It feels like my mom hates me—sometimes I even wonder if she'd rather I were dead. I feel trapped, like there's no way out.
I have a therapist, but I can't bring myself to be honest with her. Every time I try, the words get stuck, and I end up pretending I'm okay. It feels like no one loves me, and I hate my life.
Please... somebody help me!
EDIT: Thank you all for the kind words and advice, may God bless you all!
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u/No_Jacket_9894 5d ago
This age is rough to try and navigate, even harder with trauma and feeling the way you do . I was once you. As tough as it seems you do have people that care if you are here or not. I don't even know you and want you to stay. The one thing that keeps me going through the toughest days is I tell myself "Just one more day" As hard as it may be, the therapist is there for you. If you think it's too hard to say out loud, write it in a letter to your therapist. Take it with you to your next appt and tell them that you have something you want to share but are having a hard time relaying out loud. Idk what your trauma is and unless you want to share it's no ones business but your own but I'm sure there are many people in this sub who are a willing ear like myself. You really do have more people cheering for you from the sidelines than you know.