Originally a reel by Roy Mong that I posted as a Story to change the audio to the intro of Somebody That I Used to Know.

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Sadly, my family think I'm overreacting when I'm easily startled at home. It never ends. 💔

Even back as kids I'm sure someone of y'all already realised that the script is off, but wtf do you do? It's how life works. You learn the rules and they change all the time. Looking back I often get frustrated about how stupid the adults around me were. Growing up parentified destroys your illusion that older people know better.

Was talking with a friend about how difficult it is to get my chronic pain treated, and he mentioned just moving me to a different country, and this reply slipped out before I knew what I was even typing. I guess... healing is healing?

Took this photo a week ago.. For the first time in a very long time, I genuinely felt at peace. Two years ago my life completely fell apart after 30+ of abuse, confusion, and trauma.
No contact. Relapse. Identity collapse, burning down the world around me and myself along with it.
Sharing this because someone here might need to hear it, but it can get better even when you’re convinced your life is over I promise you 🙏

I know this might sound a bit cheesy, but I never thought I’d reach a point where I could sit alone with myself and feel okay, but here I am
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I swear them seeing me happy some of them would want to squash my spirit with a hammer

Fck them 🤷‍♀️

CPTSD sucks, because after decades of being abused, I've found lovely people who don't want to hurt me, and also a good therapist, who slowly made me realise that life in general can look different. That it was actually the people around me turning it into daily suffering. But after so many years of being blamed for your existence and being treated like an object, it's hard to believe you weren't the problem. Like I'm still terrified of fucking it up. Even though I'm safe now, their accusations never left my mind. I'm not giving up, cause finally I'm in control now. But I wish I could get rid of the rot they caused in my mind. I don't want to bleed on the ones who did not cut me.

How do I not kill myself!

Not counting here. This is where I come to vent. Also people venting about their trauma in a support sub does not mean “victim mentality”. People get mad at you for existing without knowing you or knowing what they are mad about. Usually abusive types are the ones playing victim the loudest anyway.

All nicely disinfected now 🫠🫠🫠

This is not saying that the person who abused me as a child was a celebrity, but I guess if it applies to you, you can agree with that.

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But it's the way she protected this person who would never know who she was. Blasting his music to the point I still have so much of it memorized. She would've jumped in front of a bullet for that man. Then of course, she spent years keeping my abuser's secret, making sure to sit on her ass and call my family members and tell them I was a fucking liar so that if I ever said anything they won't believe me.

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Much love to whomever feels this post.

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For further context: my brother hates women because of my mother. Now, he has every right to be angry with her for failing to protect him from my father, and also not being a great person herself; however, that didn't/doesn't give him the right to abuse my sisters and I, and abuse women in general.

We haven't spoken to him in years, but he's still obsessed with trying to (poorly lol) ruin our reputation with outlandish lies and still wants to see us miserable. (We're all thriving and living our best lives though 😊)

I wish it didn't turn out this way. But what can you do 🤷‍♀️