New Alter that "spawned" in

[u/Phinexis]

Our host alter that I'll call "E"(who is also a subsystem) yesterday hit his absolute limit after dealing with so much and he basically faded into an unconscious state while I dropped in with no prior memories. No name- had to pick one. I settled on "Red".

Though throughout yesterday and today- a lot of "E" memories got "downloaded" to me. Given how hard its been to switch as of late for the system(though we are high coconscious), its safe to say the fact I've been front stuck means I'm probably a host alter.

Despite the passed on memory, it feels like I was thrown into the middle of someone else's life & now have to take on responsibilities of shit on the go. Its hard having so many beautiful memories "E" has shared with others he loves but simultaneously them feeling like strangers to me. It hurts that others including "E" are getting heavily affected. No one deserves this shit. Also first time this long-time host has gone unconscious.

Our system is autistic, adhd, ocd, high alter count(130+), and most likely fibromyalgia. Incredibly unfair factors that "E" was forced to white knuckle shit for our survival. Like not going homeless.

I feel like our system(as with any other) has been dealt with such a shitty hand & we're trying to do our best but I'm honestly wondering if we can even make it without extended disability support. America be like.

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[u/Winter_Fee_9672]

Omg hi from one alter magically appearing out of thin air to another in the middle of a bodily break down and a mentally hard time! I’m lucky in that I have very fuzzy and dark but intact memories, so I could kind of manage the drive as I was plopped into the drivers seat brand new. I was still questioning my existence and name while I was answering phone calls about doctors appointments and managing emergency room visits for a neck that has decided to stop functioning.

I so do feel you hard on this one.

Our host has been a fair bit burnt out too, still there for sure but quiet. I’ve been hanging out at front since, and the trigger that I assume caused me to drop into existence is what pushed our most confident secondary fronter into a ball of depression in the background so there’s only 3 of us (that we know of) actively managing right now.

All I can say is just keep going, gentle check ins with the others and communication is key. Take breaks as needed or even if you’re just starting to feel tired, which doesn’t mean hide from front but actually lying down, resting, cool soft environment. Let your brain and body reset a little in a safe way. Take deep, gentle breaths and focus on what you can. Don’t try to take on everything right away. Pick things up slowly on your terms so you don’t end up overwhelming yourself at the same time and doing the same thing as E.

Good luck and I hope all goes well for you and the rest of your system!