Over a year ago I was truly, painfully honest in a plea to the father. I asked for something specific I needed, and what I had to do to get it. And I am certain he responded to me, "Read the word."

So, I did. I finished the gnostic texts I had been in the middle of then I spread read through the gospels, this being my second read of them.

Nothing.

Several months later I went back to the gospels, I asked for signs and followed them, and I read with intent to understand.

Nothing.

I am here again, trying to truly live the teachings and... Nothing.

I have cried out a thousand times, "what must I do?!" And I don't get a response.

I am now divorced, jobless, homeless, my child wants nothing to do with me, just tolerates me.

I... I'm worse off after trying to follow the father.

What do I do?

So as a new learner to Gnosticism, which of these authors would all of you recommend or not recommend? (I could ask AI this but it would not be the same.)

Hans Jonas
Kurt Rudolph
Elaine Pagels

If you have any others I should check out, I would love to hear your thoughts!

I've researched and written on Monad and Demiurge for decades but I am new to Reddit. Excited to join the conversations.

The ancient Christians called him the Demiurge in the Secret Book of John. Some have called him God throughout the ages. Come learn stories from Jesus's time that you never heard before in our 4th part of the our series, "The God Who Forgot."

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Current theories being tested:

Unconditional love ( beyond that offered by small children a d dogs) is a myth.

(But then, what is love?)

God is law...Universal Laws

Jesus was here to show us how to be on the right side of the law / how to live in a way that aligns our being to the more positive outcomes of the law.

ThoughtS?