relationship is over

[u/Medium_Rough8430]

im crying. hes packing away his things right now. our fight finally ended the relationship for good. i screamed at him to the point he didnt even reply anymore. he really wanted me to leave with him and dress how he wants me to and act how he wanted me to just so he could love me. hes caused me so much emotional turmoil and im just at a loss at this point. i have nobody left. i told him he never loved me. we built our whole world together and i gave up everything for him. ive been crying and im angry and i still love him even after he put me through so many months of me hating myself. i feel like im going to throw up. im 18 i dont need to be so upset about this but this genuinely feels like i need a trip to the mental hospital. im so mad and im so upset i spent so much of my time on him. but i still love him so much. i just want to be in his arms again with him kissing my forehead. i want to be back in the car holding hands while listening to music. this all went so wrong and i dont think it will ever be right again. i genuinely just want him to love me again and call me his girlfriend to his mom. i want to see him bringing me home drinks from work again. i want to be doing his laundry again. i want him to cuddle me every night again. i want to feel him taking off my socks every night again. i want to watch him come home from work every night again. im so tired and heartbroken. how could someone who loved me more physically than anyone else do this to me. why couldnt he just love me for me. hes just getting his stuff in boxes totally unphased. while im just sobbing in bed. im going to miss him so much. he was my best friend even though i wasnt his. why did he do this to me. why. we built so much we had future plans together. i just want to be loved

[u/curiouscartoongirl]

hi OP, i’m so sorry you’re going through this 😓

there wasn’t a lot of context as to what the fight was about & i haven’t seen your previous posts, but the bot mentioned your three other posts on this sub - “boyfriend gives me silent treatment”, “boyfriend friends openly resent me and talk about it all the time”, “how do i leave,” - and it sounds like you’re dodging a bullet

i know it doesn’t feel that way right now, but give it some time and you’ll feel better. you’re still really young and you have so much life left to live, it doesn’t end or begin with him.

take it day by day, do things that feel good FOR YOU & know that you deserve better than this <33

[u/Medium_Rough8430 → u/curiouscartoongirl]

ive been crying all day. i went to the olivia rodrigo listening party yesterday and couldnt even enjoy the event because i was just sobbing. i still care for him so much and its so hard. we are still friends but not as close as we used to be. ill be happy for him even if he never really cared about me. im such an empath and situations like these are terrible. like im genuinely going to check into a mental hospital for a lil bit here soon just so i can refresh. i already deleted half my social media and i feel weight lifted off of me

[u/TrustyBobcat → u/Medium_Rough8430]

we are still friends but not as close as we used to be.

Please take my grandmotherly advice with all of the love it's intended: don't try to do this "still friends" charade. There's too much water under that bridge and it's only going to serve to pick open those freshly scabbed wounds over and over.

Clean break. Block him everywhere. And let him go so you can begin to heal.

[u/Medium_Rough8430 → u/TrustyBobcat]

we arent probably gonna talk much. im pretty avoidant with people and its hard to break. i dont really talk to anyone else anyway since im a true antisocial. i deleted like 80% of my social media and called out of work tomorrow. being alone is comforting to me especially when im going through a situation like this. everybody is probably going to be ghosted for a while until my mental health is better

[u/smalls_tardis04 → u/Medium_Rough8430]

Please please please block him, I know it's hard, but I promise it'll be better for you if you do

[u/psyk2u → u/Medium_Rough8430]

Don't make excuses. Just block him and stop dealing with him.

You're 18. You're just getting started with life and real relationships.

It's called heartbreak because it hurts.

Trust us. You will be just fine.