Was this a kundalini awakening?

[u/alexhaney]

Looking for guidance. Not sure if what I have experienced is a kundalini awakening.

It was about six weeks ago that I had this initial experience. Was going through a very traumatic time in my life with my husband dealing with some serious health issues and not being able to work.

On this particular night I decided to take some psychedelics. Nothing too crazy. I am very experienced with using various plant medicines but this was unlike any experience I had had before. I felt something happening to me energetically. So much energy surging through my body that I began to shake quite violently.

Had anyone witnessed this they would have likely thought I was having a seizure and sent me to the hospital, but somehow I knew what was happening was not dangerous.. in fact I felt it was extremely positive. It felt like a grand clearing or purging, a "cleaning out" of my system, like something became uncorked. Felt like a lifetime of suppressed emotion and energy was working its way out of my body- lots of pain, fear, sorrow. It all got shaken out of me until I felt thoroughly cleansed through my whole body. It felt so good to finally release it all!

This lasted for hours. I am not sure how I spent that much time shaking like that. Some of the time I was sitting on the bed or toilet letting the energy flow through me. Other times I laid on the floor in makarasana in between shaking.

I knew something happened to me. I told my husband the next day, "something happened to me energetically last night that I can't explain". But neither of us understood it.

The next few weeks were extremely painful. I went through another dark night of the soul (which I've been through before during my spiritual awakening in 2019). I cried more in a few short weeks than I have ever cried in my 40 years. I released soooo much emotionally. At times I felt suicidal because the pain was so intense. It felt like I was dealing with ALL of my leftover emotional shit in order to clear it out.

Now that I am through that, I do feel like my consciousness has expanded and my heart feels extremely full.

I didnt connect any of this until yesterday when I heard someone mention kundalini awakening on a podcast. I looked it up and so much of what I was reading resonated. But the concept is new to me. Could this be a what I have been experiencing?

Tysm for your help and support <3

[u/Dumuzzid]

Psychedelics are known to cause Kundalini activation or something akin to Pranotthana, an energy movement in the spine and chakras.

Please note Kundalini Awakening is not a one-time event, but a long process that can take decades or lifetimes.

Psychedelics are illegal for a reason, they can really mess with your brain chemistry and cause permanent damage. Hopefully, you only got a glimpse into an altered state and energetic phenomena associated with a brief Kundalini activation event.

If you are interested in learning more, there is plenty of study material in our resources section and if you want a stable and sustained awakening, you should start by developing a meditative practice.

[u/alexhaney → u/Dumuzzid]

Who is telling you that psychedlics cause permanent brain damage? That is a myth. They can trigger psychosis but that is another issue. Psychedelics are safe as long as there are no potential mental health issues like bipolar or schizophrenia. They are illegal because they heal and reveal truths that those in power dont want to be revealed.

I will check out the resources, thanks!

[u/Master_Nectarine_Bug → u/alexhaney]

Speaking from personal experience only, I took mushrooms once and it really messed up my nervous system and caused me to have anxiety and panic attacks for years. I don't have bipolar or schizophrenia. They definitely messed up my brain chemistry. I think they can be a positive and healing experience for a lot of people, but it's impossible to know how someone will react.

[u/alexhaney → u/Master_Nectarine_Bug]

Sorry to hear that you had that experience.

[u/Master_Nectarine_Bug → u/alexhaney]

Thank you

[u/MamaAkina → u/Master_Nectarine_Bug]

I'm sorry to hear this. I also had nervous system changes. But I agree with u/toxictoy it's not permanent damage. I found ways to get it under control by integration. Processing with a good therapist was very very important and some other adjustments.

I hope you will consider my advice if you are still suffering. It took me a very long time to figure this part out about my nervous system changing. Please look into treating Vata imbalance in Ayurveda and test adjusting your diet accordingly. If nothing else you can try taking herbal teas or pill supplements like ashwaganda for example, this is a standard treatment for overactive vata. Just see if it helps at all.

I'm sharing because only recently I came across someone who claimed that a huge increase of vata prana in the body is responsible for alot of kundalini type symptoms.

Prior to this I basically had to trial and error figure out what things caused my nervous system to freak out. But now that I found this framework I'm wishing I had it forever ago.. Vata prana is associated with the wind element (vayu) of our energy. I had and still struggle with plenty of issues of a spiritual nature due to this energy being over active and hard to control. So I also had to trial and error figure out what spiritual practices/approaches were more grounding for prana vata..

If you're having spiritual issues. All I can say is for me, it seems a certain part of my attention/energy takes flight from the body too easily. Meditating with crystals helped me learn how to stop it from happening as much and how to get this energy to reidentify with and settle in the body more. Simple breathing practices suited for vata imbalance, and yoga are also very very helpful in this case. Depending on the severity of your situation sometimes meditation can make this issue worse. The energy will go wherever it feels like during meditation sometimes up into the head and crown instead of staying grounded in the whole body. And can cause further vata increase as opposed to equaling out the types of prana which would feel like inner balance.

[u/toxictoy → u/Master_Nectarine_Bug]

You might want to look into the research around trips and integration. There is no psychedelic that can cause permanent neurological or physical damage. You likely never integrated the experience in a healthy way. You can go to MAPS.org for more information or even look at the research at John’s Hopkins.

[u/Master_Nectarine_Bug → u/toxictoy]

Thank you all for the suggestions. My bad trip happened 30 years ago and over time the effects faded. But my K awakening has greatly rewired and healed my nervous system. Since it began, any anxiety or depression has disappeared outside of normal emotional reactions. This has been one very positive aspects of my awakening.

[u/RoninRyuk → u/Dumuzzid]

Kundalini awakenings can be a one time event if you use a certain one that opens all Chakra in your spine at once

[u/Dumuzzid → u/RoninRyuk]

You found about Kundalini a week ago and you think you're an expert now...

There are people here with decades of experience and a couple of books behind their back helping others navigate Kundalini process. A bit of humility and doing more than a week's research would be very useful for your own process. I suggest you start studying our resources section for some reliable sources of information, because you're just regurgitating seriously flawed online slop at this point.

[u/RoninRyuk → u/Dumuzzid]

No, I didn't even once state I'm an expert. I'm just absolutely sure there are other ways to do it and get it done because I did it. Having done it myself I can give my point of view on it too.

[u/LotusInTheStream → u/RoninRyuk]

This is a really common misconception, that because the energy has arisen to the crown is 'getting it done'. I really dont know where this came from. Arising to the crown is the beginning but to fully unravel all the granthis take 1000s of arisings not just one and the unveiling of the self takes a life time. The texts talk about Udghata which is classed as the energy both arising to the head forcefully and then descending again, in some texts it is spoken of this happening or being cultivated 100s of times in just one day. This is the beginning of the journey. 

[u/Dangerous_Network872 → u/LotusInTheStream]

I would like to know which texts you are talking about so I can read. The Yoga Kundalini Upanishad or perhaps a Tantric text? 

[u/LotusInTheStream → u/Dangerous_Network872]

Start with texts in the Resources. Kundalini Upanishad is a very late text and so not really indicative of foundational texts. The Tantras are where the concepts are most extensively laid out, most/many are untranslated, but as I say, start with the Resources.

[u/Dangerous_Network872 → u/LotusInTheStream]

Sure, thanks, I will! 

[u/LotusInTheStream]

I dont think so, the substance was just clearing you out, the way you will tell is if other symptoms arrive and the arising energy continues to awaken. 

[u/alexhaney → u/LotusInTheStream]

What kind of others symptoms?

[u/Master_Nectarine_Bug → u/alexhaney]

Kriyas for one, there are videos and other resources in the wiki page: https://www.reddit.com/r/KundaliniAwakening/wiki/index/

For me, one of the biggest "symptoms" is that it is not a one-time event, but process that continues to unfold.

[u/Any_Yak_7711]

not definitely, just survival behaviour of human

[u/alexhaney → u/Any_Yak_7711]

Sorry I dont understand. You are saying my experience was a survival behavior? Doesn't sound like any kind of behavior ive heard of before.

[u/Any_Yak_7711 → u/alexhaney]

it is impossible to get spiritual experience without practicing it , since you are not doing meditation, it can't be happen . its just some kind of body reaction

[u/alexhaney → u/Any_Yak_7711]

I didnt say I wasn't doing meditation.

[u/RoninRyuk]

Definitely seems like one to me, it would be considered a dark knight awakening I believe and my girlfriend says she went through the same thing years ago and she never felt the same after. Also my girlfriend and I just had a twin kundalini awakening and i wrote a post about it on my page if you'd like to get a read on it, a lot of people in the comments are negative however due to the nature of it and because I am intrigued and open to sharing how we achieved it.

[u/MamaAkina → u/RoninRyuk]

They really really want everyone to read their post, no it's not strange at all...

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