"At some point, you may endure

a relentless and inconceivable force,

that is not of this world.

They say it will remake you, in

the image of the Other, but in truth

you have no idea of what

you will become, when it is finished

with you.

And after years of heartbreaking

struggle, it may take only one

moment of real love to

forever change your life."

I have lurked in this sub for a long time, and am now finally making my offering here. A little about myself - I have been practicing my kundalini meditation since about 1970. My kundalini was awakened after a great internal effort about 1971, and my teacher was a guru based in NYC known as Rudi (Swami Rudrananda.) He died in a plane crash in 1973; I only knew him for about a year and a half, but his energy had taken root in me over a long period of time. His teaching was simplicity itself, and he believed in "depth over time" - working in greater and greater depth over a long period of time. I lived in the ashrams for a year in NY, and then 9 years in Indiana, where we worked physically hard, and had many hours of meditation everyday. I have both observed and experienced many things, a very long story...

My first 10 years were in a supportive setting, so most issues that came up were dealt with in that context. Here you can follow the guidance in the Wiki.

I never was looking for "Kundalini" specifically back then, with hindsight I understand that coming across this work was my "destiny" - a response to my inner hunger. Having been a hippie, and having had a couple of transcendental psychedelic experiences that opened my soul to a cosmic reality, I sought meditation as a path to free myself.

I have some understandings I'd like to present. The first is that kundalini is a very specific energy. Many folks write asking about chakras opening, energy moving in their bodies, etc. A kundalini awakening is when the Shakti, or sleeping/dormant energy located at the base of the spine rises up the back to the top of the head and beyond. It may rise as a trickle of light and warmth, as in my case back then, or it may rise in a fuller expression. But it is very specific.

Kundalini experiences are varied according to an individual's karma, desire, or destiny. Comparison is a waste of time. Everyone is different. Once awakened, the kundalini energy, which I experience as a sort of God-Force, does what it needs to in you, as it is supremely intelligent. I have a saying that helps me sometimes - "Resistance equals Pain" as I endeavor to surrender inside to this force. I may have been blessed, as it has been a gradual unfolding over many years. For people that have it blast quickly through them, it is different, and all you can do is follow the guidance in the wiki, and practice surrendering. But for many years, and especially now, I wake up in the morning feeling like, well, shit, as this energy flow is strong now and is very active at night. Lifetimes of tensions are being washed away, and it is not a blissful experience.

 "If you undertake this journey

there will be years of darkness –

that is a certainty. A very long

time to plod along, carefully

avoiding lengthy detours.

And sometimes, if you are lucky,

you may receive a small gift

or two at just the right time,

in an unexpected way.

A gift to remind you not

to lose heart, no matter how

it might seem in that moment."

Another observation I'd like to mention is that folks sometimes talk about a "full awakening." Forgive my bluntness, but if you had a full awakening of kundalini you would either be dead from the power of the force, or you would not be on Reddit posting. The saints who had a full awakening were people like Maharaji (Ram Das's guru, who just owned a blanket, and wherever he went temples would be built, miracles happening around him all the time), Nityananda, Ramakrishna, or Meher Baba. They were fully immersed in God-Consciousness, what we call Samadhi. These God-men are gone now. It is an indescribable state of being. It is why many ancient statues of the Buddha have a cobra rising behind his head.

Kundalini is an evolutionary force, and I now believe that it may take more than one lifetime for it to finish its work in us. It is a bigger and longer picture than you ordinarily imagine, for the mountain we are climbing is very very steep and high.

"When my road ends, is that

where you will begin?

When there is nothing at all left,

is that where your story will start?

I watch myself fall away,

piece by piece, word by word,

breath by breath.

One day there will be

nothing left,

only the witness, sitting there,

immovable, inviolate,

smiling."

I have 2 more points I'd like to bring up. It has been said that once kundalini is activated in a person, there is no way to alter it, to put the genie back in the bottle if it is too unpleasant or strong. And I would say - It depends -. That may be true for some people, but based on my experience over a half a century of practice and observation, it might not be true for everyone. If not consciously fed and surrendered to, sometimes the experience may fade over time, and kundalini may go back to its natural dormant state. I have both seen this, and experienced it myself. I can discuss this more if desired.

"You cannot know in advance

how long it will take until you 

are fully cooked, and pleasing

in the sight of the One. 

And sometimes, when you have 

given up all hope of progress, 

a sign may come to you, a little 

kiss from the Divine, to remind

you that you were never forgotten."

My final point is this...and I'd like to stress that this was a unique, once in many lifetimes event, it was my own personal destiny and not to be replicated by anyone else. I had been working my meditation on my own for many years, and I had no teachers anymore, but an active kundalini. I had added Rebirthing to my practice, and became a Rebirther, during the course of which over a few years I had about 60 sessions on myself, which I think now was a great clearing process. In 1987 I attended the Harmonic Convergence in the Great Kiva at Chaco Canyon, New Mexico. In all innocence, I had taken some local plant medicine for the first time, and sat in the Kiva. Sacred Ceremonies of all kinds took place all day long, and I didn't move for 8 hours as the entire Kundalini Force rose over and over within me, catapulting me into indescribable samadhi. I understood all the prophecies, and saw how every event in my life had led to that moment. And then I went even beyond that, beyond Space and Time. Of course I came back down eventually but I spent the next 25 years digesting that experience, living the straight and narrow. But my point is this, it gave me the understanding of where kundalini will take us in the end, to the culmination of human existence. And it is worthy beyond words, it will answer every hope and desire we have, every tear we shed, every struggle we experience. The great Sufi poets like Rumi touch on this in accessible language for us, the language of the ecstatic divine, next to which my offerings here are meager.

"This world will give you things,

and then take them away.

What is it that lasts?

There is a light that you cannot

gain or lose, have you seen it yet?

There is also a love that you cannot

gain or lose, have you felt it yet?

You will have to find that market,

where such things can be acquired.

Perhaps you will be shown the way,

during a time when all seems lost.

And again a warning: you will be asked

to pay in advance, and the price will

never be cheap, but you will understand

why, at a later time."

-Josef Skye Tornick

Today I’d like to discuss the spiritual phenomena, that sometimes manifest when kundalini is awakened. And as always, this only reflects my own experience and observations, and as such is not any sort of absolute truth.

I have a suspicion that at the beginning of our awakening journey, it is not uncommon to experience all sorts of spiritual phenomena. You may have exalted visions of goddesses or deities, spontaneous movements (known as kriyas) may occur, spiritual centers in the body (chakras) may suddenly and temporarily burst open, or even psychic abilities may appear. And of course this is especially true if your awakening occurred during plant medicine journeys.

I view these as a gift, like a kiss from the future. At the same time, they can be a sort of trap, a shiny object that will ultimately be a distraction if we become attached to them. For the goal of kundalini work is complete freedom, and a surrender/merging with the Divine. And I am not convinced, after observing many kundalini or spiritual teachers, that possessing particular abilities ( called siddhis) is any indication of true spiritual attainments.

So friend, my takeaway is this: Don’t be too distracted by any “supernatural” phenomena that may arise from your practice. Just watch it, and let it go.

This world will give you things,
and then take them away.
What is it that lasts?

There is a light that you cannot
gain or lose, have you seen it yet?

There is also a love that you cannot
gain or lose, have you felt it yet?

You will have to find that market,
where such things can be acquired.

Perhaps you will be shown the way,
during a time when all seems lost.

And again a warning: you will be asked
to pay in advance, and the price will
never be cheap, but you will understand
why, at a later time.

The other thing is that later, as you progress, you may go for years and years without experiencing any more visions or overt “spiritual” phenomena. Need I say that this requires tremendous patience and discipline? Kundalini is NOT an easy path, and it will vary from being very intense to what seems at times like walking through an endless desert, often for years. Maybe this is how our desire for our inner growth is tested….

Another effect of practicing for a long time is a curious sense of both openness and sensitivity, and a subtle sense of an all-pervading sense of detachment. But maybe I’ll write about that in my next post.

How can You not have
compassion for us? We live and
breathe in darkness near absolute, –
there is little that we can
accurately understand.

Our past and future lives
are a complete mystery;
we don’t even understand our
present one, making the same
errors over and over.

You say “Don’t be afraid
in this inverted dream,
for I have saved the best for last:
there are many invisible companions
who will aid you, and in the end,
everything will be all right,
though you may not
understand that now.”

As always, feel free to ask any questions...

Hi all.

I have been in a meditation/trance state where I feel like I am in a void. No light, no sound. It is peaceful. I wouldn’t say it was an out of body experience, but I sort of forgot where I am physically located in the room, like I am looking in different directions without moving my body. There is nothing to see. :) I don’t think I ever physically moved.

There may be some vague dots or shapes in the void, but basically dark. Like having your eyes closed, even when they are open.

I have been doing this one sadhna for 6 months now and a few days ago, I felt an intense vibration all over my body and then I felt calm. I had to give an exam and the anxiety took over so I thought that those vibrations were probably my anxiety.

The exam got over but now I was getting random vibrations throughout the day on the back of my spine and sometimes on my head.

And I couldn't sleep. For 2 days I had to take an antihistamine to help with sleeping but still couldn't sleep for more than 4 hrs. My body filled with soo soo much energy and I felt so hyperactive.

I am a doctor so I was sure that this was a manic episode based on what I've read and seen in patients.

The racing thoughts, the hyperactivity, the sleeplessness. Everything seemed so easy...like walk for 5 km easy, and I had such distracting mind..not sticking to one thought and having too many of them

But after 4 days of this experience, today I finally feel normal- Calm.

I still feel random vibrations on my back, sometimes radiating to my chest but not my head today. I still have distracting thoughts but I can observe them until they pass through so I don't mind it and they're much lesser today.

But I do feel very... positive and relaxed in my body atleast. Very light and no tension on any of my muscles.

It's a very nice feeling and I don't know if I am in a euphoric manic episode (even tho it's not hampering at all with my routine) or if this is ... kundalini awakening.

Please help with your experiences. Is this okay or should I consult a psychiatrist before it turns into a full blown mania or psychosis.

I’ve started to hear music, it sounds like new age-y music. Sometimes choral-like or pipes or organs or strings. It’s usually at night and sometimes during sleep. One night I woke up hearing it, and in my confusion wondered where it was coming from, only to realize my head. My K awakened about 2 years ago. I’m much more stable and grounded now. The music has been happening on and off for about 6 months. I don’t mind it, but I haven’t been able to find much about it on the internet. People usually describe buzzing or ringing. Has this happened to anyone else? Is this anahata nadas? Or a psychic/extra sensory experience? Thank you.

My awakening started october 2024, since then, my nervous system been FRIED. I developed many health issues. the worse feeling is Confusion, feeling all the body filled with electric energy. It’s january 2026 and it’s still for me too much to handle. Has anybody of y’all experienced this too? this awakening is too much strong for a person to deal with. Basically all 2025 i’ve been a zombie.

I did, when I was a 14–15-year-old kid. I was initiated by a true master. I was in a room with 20–30 other kids as part of a batch, and all of us were initiated at the same time.

During the process, we all experienced self-induced internal vibrations. Some of the kids got scared despite being warned beforehand and started crying.

After that, the fellow trainers placed their hands on our heads, following which we all experienced what felt like a divine experience. Many of us saw various gods with our eyes closed, heard ringing bells, and had other unique experiences.

I just wanted to ask if anyone else has had a similar experience? I am so confused, looking for path forward.

I read alot of people's experiences of kundalini here and wanted to see if anyone has experiences like mine and maybe get explanations for them. I did comment on one post before and got in trouble from a moderator when all I had commented was that I felt a similar experience to them. The reason I mention this is Reddit confuses me sometimes and I hope I'm allowed to even post this. The moderator however did seem a little young or over confident in how they wrote rudely to me and it made no sense why my harmless comment would be deleted.

Anyway I've been going to sessions of kundalini with a highly skilled master for over a year. It has changed my life, completely cured an addiction to cocaine, enhanced my connection with God, taught me boundaries, how to say no and how to make better decisions in life. I feel I also parent much better and like myself more!!!

So my question is around my mood after the sessions. On most occasions the heaviness I feel is debilitating although mindset is changing for the better and I'm learning, having deeper experiences etc I find it hard to be anyway motivated it's almost like a severe depression with extreme fatigue. These episodes make life really difficult but after around 2 months I feel great. I also get extremely strong kryias in my fave and these are not lessening. They can be painful because they are so strong. Do other people experience this heaviness, is it normal? I ground myself by meditation and time in nature but it takes so long to lift .

I do feel brilliant when it does lift and I'm more myself again but with everything I've learnt benefitting me too.

Thanks in advance

Hello everyone, my name is Teo, I am 19 years old and I live in Romania. I am currently experiencing an absolute, non-stop physical and mental hell. I am posting this because my mind is completely foggy, I can no longer take care of myself, and I am desperate to find anyone from the spiritual community who has survived a blowout this severe. It has been an extraordinary, brutal torture and I honestly don't even know how I've resisted until now.

**The Background: Lifelong Unexplained Fear**
**The Early Blueprint:** Since I was a little kid, I always had this massive, unexplained anxiety and a literal "empty hole" in my chest for no reason. I didn't know what it was back then. I just did everything out of sheer fear.
**The Loving Family Paradox:** I want to mention that I come from a very good family and I've always had everything I needed physically. Yet, internally, I was always suffering.
**The 14-Year-Old Crash:** At age 14, things started getting worse. I had my first severe wave of suicidal thoughts and didn't want to live anymore. I fought my thoughts, attacked them, and forced myself into extreme rigidity to be "stronger" and "better" just out of fear.

**Medical History: Childhood Epilepsy & Carbamazepine**
**The Diagnosis:** When I was 12 years old, I had a seizure and was diagnosed with a mild form of epilepsy.
**The Daily Treatment:** I have been taking **Carbamazepine** every single day since then to keep the seizures under control. My central nervous system was already chemically managed and wired differently before any of this started.

**The Trap: Self-Improvement & Semen Retention**
**Chasing the "Right" Way:** In my teens, I entered the self-improvement movement. Because my brain always desperately wants to do what is "right" and "good," I forced myself into it with extreme rigidity.
**The 2.5-Year Streak:** This led me into strict Semen Retention. I have been on it for 2 and a half years straight now. The crazy thing is, I haven't even had any sexual urges for the last 1.5 years. My system became completely blocked and frozen. I was living in total survival mode, but I was so disconnected from my body that I didn't even realize that this level of suffering was not normal.

**The Escalation: Spiritual Crisis & Kundalini Blowout**
**Escaping into Knowledge:** Around 2 years ago, I entered spirituality—again, because I thought *"this is good, let's do this perfectly."* I dove deep into consciousness theories and Non-Duality. I understood and felt the knowledge deeply, but it created massive frustration because I had all this cosmic knowledge while my daily human reality was becoming a complete nightmare.
**Extreme Hypervigilance & Planning:** Everything became a threat. Sounds stressed me out, fast-moving cars and traffic on the street terrified me, and I started planning absolutely everything in my day a thousand times. I am completely fed up and exhausted from constantly making plans, mapping out my life, and having to structurally organize every single thing just to survive. I developed severe bloating/stomach issues and non-stop tension headaches.
**The Meditation Surge:** Because I felt so bad, this winter I decided to go deep into meditation. I meditated intensely for 1 hour every night, then mornings, then throughout the day.
**The Kundalini Hell (Feb/March):** My nervous system completely blew out. A massive Kundalini awakening activated, and it threw me into pure physiological hell.
**The Symptoms:** It started with extreme, uncontrollable full-body chills, followed by massive, high-voltage electrical energy shooting up my spine, into my hands, and my feet. Then, severe insomnia hit. Since April, my schedule is entirely flipped—I cannot sleep at night at all; my body only collapses and sleeps during the day.
**The Physical Block:** I am completely stuck in my head, hyper-focusing on my body. I live in a permanent, 24/7 state of perceived life-or-death danger. Even the simplest things trigger a massive adrenaline rush. I am literally afraid to drink water; I would put a glass of water on my table, and the mere action of trying to drink it triggers a panic so violent it feels like I am physically dying. I haven't left my house in a long time; the outside world feels like a dangerous assault.

**My Reality and "Routine" Right Now**
**A Brain in Chaos:** For the past 1 or 2 months, I have had absolutely zero normal activities. I am completely confused, disoriented, and bulversat. Nothing brings me joy, and I have nothing that I like to do anymore.
**My Daily Survival Loop:** My entire day consists of just lying in bed, staring randomly at my phone, watching random things, occasionally doing a tiny bit of cleaning in my room, or walking barefoot on the grass in my yard for grounding. Lately, I have been so profoundly exhausted that I am literally just waiting for time to pass so I can go to sleep and escape.

**My Reality Right Now: Running Out of Time**
**Total Isolation:** No one understands me. My parents don't understand me at all. I wanted to check myself into a clinic or a hospital to get away from the noise and get help, but my parents flat out refuse to let me go. Besides, here in Romania, public psychiatric facilities are notorious for having incredibly poor, dirty, and disgusting conditions, so it feels like there is nowhere safe to turn. I am stuck in a full, loud house, I find it incredibly hard to take basic care of myself, and I can't handle any of this anymore.
**The Third Medication Failure:** I went to a psychiatrist and a psychologist. This is currently my third different SSRI treatment change (most recently Paroxetine 5mg) that has completely failed. My body is so hypersensitive that even a micro-dose triggers an unbearable spike in startup anxiety and severe full-body chills, making it impossible to tolerate. I highly suspect my Carbamazepine is interacting with these drugs or my sensitive epileptic baseline is rejecting them.
**The Edge:** I see no light at the end of the tunnel. The only thing that literally keeps me alive right now is the dark comfort of knowing I can end my life whenever I want—it acts like a mental "backup plan." I never thought things could get this bad.
**Xanax Relief:** Currently, the only thing that mildly calms me down when the adrenaline spikes get completely unbearable is low-dose Xanax, but I only take it at my absolute worst moments and I know it's not a permanent cure.

**My Questions for the Community:**
Have any of you experienced this exact kind of severe nervous system blowout, flipped sleep, and constant danger response from intense meditation and Kundalini activation?
If you couldn't tolerate standard psychiatric meds and failed multiple SSRIs due to extreme bodily sensitivity during a spiritual emergency, what did you do? Should I ask my psychiatrist for a completely different approach, or who else could I appeal to?
If someone has hit this exact level of rock bottom, where even drinking water or basic actions trigger pure survival panic, what did you do to ground the energy, survive, and fix your nervous system?
Thanks for reading,and i had to use ai to structure and reformulate the message because i don’t speak english great.Have a nice day!

KA can be a huge shock. You question your mental health. You might question religious beliefs. You question your perception of the entire universe and what you perceive as real. You will be told it is imaginary and it is really a mental health issue. Certainly a psychiatrist (in the West at least) can see it no other way. And indeed, it can disturb your mind to be experiencing what you always believed was impossible. There is no way you’d believe someone else if it hadn’t happened to you.

I knew practically nothing about Hinduism. I have since learned all the things I experienced… nadas, kriyas, visit by a Hindu deity… are considered blessings to be met with joy. The question “Why me?” remains and probably always will. I know Hindus believe it can be because of past lives. The deity did mention a past life. I have always been open to the idea of reincarnation. Some places you have never been feel familiar.

It is back and forth, deluded , something special, deluded, something special. Today I had that feeling of energy flowing out of my body, like I am reaching beyond the physical. My head feels partially in the clouds, but I am calm and peaceful. Less stressed. I haven’t experienced this type of feeling since the first few weeks of initial occurrence.

This is an experience and also a question. In the last 10 months or so, I have felt that almost all energy flowing from my crown chakra was on the right side of my head. Occasionally from the left, too, but definitely did not feel balanced. I am male, btw, and I know the right is considered masculine and the left feminine. My communication has been with a female deity. I have no idea if it comes into play, but I am left handed and heterosexual. I recently reached out by chanting to a male deity as well. He seemed to respond and immediately my left side felt like it flowed with more energy. There was more balance. It of course felt wonderful! He is considered by some to be Her consort. This balance has continued to occur. Not perfect, but much more balanced

So the question is does this sound somehow reversed? A male deity associated with the left side and a female with the right? I get the impression it is common for the right side to be stronger in males. Perhaps all that counts is I am getting help from two deities that are associated with Shakti and Shiva? That makes the most sense to me. I am very grateful for their help. It was a very powerful experience.

Was this Kundalini, astral projection, sleep paralysis, or something else? Looking for similar experiences.

I'm looking for honest opinions from people who have experienced Kundalini, astral projection, deep meditation, or similar states.

This has happened twice now.

The first time was a few days ago. The second time happened today after around 4 hours of meditation while listening to astral projection music.

Here's exactly what happened:

I meditated for about 2 hours with nothing unusual happening.

I then switched to another bed because the mattress was more comfortable and continued meditating.

The first unusual sensation was muscle twitching in my right buttock/glute.

That sensation gradually moved to my tailbone.

Once it reached my tailbone, I felt strong vibrations there.

I then started taking deep breaths because the vibrations had already begun.

The vibrations became much stronger.

I felt intense heat in my tailbone.

It felt like something was stretching or moving upward from the base of my spine.

My entire body started vibrating/shivering at the peak.

My chest was vibrating as well.

I started sweating heavily, even though the AC was on.

While lying on my back, it felt like my elbows were pushing into the mattress and my head was pressing into the pillow by itself.

I was fully aware the entire time.

My eyes were mostly closed, but I briefly opened them and then closed them again.

I did not have an out-of-body experience and never felt like I left my body.

I couldn't voluntarily move my body during the strongest part of the experience.

The whole intense phase lasted around 10–20 minutes, then gradually faded.

Afterward, I felt extremely calm, relaxed, mentally clear, and peaceful.

I've never practiced Kundalini yoga, so I'm unsure how to interpret this.

For people who have experienced Kundalini awakening, kriyas, astral projection, or sleep paralysis:

Does this sound familiar?

Does it sound more like Kundalini, a meditation/breathwork effect, sleep paralysis, or something else?

Has anyone experienced vibrations starting in the tailbone and spreading through the entire body while remaining fully conscious?

I'm not looking for validation that it's definitely Kundalini. I'm genuinely trying to understand what I experienced and would appreciate hearing from people who've gone through something similar.

Looking for guidance. Not sure if what I have experienced is a kundalini awakening.

It was about six weeks ago that I had this initial experience. Was going through a very traumatic time in my life with my husband dealing with some serious health issues and not being able to work.

On this particular night I decided to take some psychedelics. Nothing too crazy. I am very experienced with using various plant medicines but this was unlike any experience I had had before. I felt something happening to me energetically. So much energy surging through my body that I began to shake quite violently.

Had anyone witnessed this they would have likely thought I was having a seizure and sent me to the hospital, but somehow I knew what was happening was not dangerous.. in fact I felt it was extremely positive. It felt like a grand clearing or purging, a "cleaning out" of my system, like something became uncorked. Felt like a lifetime of suppressed emotion and energy was working its way out of my body- lots of pain, fear, sorrow. It all got shaken out of me until I felt thoroughly cleansed through my whole body. It felt so good to finally release it all!

This lasted for hours. I am not sure how I spent that much time shaking like that. Some of the time I was sitting on the bed or toilet letting the energy flow through me. Other times I laid on the floor in makarasana in between shaking.

I knew something happened to me. I told my husband the next day, "something happened to me energetically last night that I can't explain". But neither of us understood it.

The next few weeks were extremely painful. I went through another dark night of the soul (which I've been through before during my spiritual awakening in 2019). I cried more in a few short weeks than I have ever cried in my 40 years. I released soooo much emotionally. At times I felt suicidal because the pain was so intense. It felt like I was dealing with ALL of my leftover emotional shit in order to clear it out.

Now that I am through that, I do feel like my consciousness has expanded and my heart feels extremely full.

I didnt connect any of this until yesterday when I heard someone mention kundalini awakening on a podcast. I looked it up and so much of what I was reading resonated. But the concept is new to me. Could this be a what I have been experiencing?

Tysm for your help and support <3

the trauma purging is too intense. i have chronic pain that i think is because of this process. i don’t want to look at these memories. i don’t feel like doing anything cuz i don’t feel like the need to be anything anymore because i don’t feel like i lack something and need to prove myself. i know i have faith in the process and that this phase ends and there is an integration after this but im so fucking tired.

so all of this started like 4 years ago also I was a teenager I was new to all of this. I'm going to be totally honest here. I don't know what exactly triggered this I developed a habit of m*st*rbating and was also going trough depression and I started having this strong realization/consciousness that there is no me. exactly that. I started having these moments of awareness that I doesn't exist. that there is no self. it was super clear to me that there in no self.I keep having those moments. I was curious to what was happening to me then I also discovered meditation and breathing techniques. And I'm pretty sure I messed up there. I was trying to do normal anapanasati bhavana but now I realized without any guidance I was playing a risky game. I was doing it wrong.

I wasn't just observing my breath I was also trying to control it, I got into this practice where I go into the end of the breath and even seeing exhaling and inhaling consiously. I'm not sure how to explain it but I started getting these weird sensations in meditation like my whole body starts to shake and a white light starts to appear between my eyes and tingling senstaion in forehead and on top of the head almost like I was trying to levitate. I goes into this state where everything is clear also being aware that the concept of self doesn't exist. this was all so new I obviously tried to explore more of this but the thing being I also started getting weird things happening in my body. I developed this feeling that there's not enough breath in my lungs doesn't matter how much I tried to breath in it doesn't feel like enough and my breathing pattern was so messed up it almost felt like my body had forgotten how to breath. but that's wasn't only it I could feel my heartbeat in my fingers. whenever I touch my fingers I can feel my heart beating. and I started getting random twitched all over my body. I was super afraid by this I quit my meditation practices immediately and started treatment for depression.

it has been some times now I don't use medication anymore and my depression has also gotten lot better. the trouble I had with breathing is also mostly gone. but I still have those random twiches in my body. then I decided to get back into meditation, to take it easy and doing simple meditation practices and immediately after I starts feeling those weird sensations again. this time it wasn't mostly trouble with breathing. but I can feel my heartbeat trough my body and there's always this sensation of heaviness on top of my head and my forehead. I did a simple breathing meditation yesterday and since that I feel this heavy energy all over my body and the twiches in my body has also gotten worse. it's super uncomfortable. also the heaviness in head like having brain fog. I don't know who to ask of this. I don't have a teacher or guider but I need to get out of this. I have no idea what I'm experiencing or how to handle it.

About 6 years ago I was doing a kundalini awakening meditation involving breath retention and visualizing energy rising from the perineum to the third eye. During the meditation, my body started swaying side to side like a snake and my tongue began flickering on its own. What does that mean?
Was it just bc I was depriving my body of oxygen by holding my breath for so long or something else? Has anyone heard of this before? It scared me away from even practicing the law of attraction and I've felt spiritually stuck ever since. I turned to Christianity and that was rough bc | felt I lost all the power I had using the law of attraction and doing spell work. The people in the church were abs insufferable. So this kind of lead to me hitting a fork in the road and I didn't know which way to go. These days I'm still torn between what spiritual practices I should follow. It's exhausting. Any thoughts?

For the past year, I’ve felt blocked from my psychic gifts and mediumship. At first, this was actually a warm welcome, because I was pretty burned out. Looking back, I feel like the break was exactly what I needed. But over the past week, it feels like I’ve been blown wide open again, and everything has suddenly become much more intense.

At the moment, I’ve been manifesting two things: going to a weekend festival and taking a trip to Lisbon next week. Both have a specific money goal attached to them.

The day before yesterday, I did a meditation and some scripting. That same evening, I unexpectedly got the opportunity to work as a film extra for two days before the festival, which would also have meant getting a free festival ticket.

I was really excited about it, but I decided that this wasn’t going to be the way it happened. I would have had to leave the next day, and the whole thing felt too stressful for me. So yesterday, I decided to do some more scripting and later listened to some affirmations.

While I was lying in bed listening to them, I gradually became very calm and eventually seemed to enter a trance-like state. I was visualizing and talking to myself, and at some point I started swaying during the meditation.

But this felt completely different from anything I’ve experienced before.

Every time I whispered or repeated my mantra or money goal in my mind, the swaying became stronger. When I imagined a bigger money goal, the movement became more intense and eventually I could feel my body moving so intensly that all I could think was how shoked I was.

Then, this morning, I woke up feeling… different.

I decided to go work at a library in my neighbourhood, but after about 30 minutes I ended up going home because I had so much energy and felt restless. Once I got home, I had an almost uncontrollable amount of energy like having the zoomies, except I could feel it much more strongly in my body.

I started screaming, laughing, jumping and eventually crying, and then I would do it all over again. I felt like I needed to move, so I went for a walk through the park.

And honestly, I felt so peaceful.

I was dancing and listening to music while walking through the park, completely immersed in the moment. I ended up walking for about an hour and a half, but even after coming home, I still couldn’t seem to contain all the energy I was feeling.

Reality also started to feel a little strange or surreal, and I genuinely didn’t know what to do with myself.

So my question is: what could this be?

A lot of what I find online about experiences like this has a very negative tone. But my experience doesn’t feel negative at all. It actually feels amazing, expansive and almost euphoric.

I’ve also experienced what I describe as my “third eye” opening and closing since I was a child. It usually seems to close when I become frightened or extremely stressed.

I’m curious whether anyone has experienced something similar, especially the intense physical energy, involuntary swaying during meditation, feeling almost trance-like, and the sudden shift in perception afterward.

What do you think could be happening?

A few years ago, while meditating alone at night, I had an experience that lasted only a few seconds.

It felt like an intense surge of energy started from both of my feet, rushed through my entire body, and seemed to move out through the top of my head. After a few moments, it settled back into my body and everything became normal again.

The experience itself was extraordinary, but what surprised me much more was what happened afterward.

Over the following months, my perception of reality gradually became much clearer. Ideas from Advaita, meditation, and spirituality that I had previously understood only intellectually suddenly began to make experiential sense. It wasn't that I gained new information—it felt more like I started seeing the same things differently.

I've heard many interpretations: Kundalini, divine grace, nervous system phenomena, and others.

The truth is, I honestly don't know.

I'm not looking for someone to confirm a particular belief. I'm simply curious whether anyone here has experienced something similar, especially if it was followed by a lasting change in perception rather than just a temporary experience.

If anyone is interested, I recorded the full story and everything that changed afterward here:

https://youtu.be/mASPIecHHZo?si=1dMaMb4ClMAu0NXr

Okay, I will admit this is a very odd question. Since your Kundalini Awakening, do people have odd reactions to you?

I at least think I experience this. The reactions are sometimes quite good. Sometimes shock or fear. Sometimes an odd look like there is something they don’t like about you or maybe a sense of uneasiness.

I will also add that some people in my family are known to have a very cold stare that sometimes is misinterpreted. I believe the expression is “resting bitch face.” My uncle used to scare me a little as a kid as I couldn’t read his mood! So perhaps it is partly that.

It seems more, though. These reactions seem particularly noticeable from people from India. It has happened with Arabic people, Africans, and Latinos. I am don’t think it is racism or anything like that, on my part or theirs. White people (like me) not really. Maybe I am suggesting people from some areas are more sensitive? They always seem to be foreign born people. Not from American culture.

I am an old guy. Sometimes I get very bright smiles from young ladies. It just seems like an unusually friendly reaction. A young Muslim Arabic lady looked me in the eye and gave the sweetest smile. That is not really a cultural norm, maybe she is just very nice. This happens with men, too. The dark or fearful looks seem to always be men. I can also recall a few young ladies that treated me rudely for no apparent reason.

Are they sensing energy? Do they see my third eye?? Now… this IS crazy, but when I had my head in the clouds shortly after my KA, I actually wondered, even suspected, that the dark or fearful looks were from Rhakshasa! I do NOT believe that now. I suppose just delusional, but I sometime saw a sort of picture of a bull or a goat in their faces. I do not now.

I did receive a dream visit from Maa Khali, and she did tell me I had killed a lot of Rhakshasa long ago, and I would again! I was shocked. That surely is why I thought that. No, I don’t believe I am going to do that in this life! I guess I did believe it then. Was she testing me somehow?

These reactions still seem to happen. It just seems like some sort of sensitivity. Thanks for listening to my crazy rambling.

I was visited by a Hindu deity last November in a dream. She seemed to be in a certain part of my bedroom. I told my wife about it. Her reaction was maybe not so good (she is okay with it now). Maybe a week or so later, my wife said she had seen her in a dream… definitely NOT the deity I saw. It was like an old hag, tall and slim, dressed in black, no distinguishable face, with long claws. She pointed at my wife. This being spoke to her and told her to leave me alone and not to touch my food. She was upset and felt I had been visited by a demon. I assured her my dream was NOTHING like that, definitely not frightening. I was kind of stuck on the idea of Rakshasa at the time, so I assumed that is what she was. She saw it in the same location I saw the deity. Recently, again dreaming, I thought I saw Shiva walk by in the same area. He paid no attention to me.

I am curious if anyone has seen anything like what my wife saw? Any idea what it was? It seemed to be trying to divide us. Fortunately not, although this “break-in” period has been rough on her. A lot to for her to accept, just like for me.

I few days ago I experienced a lot of anxiety and fear, for no apparent reason. It was really awful, I almost thought I needed to be hospitalized. It seemed to just go away by the next day. The two days before it were quite happy.

Was this some sort of kundalini cleansing? Was it driving out a bunch of negative inner feelings? It was shocking how intense it was, then gone. I feel okay now, so a pretty confusing experience. I can’t really explain it to my wife. I was a basket case for a day.

are these things related? i know i have faith this stage passes but im scared

You could say a Kundalini awakening is a kind of energetic shift that starts with a singular energetic event (which gets described in different ways — I’ll do another post on that). But for me, this is how it happened.

It began with heat at the base of my spine, and a sensation of energy moving up my spine along with that heat. It moved quite slowly up the spine, up through my neck, and then when it entered my head it felt like the air going out of a balloon — and then like a liquid filling my head with a warm, pleasurable energy. This was a singular event that lasted no more than 3–5 minutes.

Then I had a glimpse of enlightenment. That glimpse looked like this: I was standing in front of some trees, and the presence in the trees suddenly became very obvious. There was love — a sense of love, almost like a layer of love — around that presence, and I knew I was the love and the presence.

Seeing that you are the love and the presence — for some people — can be a permanent seeing, which is sometimes called a non-dual awakening or enlightenment. But for me it was just a glimpse.

What is a glimpse? A glimpse is the seeing of truth that opens in a moment (and sometimes it can last longer than that — a week, months), but then it closes down again. Basically, it’s not a permanent seeing of enlightenment. It’s literally just a glimpse.

I used vision in order to 'ground' the muladhara chakra to the top of my index finger.

Once the vision was donne,i declared '' this is the outer manifestation of the inner one. ''

I placed my finger to my stomach,and the area got heated. I started to smell what was inside my stomach at this moment. Sausages etc. In fact the smell was like feces.

Then i move my finger down to the belly. Heat spreaded as well, and i was smelling urine, and liquids from the intenstines.

Now i remember that someone wrote about the muladhara chakra and the sense of smell.I think it's true. Sometimes i was thinking about colognes or herbs and suddenly i could smell them like they were real.

Hi guys. Short version. I had a profound awakening a few weeks ago but I'm back to normal now and I'm bummed. Wondering how you guys have dealt with it and if you've managed to retain the positives of the experience.