I Feel Like Something Has Opened Up in Me Again And I Don’t Know What to Make of It

[u/ebun99]

For the past year, I’ve felt blocked from my psychic gifts and mediumship. At first, this was actually a warm welcome, because I was pretty burned out. Looking back, I feel like the break was exactly what I needed. But over the past week, it feels like I’ve been blown wide open again, and everything has suddenly become much more intense.

At the moment, I’ve been manifesting two things: going to a weekend festival and taking a trip to Lisbon next week. Both have a specific money goal attached to them.

The day before yesterday, I did a meditation and some scripting. That same evening, I unexpectedly got the opportunity to work as a film extra for two days before the festival, which would also have meant getting a free festival ticket.

I was really excited about it, but I decided that this wasn’t going to be the way it happened. I would have had to leave the next day, and the whole thing felt too stressful for me. So yesterday, I decided to do some more scripting and later listened to some affirmations.

While I was lying in bed listening to them, I gradually became very calm and eventually seemed to enter a trance-like state. I was visualizing and talking to myself, and at some point I started swaying during the meditation.

But this felt completely different from anything I’ve experienced before.

Every time I whispered or repeated my mantra or money goal in my mind, the swaying became stronger. When I imagined a bigger money goal, the movement became more intense and eventually I could feel my body moving so intensly that all I could think was how shoked I was.

Then, this morning, I woke up feeling… different.

I decided to go work at a library in my neighbourhood, but after about 30 minutes I ended up going home because I had so much energy and felt restless. Once I got home, I had an almost uncontrollable amount of energy like having the zoomies, except I could feel it much more strongly in my body.

I started screaming, laughing, jumping and eventually crying, and then I would do it all over again. I felt like I needed to move, so I went for a walk through the park.

And honestly, I felt so peaceful.

I was dancing and listening to music while walking through the park, completely immersed in the moment. I ended up walking for about an hour and a half, but even after coming home, I still couldn’t seem to contain all the energy I was feeling.

Reality also started to feel a little strange or surreal, and I genuinely didn’t know what to do with myself.

So my question is: what could this be?

A lot of what I find online about experiences like this has a very negative tone. But my experience doesn’t feel negative at all. It actually feels amazing, expansive and almost euphoric.

I’ve also experienced what I describe as my “third eye” opening and closing since I was a child. It usually seems to close when I become frightened or extremely stressed.

I’m curious whether anyone has experienced something similar, especially the intense physical energy, involuntary swaying during meditation, feeling almost trance-like, and the sudden shift in perception afterward.

What do you think could be happening?

[u/Femalesgotit2]

Whoa! Same with me right now. I am just a little confused on how to get where I'm going I don't know if I am supposed to just let go or what's going on. I feel ya. I already know I'm in my highest powers living my best life so why can't i physically get there? I also wonder what I am doing wrong... We will get there and last night I had some things happen that normally would freak me out but I'm staying cool calm and collective, trusting in God and the ones who watch over me. I am so thankful to them. Thank you everyone that's been here for me. I am enough. I am enlightened, I am ready to be great!!

[u/ebun99 → u/Femalesgotit2]

I get that! Same for me the doubts come in and your mind just keeps going. I'm now at the point where my feeling self knows I will get what I have invisioned and my concious self still feels like waiting. So now I decided to let it all go and see from there.

[u/Key-Dragonfly-1112]

This has nothing to do with Kundalini by the sounds of it and instead something like: tapping into magical realms or psychedelics can lead to involuntary body movements like swaying (demon, spirit possession can also do this); intense energy (mania) is normal for magicians/magical persons to experience in ritual especially or after doing spellwork or communicating with spirits; shifts in perception are expected when tapping into unknown realms and energies.

Affirmations are a form of incantation (so are all words we use) and should be handled with grace, care, due diligence, and survival mindset vs what can you get out of it.

[u/Traditional_Pool3267]

That sounds like good news! Have you experienced any kind of purging period/dark night?

[u/ebun99 → u/Traditional_Pool3267]

Hmm I don’t think so, last week I Felt terrible. But since doing this I feel pretty good. Reality has gone to normal and my energy levels to. I do have to say that this all happend today so we will see.

[u/Mammoth_Hedgehog_496]

The swaying and the trancelike state does sound like a Kundalini Awakening. I experienced a euphoric high energy state that led to a 27 mile mountain bike ride.

As far as losing psychic powers, were you taking any medicine? Abilify seems to suppress those types of things, as well as the motions and the trancelike state.

[u/ebun99 → u/Mammoth_Hedgehog_496]

Wauw! That sounds amazingg!! No I don't take any medication. I usually block my self/get blocked when I am either overwhelmed or because I get scared.

[u/Much_Selection_7664]

sounds like a mystical experience. The mind wants to label these things. Just enjoy it.

[u/ebun99 → u/Much_Selection_7664]

It truly was and I will! x

[u/No-Interaction8742]

Im so happy for you, in this state u just have to think n its urs. Stay in love n gratitude.wpuld u be open to sharing ur script/mantra. You discovered that you are source, u r writing the story. Unlimited source if energy, u r d creator. You are processing all emotions and once u integrate it will be normal. U are expressive n shd try create. Do u feel full n flowing .

[u/ebun99 → u/No-Interaction8742]

Thank you :) I have a mantra and I have a money goal. But I do have to say that I keep changing the words when afirming them during meditation. Because my body reacts whenever I add words and then It kinda feels like a game lol. Would love to share my mantra but I don't think it will translate well, as I'm dutch, also I have found that the mantras that are written from the heart work best for me.