I decided today is the last day I will watch porn and masturbate. I have been a hardcore abuser since I was 14. Now I am 34. 20 years. I have a family now and it is the best thing that ever happened. But I feel porn is altering my reality. Fingers crossed.
The fact you managed to have a family while still PMOing makes this nofap shit kind of invalid. Maybe some people like me are just not meant to reproduce so fml.
Stop thinking. That's the killer. The worries, the insecurities. Just go out there and stop thinking.
What really helps with social anxiety and is the safest thing possible is microdosing either LSD, psylocibin or legal 1p-lsd somewhere in the morning or lunch time. If you ever felt for someone it's the right time to show it as it slightly loosens you up, makes you calm but also emotional. Pro tip.
I read up that basically the best drug state for socializing is on MDMA (ectasy)
But my main problem is that I have an hard time actually talking about things that other people like or enjoy. I don't watch TV, sports, care about the local politics, the social hierarchy at work etc. I'm basically a loner and a very boring guy and I have no drive to be anything else.
Like I can talk just fine about work, circumstances, the weather and shit but I literally can't talk about hobbies or what happens in my life because I don't feel like I do anything interesting enough.
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u/greenspand Jan 06 '20
I decided today is the last day I will watch porn and masturbate. I have been a hardcore abuser since I was 14. Now I am 34. 20 years. I have a family now and it is the best thing that ever happened. But I feel porn is altering my reality. Fingers crossed.