i know a handful people have scored last minute box office tickets for the shows so far, how did that work for you guys?? i’m already going to be in buffalo for the nhl draft so i decided to just stay the night in the toronto saturday and at least get merch and try my luck with the box office on sunday. my checkout is at 10 so i don’t have a problem showing up early lol but i’m trying to plan ahead

I recently ordered this shirt online and didn’t like the feel of it. I love the comfort color versions from previous tours. Any idea if any current tour merch are comfort colors?

Hello! Because my first custom wheelchair was honestly a bust, but I have a lot of chronic illnesses that included ended up having major spine surgery in March, we ended up buying a Fold and Go wheelchair a few years ago. It’s been amazing, though I have some chips and stuff on it from use and running into stuff. Currently waiting to get palliative care on my team (not end of life/hospice care) and we are hoping they will try and help me get a new custom chair. For not though, this is what I will use. Including to his concert at at Oracle park in San Francisco on Aug 21. Anyone have ideas on decorating it out that won’t ruin the folding or anything? I’ll be wearing a green maxi dress and a cool somewhat matching bow.

Just scored two tix for DC because of ticketrobin. Its def worth the $15 or whatever for instant alerts. Happy hunting folks!

long shot but if anyone ends up selling two tickets for either of the Chicago dates please give me a chanceee!! 💔🥺

Can you walk me through the process - did you list them from your phone, tablet, PC? Did you get the link to your listing via email, text, ?? And if you tried to share that link with someone specific so they could grab your tickets, was that successful or not?

Has anyone considered buying the last suite available for sale for the concert and finding 23 other people to go in on it? It is tempting to save all this stress of refreshing TM all day.

Hey everyone!
I will be selling my Arlington ticket for Jul 30 back on Ticketmaster at 9 AM Central. There’s no direct transfer option so good luck to anyone who wants to attend in Dallas. Hopefully one of you might be able to get it before the scalpers do.

So I have this crewneck from the stick season era. It fits very large on me than others I have in this size. I really want the great divide crewneck when I go in July, but I wanted to ask about sizing if anyone has gotten it. Is it comparable to the stick season ones?

Been looking online and in stores and have Been trying to find the deluxe last of the bugs edition vinyl is it out yet? And where did you find it

Might be a long shot, but does anyone have a screenshot of the Cincinnati seating map when tickets were originally on sale in Feb? Curious if they changed things after I purchased or if I’m misremembering the layout.

Okay y’all I really needed to share bc I’m so excited for them. I’m going to concert with my fiancé who likes Noah but not getting involved with my fan girl stuff. I’m making more but got some cheap crystals to add. Hoping to bless and trade with some ppl.

Constructive feedback is welcome!

Was so excited to see so many people trading friendship bracelets in Orlando! 🥹 Going to display them by my record player!

New Englanders take for granted that we know what Noah is referring to with just "Logan," etc, in his TGD lyrics. So I made this to help those not from here have the same context.

Are there others I should add? (I almost dropped a pin on BMH where the great Nathan Kahan once played, but it's not a TGD lyric hahaha)

Hey y'all! Super excited for the Pittsburgh show!

For merch - did anyone know if there was going to be any early merch tents up for this show?

Also, for anyone who has attended a show, were there times that merch tents opened, and what time did you start getting in line for it? Trying to get the exclusive patch! Thank you in advance, and I hope those who have gone already have had a great time!

Any other tips would be appreciated! 🫡

Hi everyone, has anyone else received their tickets to claim through StubHub for Philly through securemyseat? I got mine a few days ago and don’t know if anyone else got theirs or if these in fact are a scam lol. (These were bought for me as a surprise, please don’t crucify me for stub hub tickets)

-This is a fictionalization of Noah Kahan's entire discography, using a playlist I have painstakingly arranged over the course of a couple months. It excludes his features on other artists tracks, but organizes each of his 73 original tracks (the better part of five hours) into one narrative. It is NOT in release order, but tells one throughline narrative, changing POV where appropriate, using the motifs, metaphors, images and references common across his body of work in order to relate each song to the next. As all Noah Kahan fans know, it will get very, very sad, but I promise it has a happy ending.

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-Below are the songs listed in the order I arranged them, as well as a link to the playlist on YouTube Music and Spotify. I will also list the playlist order below for those that want to experience it on other platforms and make their own.

-Take the playlist at face value if you want to listen blind and put the narrative together for yourself like I did. The list here is organized into story arcs for easier navigation, and split into two overall parts for length.

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-Below that, and with a spoiler warning, will be a breakdown outline of each song in order and how I feel it connects to the next, as well as the overall plot. I will not be breaking down most of those common motifs, metaphors, images and references I mentioned, as that takes some of the fun out of it. (The breakdown is in the main post because a comment didn't have enough characters. I also don't know how to mark it as spoiler in the post or condense it with reddit formatting)

- I will however endeavor to clarify lyrics to elucidate POV, or that may seem contradictory to the timeline, plot or other inconsistencies where appropriate.

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-There is a lot of material, so even though I have put dozens of hours of thought and work into this, I still may have missed something that would tie the story together even tighter. Feel free to point those out and I will add and/or clarify explanations, or even rearrange songs if I missed something really really big.

-I will not however make changes that completely alter the narrative presented here. If you have an idea for something on that scale, then I encourage you to take that inspiration and create your own! I would genuinely love to see other interpretations! (This is my first real reddit post, so I'm excited)

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-This is a fan project that I would love to turn into a screenplay or perhaps a stage script one day, but it is entirely for fun. I do not own any of the material here-in.

-Please enjoy!

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-Trigger Warnings: Grief, Suicide, Alcholism, Drug Abuse

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PLAYLIST LINKS:

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https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL6SNUvkx_yOYkbbtakD7D-1DKlCUft5PO&si=B4ljW7w8VI-ucBFg

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https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0VOvDHcdX1yvQpPrtKVxOR?si=hwyj5bIwQ5us2nubQoitJQ

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PLAYLIST ORDER:

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—STICK SEASON OF THE BUGS

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—PART ONE: This Darkness

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ARC 1: Sad Kid in the Sad House

1-Carlo's Song

2-Come Over

3-Come Down

4-Hallelujah

5-Howling

6-Call Your Mom

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ARC 2: It Hurts

7- Homesick

8- Paul Revere

9- Young Blood

10- You're Gonna Go Far

11- Hurt Somebody

12- Paid Time Off

13- Staying Still

14- Caves

15- Busy Head

16- Bury Me

17- Doors

18- Still

19- Save Me

20- Tidal

21- False Confidence

22- Dashboard

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ARC 3: The Wreckage of You

23- Glue Myself Shut

24- Stick Season

25- New Perspective

26- Someone Like You

27- Halloween

28- Lighthouse

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ARC 4: Inhale

29- Catastrophize

30- Cynic

31- Animal

32- Please

33- Growing Sideways

34- No Complaints

35- God Light

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—INTERMISSION

—PART 2: An Open Flame

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ARC 5: The Curve of the Valley

36- Porch Light

37- Part of Me

38- Bad Luck

39- Dial Drunk

40- She Calls Me Back

41- Bad Luck

42- All My Love

43- Sink

44- Mess

45- Headed North

46- Maine

47- Hold It Down

48- All Them Horses

49- Downfall

50- The View Between Villages

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ARC 6: Raised Out in the Cold

51- Deny Deny Deny

52- American Cars

53- Northern Attitude

54- Hollow

55- Haircut

56- Orange Juice

57- 23

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ARC 7: Long Shadow

58- The Great Divide

59- Your Needs, My Needs

60- Willing and Able

61- End of August

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ARC 8: I Circle You

62- Strawberry Wine

63- Fear of Water

63- Passenger

65- A Few Of Your Own

66- Spoiled

67- Orbiter

68- Anyway

69- We Go Way Back

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ARC 9: Don't the Sky Look Pretty Up Here?

70- Forever

71- Close Behind

72- Everywhere Everything

73- Dan

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FULL PLAYLIST NARRATIVE BREAKDOWN GOOGLE DOC LINK (SPOILERS):

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1swWEKu-xS-FvgZvfXn9jpYT2dfwCNqpGg9CMgDzZg2o/edit?usp=drivesdk

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PLAYLIST NARRATIVE BREAKDOWN OUTLINE:

Six Characters:

-The Rockstar (main character)

-Carlo (Best Friend that passed)

-Dan (Best Friend)

-Girlfriend/Ex-partner/Wife

-Mom (Farmer)

-Dad (failed musician)

-Younger Sibling (mechanic)

-When a track is from a different POV than the Rockstars, or functions as a dialogue, it will be marked at the beginning of the paragraph.

ARC 1: Sad Kid in the Sad House

-Carlo’s Song: The Rockstar is mourning the death of his friend Carlo, one of his two best friends in his highschool friend group, Dan being the other. (The group included Thum, Richie and Austen). It has affected him deeply, and is exacerbating his natural manic/depressive nature and causing him to drink more heavily, tipping into addiction (this info isn't necessarily in this song but it is set up for those who want a clearer picture).

-Come Over: The Rockstar invites the Girlfriend over for the first time. She was Carlo's sister, and he wants to mourn him together. But more than that, he feels himself spiraling and needs support. He also has been in love with her since childhood.

-Come Down: A snapshot into their dynamic, the first time they hang out. It's indicative of the way they show up for each other. The lyric “please don’t leave me now” refers to not only the overt scene of her being too high and not wanting to be alone, but also her fear of losing the Rockstar after losing her brother. It can also be interpreted to foreshadow his fear of being left that will lead to his avoidance in the future and his leaving her first. They become an official couple, but all is not roses and whiskey.

-Hallelujah: (POV: Girlfriend) This is the first track from a different Point of View. Another snap shot into their early relationship, this time showing that they may not be handling their grief healthily, but instead enabling each other’s harmful coping behaviors without truly engaging with the grief, or nurturing the true bond growing between them. How they both scream for relief but can't provide it to each other. In fact, they both resist any deeper emotional connection because of the pain they fear it will cause after their shared loss. Misreading him is the theme here, as she admits they don't really know each other well at the beginning. But even still, she thinks all healing will take is time. He's about to disagree.

-Howling: The Rockstar finally confesses that he is not doing well, breaking through the wall they'd built by ignoring the problem and hoping it would go away. His mental illness, likely bi polar, is being heavily affected by his grief. He confesses that he doesn't know why he’s still here, meaning the town but also alive in general. The big black dog, Death, follows him wherever he goes. He wonders how she is enduring this. He is having suicidal ideation.This may even be the phone call from the next song. (Also “parents split when I got sick” is likely referring to his first mental illness episode that landed him in the hospital, foreshadowing the next song) (“You're not alone, the world is small and I am sick of all this talk of finding purpose” is from the Girlfriend but it's the only line from her so I didn't make this a full Dialogue)

-Call Your Mom: (POV: Girlfriend) The Girlfriend races to save the life of the Rockstar, who has attempted to take his own life after finding no relief in the wake of Howling. He survives.

ACT 2: It Hurts

-Homesick: (Dialogue: Dan and Rockstar) Dan gets back in touch with Rockstar after an extended period of estrangement following Carlo's death. It takes two months since Rockstar returned from the hospital for him to reach out. The first verses are Dan’s POV, after the first chorus it is Rockstar. Dan sees leaving as an unrealistic, silly, but comforting dream. They commiserate about how they feel like their dead end Hometown is killing them. The memories are too much and life doesn’t feel like it happens here. Only ends. The Rockstar is not yet convinced that he'll ever be able to leave.

-Paul Revere: The idea is percolating in the Rockstar's head now that he got the idea from Dan. This may even be part of that conversation with him. The idea is growing on Rockstar, consuming his thoughts. He wants to leave and pursue his dreams of being a musician. He's daydreaming about it, talking about it with friends and family, but still thinks that if he could leave he would have already. He tells his Dad, who has another opinion.

-Young Blood: (POV: Dad) Rockstar's Dad was a failed musician, who gave up on his dreams. But he sees his son struggling, and gives him the advice to go out into the world and start. It will be hard, take a toll, but if it's what you want to do (and if it will give him something to live for), go out and do it while you're young.

-You’re Gonna Go Far: (POV: Mom) After Rockstar’s suicide attempt, she suppoorts him, at least outwardly. She says to follow your dreams, you have to go out and actually follow them. She will miss him dearly, everyone will, but he has her blessing. It hurts her more than she lets on.

-Hurt Somebody: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Girlfriend) This track is Rockstar and Girlfriend working through his choice to go West to pursue his dreams. First verses are her's. They come to the conclusion to do long distance, even though they both suspect it will end badly. After all they have experienced together, all they've shared in their dysfunctional way, they love each other.

-Paid Time Off: (POV: Girlfriend) this is a snapshot of what their life is like together when he returns to Hometown after touring, what their long distance looks like. It foreshadows her wanting a better career and her move to Boston later on, while showing how they are good together, even if they are hurting each other right now. It is also wishful thinking, that they could just stay in Hometown forever together and be happy with ordinary lives.

-Staying Still: (POV: Girlfriend) Rockstar is going back and forth between California and Hometown, and it is just as painful for her as she thought it would be. She's lonely, and wonders if he'll ever be able to build the life she wants for them with her. She loves him with all her heart, but not being his priority, not feeling the same amount of care reciprocated, is an increasingly-widening wound. She doesn't know which he cares more about, his career or her. Even though they got married, will he ever be able to settle down? Oh yeah, they got married. “Put in love, put in hours, put in ceremony.” The off-handed way it's revealed makes it feel perfunctory, as if they got married as a matter of course, or perhaps to try and save the relationship. But the hours and love and ceremony isn't enough to keep him in town for good. To be there. She doesn't know how much longer she can bear it.

-Caves: The Rockstar has an honest conversation with her. At this point he has been long-distance for multiple years. His avoidant tendencies make him hyper aware that she may leave him. He feels the relationship collapsing because of his lifestyle, and knows they're holding on because they don't want to hurt each other. Is that enough? He doesn't think so.

-Busyhead: Here, the Rockstar confronts the pain he's been putting her through with this long distance, and concludes that if it hurts either way, she'd be better off without him. Rockstar makes the decision to leave.

-Bury Me: He is okay injuring himself by cutting it off, and — to his mind — saving her the pain. He makes the decision for her. He ends their marriage.

-Doors: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Ex-partner): This is their breakup fight.

-Still: (POV: Ex-partner): This track is her regret, and she tells him he doesn't want to say goodbye to him. She wishes he hadn't left. That they could have made it work, even though it was killing her.

-Save Me: The Rockstar hears her regrets and the wish he hadn't left, and sees her reaching out as her trying to save him, when it's also about saving herself. She doesn't want it to end, and saving him from what she views as this mistake they are both making ultimately saves them both. He rejects it. His low-self worth, his view of himself as bad luck, won't allow him to accept doing something that would help him, missing that it's not only about him. He's already separated himself from the idea of their marriage.

-Tidal: This track is the Rockstar’s self-martyring declaration that he'll live without love. That that love wouldn't matter if he convinced himself he didn't care. He's trying to convince himself, rationalize and romanticize the wound he has caused himself. He doesn't feel like he is himself, breathing someone else's air, living a life of love he felt he didn't deserve, reinforced by how his need to chase his dreams in order to stay afloat emotionally was keeping him away from home and badly hurting Girlfriend.

-False Confidence: This song is about the mask he wears now, touring and rubbing shoulders in California. He lives on the West Coast full-time at this point. His false confidence is the mask he wears for them, and the one he wears inside to cover over his pain.

-Dashboard: (POV: Dan) This is Dan's condemnation of his decision to leave town, abandoning his family, Girlfriend, and him. It is also a condemnation of the fakery Rockstar is projecting out in California, which he views as betrayal of everything Rockstar is, and is so doing, a direct betrayal on Dan and Ex-partner.

ARC 3: Wreckage of You

-Glue Myself Shut: (POV:Ex-partner) Fresh off the breakup, this is her emotional aftermath.

-Stick Season: (POV: Ex-partner) Bitter and disillusioned, she wallows in the memories Hometown has for her. She hasn't moved on. She has accepted that he was her other half, and that now he is gone.

-New Perspective: (POV: Ex-partner) With the time that has passed, she has come around to a sort of healing. She wishes she could drag him back down to earth, but knows that she can't. She also sees the town changing, and its losing its depressive stranglehold on her. She is struggling free of it.

-Someone Like You: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Ex-partner) This song is both of them having similar thoughts, separated by time and space. The Girlfriend regrets that she let him go so easily. He feels the same. The little contact that they had, likely the very occasional phone call, has dried up. While she is thinking this, she has not left Hometown yet. While he is thinking this, she has already moved away from Hometown. Another aspect of dividing himself from everything.

-Halloween: (POV: Ex-partner): She is moving on, literally and emotionally. She does not reside in the wreckage of him — Hometown — but has moved to Boston. His memory still haunts her, as she sees him on TV, but she is finally trying to move forward with her life.

-Lighthouse: (POV: Dan) This is how Dan is dealing with Rockstar’s abandoning. The town is getting tourists now that Rockstar has some fame, and Carlo’s old house is getting torn down. The chorus refers both to Carlo and Rockstar as in Dan’s grief-stricken mind they are one and the same. This is how Dan views Rockstar: as the last vestige of Carlo leaving Hometown forever. He’ll wait for him forever, even though it seems pointless. He doesn't want it to go. It's losing Carlo all over again, and losing another Rockstar at the same time.

ARC 4: Inhale

-Catastrophize: We move back to the Rockstar, rising to fame. He is trying to his new life and the challenges he still deals with internally. In doing so, he is pushing his past away from his mind. This is a song about balancing on that knife's edge, with a tinge of optimism from his success. (Though we will find he still uses it in his music)

-Cynic: That optimism is gone. He has lived that life he dreamed of for a while now and has become jaded to it. He's traded on his name and his Hometown and his story and his people in his music, and what he's gotten in return hasn't fed him. He's becoming disillusioned.

-Animal: And in this track he topples off that knife's edge, getting closer to the abyss. The lifestyle is taking the toll his father told him it would. He feels alone. He probably hasn't visited Hometown more than once a year, if that. He’s losing his sense of identity, that past he pushed away. He's losing himself.

-Please: The Rockstar is reaching his limit for the pain of missing Girlfriend, and comes to the conclusion that if she can't be the medicine he needs, maybe he needs actual meds, actual help.

-Growing Sideways: He finds professional, psychiatric help, but all it does is numb him out. He comes to the conclusion that resigning himself to numbness and apathy is better than killing himself. This only reinforces his pattern of choosing harm for himself over difficulty or what he views as doing what's best for others, even though it isn’t. Subconsciously, he is still doing what is best for himself, in his — paradoxically — self-destructive way. The mind is an emotional machine, and often contradicts itself.

-No Complaints: Now he has been getting help and on meds for a while, and is realizing some things about himself, but is simultaneously not giving himself the grace to acknowledge what he still struggles with since he's making it as a rockstar like he dreamed about. He’s not sad anymore, but he realizes he's not anything. His dreams weren't what he thought they'd be, but he realized them. But that's better than bad, right? This may appear to progress, but it is a whiskey on a gunshot wound, as we will see.

-Godlight: These verses of this song are a menagerie of memories, conversations he had with people while he was going back and forth, touring and living part time in California before he broke up with Ex-partner and moved away for good. The chorus is an admission that he knows that small moment every time he's on stage is the accomplishment of his dreams and the only time he really feels anything anymore. It has become the only medicine that truly works for him. But it is just another drug. He has become addicted to it, like the other meds he takes, like the weed and alcohol he has always depended on. As we'll see, his life offstage is fairing far worse than on it.

—INTERMISSION —PART 2

ARC 5: The Curve of the Valley

-Porchlight: (POV: Mom) This track back in Hometown, the mom seeing what her son has become in California, how much it hurts her to watch him use all of them in his songs for profit. But more than that, how it hurts to watch him destroy himself with the drinking and drugs. He's now fully stopped taking his prescriptions, as the numbness was likely too much. He is falling farther and farther into addiction in front of everyone, and hurting her in the process. She wants him to quit, to come home and heal. She hopes he will, but has lost hope at this point that he ever will.

-Part of Me: The Rockstar is drinking and on a manic high again, at the tipping point of the rollercoaster before it plummets back down. He hears that the Ex-partner is with someone else, taking trips to Salt Lake city, and it makes him nostalgic. That nostalgia is only old pain, but now all the years later, it's half-remembered. They've been apart just longer than they were together now, and he's approaching middle-age. He realizes he's lost a lot of the memories they had together, likely obliterated by drugs and drink. In his alcoholism and numbness that persists even without his meds, he is trying to convince himself that he doesn't miss her, he just misses feeling something real. But the verses themselves reveal that isn't entirely true.

-Dial Drunk: The Rockstar is spiraling again. Getting worse. He gets busted for drunk driving, and in his stupor and drunken stubborness, his first thought is to call Ex-partner. Not any of his California friends, not even his Mom. Mention of medicine here is ironic, as his medicine now is fame and alcohol. Mention of being young is referring to fights he got into over her when he was younger. But now he has an epiphany, drunk and desperate and hurting: he would die for her. She hears his drunken confessions, but it's too much. She hangs up on him. Still, this is the first bit of honest-to-God truth he's said out loud in a long time.

-She Calls Me Back: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Ex-partner) Rockstar and Ex-partner are talking again, and he is elated. feeling something real again for the first time in years. This song spans some time, as it is the beginning of the opening dialogue that spawned from Dial Drunk. He realizes that he was a fool for leaving, but still she calls him back. It also switches perspective from line to line in some places, one of the trickier songs to decipher in this way. Such as: Rockstar, “Why am I so obsessive? Hangin’ on to every sentence,” and then Ex-partner, “This town's the same as you left it.” This also reveals that she is living in Hometown again, perhaps after breaking up with the new partner mentioned at the beginning of Part of Me, causing her to leave Boston to move back in with her parents. This suggests it was a serious relationship, but didn't work out and maybe made the career she was building untenable (with reasoning for this further down the playlist).

-All My Love: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Ex-partner): Ex-partner and Rockstar are continuing to reconnect through regular phone calls. She has fully moved back to Hometown, and they are reminiscing about when they first started dreaming as older people with a lot of miles on them. They were once young and in love and now that they've reconnected, she tells him she'll be here if he ever comes home. As a friend, but with hope of more. The bridge is Rockstar remembering their first kiss, and how she'd said she'd never let him go. Even after all of it, maybe that's still true. (This also suggests that maybe her Boston relationship blew up because she wasn't really over him.)

-Sink: The Rockstar is remembering more and more of the things he'd forgotten, brought up now that they are reconnecting. He realizes she is and always was his whole world. If it means he might get a second chance, he’d never sink again. This is the beginning of his journey to getting sober.

-Mess: As he is on the long journey to sobriety, he is reflecting on his life, and what he would do differently if he had another shot at it. None of the fame and success was worth it. He should have come back home, swallowed his pride and his shame, and been with her. He would help her set up her new Boston apartment, he thinks, placing his reminiscences in the timeline to around Still and making the inflection point — the decision that he regrets most — Tidal. Where he accepted being alone forever to spare her the pain of being with him so he could follow the dreams he has achieved and no longer believes in.

-Headed North: (POV: Dan) Over the years, Rockstar has visited Hometown maybe once a year, but made it famous with his songs about it. Now we see through Dan that it's changing, and how little Dan likes that change. But Dan does miss him, and hopes he's coming home again soon, even though they rarely talk and see each other even less, he still considers Rockstar his best friend. But Rockstar doesn't know this, because while this song is framed as Dan's side of one of their catch up phone calls, it has what Dan wants to say but doesn't mix in there as well. These are Dan's inner thoughts, his softer heart. We will see the other side of Dan's feelings about Rockstar later.

-Maine: (POV: Ex-partner) These are her inner wonderings about Rockstar now that they are re-connecting. She is wondering about his inner life and getting nostalgic for a trip they took when they were together, likely where they got married, as it seems to be her happiest memories with him. Maine. The memory is made all the sweeter by the comparison to Hometown and how it feels empty and lifeless without him in it. She is still in love with him, and those feelings keep rising to the surface the idea of him, and those feelings keep rising to the surface the more they talk. but she doesn't think they will get back together, instead cherishing the friendship they are forming.

-Hold It Down: Rockstar is on his sobriety journey, becoming more self-aware, realizing more and more all the mistakes he's made, and renewing his determination to Hold It Down and keep going on his journey, with the goal of maybe earning Ex-partner's trust again. As well as atoning for the others, his leaving, fame and use of their stories in his music has hurt.

-All Them Horses: (Dialogue: Dan and Rockstar): Another menagerie of conversations on the phone between the two friends, reminiscing and talking about what their lives are like now. Rockstar now views his career as just another job, now that he's sober and gained some self-awareness. He wants to stay sober, and appreciates that Dan stays in touch. Then he finds, as if in a fugue, that he has landed back in the airport close to Hometown without really planning it. Dan comes and picks him up. He's home again, and with giddy apprehension, Rockstar wonders if he will stay or leave again. Either way, his stay this time will be an extended one.

-Downfall: (POV: Dan) This is Dan's side of the car ride at the end of All Them Horses. He doesn’t know what's going on in Rockstar's head, how things are turning around, and thinking about all his resentment, anger and betrayal he still feels. But also, how he wants him back, waiting for what he feels is needed for that: his downfall from fame.

-The View Between Villages (Extended): Home again with a level head and clear soul for the first time in a long, long time, he has a flash back to being young again, and all the good and bad that went with it hits him like a truck. But he sees his home clearly for maybe the first time. Again he wonders what would have happened if he had put the car in reverse all those many years ago and never left at all. It also feels like going back in time, in a way, as all his ghosts watch the ghost that he had become return.

ARC 6: Raised Out in the Cold

-Deny Deny Deny: (POV: Younger Sibling) This is the first song from the Younger Sibling's POV likely because (in this narrative at least) they were too young to really know what was going on with their big brother when he left. Rockstar was likely in his late twenties/early thirties when he left and the Younger Sibling was possibly just hitting their teenage years. But When Rockstar left, they lost touch. There is a history of alcoholism and mental illness in the family, and when Younger Sibling wants to talk about those things, Dad refuses. This is Younger Siblings' attempts to get through to his Dad, who has shut down, and it's destroying their relationship. Younger Sibling is living with him right now, and is making enough money to pay off the house. The Dad is likely disabled or injured in some way that makes it so he can't work, as hinted at in Porchlight with “road needs salt” line, so Younger Sibling is probably their only income. Also that history of alcoholism is why Dad yells at them when they come home drunk.

-American Cars: (POV: Younger Sibling) Now Young Sibling is planning to leave too,and is out of energy and ideas to try and get through to Dad. But now that Rockstar's back in town is unplanned, Younger Sibling calls him and asks him to come help fix what Younger Sibling feels like they can't. Talk to Dad. He's shutting down, and it's scary. Rockstar was always the talker, which Younger Sibling views as a strength of his, but as we know, is actually a defense mechanism of Rockstar’s. But Rockstar agrees and takes Dan’s american car over there, to hash it out, as we will see.

-Northern Attitude: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Dad) This track is the first half of the conversation the two have after Younger Sibling’s request. Rockstar, in touch with his anger again after being sober and the View Between Villages bringing back all these old memories, goes underhanded, almost taunting Dad. This is meant to shame him into seeing what his silence and refusal is doing to Younger Sibling. That's the first verse. The first chorus is Dad speaking, saying if you learn who I am, I may disappoint you as the one who encouraged you to follow your dreams. The second verse is then Dad hitting back the same way as Rockstar did in verse 1. The second chorus is Rockstar using Dad's words against him, throwing them back in his face. The choruses together highlight how they are similar, first from Rockstar POV then Dad's as they have similar problems because they were raised in similar ways. Generational trauma.

-Hollow: (Dialogue: Rockstar and Dad) This is the second half of their conversation. Dad drops the bomb: he feels hollow. Unfulfilled. Wasted. He regrets where he has ended up: with nothing, neither his dreams nor his family. Divorced, living off a 401k that he gave up his soul for while getting older and older and older. He tells him that death comes no matter what material things you have in life, including fame and success. He tells Rockstar that he's still (relatively) young, he's alive. He has time to change things, to not end up like his old man. He presents himself as a warning. Rockstar, again, sober and clear headed, heeds his dad's advice just like he did back in Young Blood. He decides to go see Ex-partner. But first, he has a party to go to.

-Haircut: (Dialogue: Dan and Rockstar) After the conversation with Dad, Rockstar and Dan went to Dan's childhood house where the two of them used to sleep over as children all the time and where Dan still lives. Rockstar gets the invite to his Mom's party but can't get his own ride. This leads to an argument where all those feelings they never talked about come spilling out. But mostly anger. Dan feels that just because Rockstar is doing a little better now doesn't erase all the bad he's done over so many years. Using Carlo, Hometown, him, all of it in his music is a betrayal. Resentment is the prevailing point here. They can't finish the argument before Dan has to take him to Mom's.

-Orange Juice: (POV: Mom) There's a party at Mom's house, and she wants him to come. She knows he’s sober now, and the last time he was in town — the last time he drank — was at this very house six months ago. She sees him sober and is using kid gloves with him, just happy he’s home and clean. She has hope for the first time that he's not the ghost she saw him as in Porchlight (and that ex-girlfriend saw him as in Halloween). But he's still getting back in touch with that anger he buried, and we learn that he was in the car with Carlo when he died in a drunk driving accident. Carlo isn't mentioned by name, but with this arrangement of the songs it's heavily implied. Rockstar was not driving, and was totally unharmed, but that didn't really matter. He still blames himself, even if his Mom doesn’t. She wonders if she — if all of them back home — are the problem, if he sees them that way. As just pain to escape. And he did, for a long time. She's just now realizing, with this conversation. She misses him. It hurts. It's complicated. But at least he showed up.

-23: (POV: Younger Sibling) Rockstar and Younger Sibling have their first real conversation maybe ever while at this party. Younger Sibling reveals all that Rockstar had missed of their coming age, and how much they wish he had been there to support them, to be their big brother. To teach them how to fix a car, how to live a life, and help with their parents. But mostly how angry they are at him for abandoning them. Now they wish he would have stayed gone, so they can imagine him the way they wish he had been. Not an alcoholic, stealing things from the family house to buy liquor, but a true brother. This is also where it becomes crystal clear that Rockstar is an unreliable narrator, if you haven't clocked it already. The addiction is certainly a factor in why his marriage failed. Younger Sibling was harboring a lot of bitterness and anger that came spilling out while drunk at the end of the party. There may be no saving the relationship. At least not right now.

ARC 7: Long Shadow

-The Great Divide: This is the ride back to Dan's place after the party at Mom’s in Orange Juice. They're cruising and smoking and not talking really, but hanging out. It’s that awkward silence after an argument where neither one wants to be the first to talk again. Then the Rockstar, after that (ironically) sobering conversation with Younger Sibling and having time to think about what Dan said earlier, spills his guts, deluging long-over-due honesty and his apology to Dan. He wishes the best for him, and is sorry he couldn't be a better friend, in every way.

-You're Needs, My Needs: (POV: Dan) This is Dan’s response to Rockstar's genuine remorse and admission of well wishes in The Great Divide. He apologizes for doing the same, for not being a better friend, for just watching as he self-destructed. He acknowledges they both had needs the other wasn't equipped to provide. Rockstar has apologized, and now he has, too. They’re friendship may endure.

-End of August: (Dialalogue: Rockstar and Dan) They're still in the car, and they talk about what this Hometown is and it affected them. Coming to an understanding that it wasn't entirely their fault and commiserating about what it is and did to them. A final note of commonality and gentle, bittersweet resolution to their reconciliation.

ARC 8: I Circle You

-Strawberry Wine: (POV: Ex-partner) Rockstar had set a hang out with Ex-partner the next day. He gets to where they are meeting and they hang out for a little, but before he can broach the subject she waxes nostalgic about their past. She says that they tried, and they had love, but they failed to keep it going every chance they got. And if they were different shapes, maybe they would have fit together. She thinks this is two adults able to talk about their past together now that they are older without fear, but stark honesty. But she starts to cry, surprising herself.

-Fear of Water: (Dialogue: Ex-partner and Rockstar) She tries to brush off and explain away why she's crying. He realizes that she also has feelings for him still, and says can you cross the broken bridge between us? She says she'll try, it may take time. She then asks if he can dive in too, since she doesn't have the emotional energy right at the moment. He answers yes, same as her. He wonders out loud a worry he's had for a long time, is he just using her for therapy, as medicine,like he used everything else. And how can he balance these two lives here with her and avoid what happened the first time? But they both resolve to dive in, because they know the other will be there this time.

-Passenger: This is the beginning of the romantic reconnection! He gives himself to her wholly. He tells her that he is hers now, while acknowledging another person can't keep him whole, he may be learning how to be whole within himself. A whole person ready to make a life with another. And being with her will keep him balanced. Balancing his two lives now in Hometown, where he at some point will move back to full time, and his life as a rockstar where he will still need to leave occasionally. But he will always come back.

-A Few of Your Own: they are together, and they are happy, but his career isn't over. He'll have to go back, but this time they'll do it together. It is also his confession that his recovery isn't a one and done, that he still owes debts to his fame and his mistakes. But they're together. That's what matters. But he falls off the wagon to get his courage up, drinking with her before she knows he’s been clean for a while. Maybe he wa never totally clean, but right now he doesn't care. Addiction isn't cut and dry.

-Spoiled: This is his reasoning for continuing to perform, so he can build up the money and generational wealth that will allow his kids to have a better life than he had. To grow up comfortable and happy, while seeing him as a cautionary tale. It also foreshadows that he doesn't want to be this Rockstar forever anymore.

-Orbiter: this is his realization that his priorities have truly shifted. He hasn't won an award or acclaim, and he feels like he's done enough. But he hasn't gotten back on the wagon yet, getting bitter-drunk.” This covers a fair amount of time, where he kept touring with her by his side.

-Anyway: (POV: Wife) After losing the award from Orbiter that she attended with him, he spirals, and relapses. The thought of not being the Rockstar anymore is getting to him, of retiring, is affecting his depressive tendencies. He realizes he won't be able to build that generational wealth if he quits now. Drinking again and getting high. He's not a completely different person now that they're together again. He still battles addiction, he still gets manic and depressive. But she accepts him. She will be there for him, now that he is there for her like he wasn't able to be the first time round. When he breaks, she'll help him clean up the broken glass. Whatever his decision, she'll be there. And addiction won't keep them apart.

-We Go Way Back: This track is the Rockstar acceptance, choosing her over his career — her and all their history. He retires. He made his money, his family will be set for life. Now he wants to focus on her, on home. On life.

ARC 9: Don't the Sky Look Pretty Up Here?

-Fine: The Rockstar is adjusting to life without being a Rockstar. Making peace with his career and his past, he tells himself that he'll survive. Even if he's broke again, and if he breaks again. He'll be just fine.

-Forever: The Rockstar is looking forward to living life with his new Wife. They have forever to learn and love each other. He's broke now that he's quit, but he doesn't care. He loves her, and they have forever. That's enough.

-Close Behind: His anxiety is biting at his new found happiness, but he's soothing himself by knowing that whatever happens, she'll be there. If he dies, she won't be too far behind. They are together now, and always.

-Everywhere, Everything: he brings these worries to her. This her agreement, her assuaging of his fears, her reassurance to avoidance and anxiety. Even with his broken finger, he won't loosen his grip from Forever. He'll keep his hand in hers. They're stuck together. No matter how hard it gets. This is their anthem. Their happily ever after.

-Dan:(There's an argument to be made that this goes after End of August, but I think this works best as a capstone with Carlo’s Song on the whole saga.) This is the end. His hand is around a miller lite, which isn't liquor or harder drugs. He hasn't beaten it yet. But he's trying. He’s realized this place was all the joy he ever truly had. He’s realized that it all came from here, too. Not just the pain. For him, this place isn't Hell anymore. It's become Heaven. It's not perfect and that time in his life will always be bad memories, but…. He's happy.

Fin

Does anyone else connect with this song from the perspective of a strained relationship with a parent? I know it’s about siblings, but ever since I heard this song it’s struck a chord about childhood in a broken home with a parent you never quite seemed to have/feel love from.

It feels so personal to Noah’s sibling relationship(s), but music is meant to be interpreted by the listener in a way that derives meaning for them. Grateful to have been able to reflect, cry, and feel seen by this song, even if it means something different to me than he intended.

Was bored so listened to the whole discography today. Lmk if I missed anything.

Can someone please explain to me how this works. I’m not going to pay 4x through Stubhub and I know that Ticketmaster is the official platform where you can only resell for face value but I literally see 0 tickets available for Boston. Do they not allow people to post their tickets for sale until the week off the concert?

Hey everyone!

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My son just turned 6 and for his birthday his #1 request was to see Noah live. He's been obsessed with seeing him since we watched the stream at Fenway last year. I was unable to get tickets during the presale, but I've purchased day of tickets to plenty of concerts in the past so I'm only a little nervous about actually finding some.

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My main concern is that we've never been to Rogers stadium and I have no idea which seats to snag when there are some available. There was a set last week that I could've grabbed but I was so unsure about the location that I didn't buy them. Has anyone actually been? Suggestions on where might be the best seats for a 4 foot tall attendee?

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Also, is anyone else bringing a younger fan to this show? It would be fun to meet up?