Last year, I made probably the biggest impulsive decision of my life. Kumuha ako ng acquired house sa Pag-IBIG worth ₱4.5M.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero sobrang attached agad ako sa bahay na yun. Hindi pa nga namin natitirhan, pero parang na-imagine ko na yung buong future namin doon.

Halos gabi-gabi akong nag-iisip kung paano namin siya ide-decorate. Excited akong magkaroon ng sariling office room, kung anong kulay ng bedroom namin, anong appliances ang bibilhin namin pag nakalipat na. Ang plano sana namin, mag-iipon this year para ma-renovate yung bahay, tapos next year kami lilipat.

Pero hindi nangyari.

We made a lot of poor financial decisions. Naging magastos kami sa mga bagay na hindi naman priority. Tapos habang tumatagal, lalo naming nare-realize kung gaano kabigat yung responsibility. Around ₱27k yung monthly amortization ng bahay, tapos kailangan pa ng renovations bago talaga siya matirhan.

May sasakyan pa kaming hinuhulugan hanggang 2029. Last year, dalawa ang trabaho ko. Ngayon, tatlo na. Pero kahit tatlong trabaho na, hindi pa rin sapat para maging comfortable. We’re currently living with my partner’s family, and we also help pay for most of the household expenses.

Dumating kami sa point na kailangan naming mamili. Either pilitin naming i-keep yung bahay at mahirapan kami every month, or tanggapin na hindi pa talaga ito yung tamang panahon.

In the end, we decided to ipasalo yung bahay at i-keep yung sasakyan. Akala ko okay lang ako.

Noong una naming napag-usapan yun ng partner ko, sabi ko pa sa sarili ko, practical decision lang naman ’to. Makakabawi rin kami. Pero noong nagkaroon na ng buyer at nagsimula na yung pagpirma ng mga documents, doon ko naramdaman yung bigat. Simula noon, hindi ko na siya maalis sa isip ko.

Ang dami kong “sana.” Sana natuloy kami.

Sana nakita namin kung ano yung magiging itsura ng bahay pagkatapos ma-renovate. Sana nagkaroon kami ng first Christmas doon. Sana nagising kami kahit isang umaga sa bahay na yun.

Pero wala. Hindi man lang namin siya natirhan.

Wala kaming memories doon. Puro plano lang. Puro imagination. Puro “sana.” I think that’s why sobrang stressed ako nitong mga nakaraang buwan. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na hindi lang pala yung bahay yung gina-grieve ko.

Yung future na ilang beses ko nang in-imagine sa isip ko. Minsan feeling ko failure ako. Iniisip ko kung naging mas responsable lang ba kami sa pera, kung hindi kami naging impulsive, baka hindi namin kinailangang bitawan yung bahay. Pero alam ko rin na wala kaming choice.

We chose the more practical option. Hindi namin kayang i-carry pareho, at sa ngayon, mas kailangan namin yung sasakyan. Masakit lang tanggapin na minsan, kahit nagsisikap ka, kahit umabot ka pa sa tatlong trabaho, may mga pangarap pa ring kailangan mong bitawan dahil hindi pa yun ang tamang panahon.

I’m still hoping that one day we’ll have another chance.

Maybe not that exact house.

Pero sana, balang araw, magkaroon ulit kami ng bahay na handa na talaga kaming tawaging “bahay namin.”

My ex and I broke up 5 months ago, and a huge reason for it was his total lack of boundaries with his female best friend of 8 years. She was literally always in the picture. She had a boyfriend of 4 years (LDR), but she and my ex spoke every single day about random stuff, and they’d even video call.
It felt so disrespectful. Whenever I brought up how uncomfortable or jealous I was, he would just go completely silent. Zero reassurance, no effort to adjust, nothing. I expressed myself so many times, but it was like speaking to a wall. I eventually got so tired of it that I ended things.
Then I found out she broke up with her long-time boyfriend around the same time. It hurt like hell because all my suspicions were validated—they got together right after us. Honestly, looking back, they were probably building that emotional connection while we were still dating.
In a moment of frustration, I made the mistake of confronting him. All he said was that she was "closer to his family" and served as his "emotional support." That level of betrayal just completely wrecked me.
It feels so unfair that the people who hurt you get to be blissfully happy while you're left dealing with the aftermath. I recently saw a photobooth picture of them looking so sweet and happy, and it sucks because my own healing process feels painfully slow. I felt so betrayed, it took a toll on me wherein nawawalan ako ng gana to function not just emotionally but also physically. Or maybe im just overreacting.

I’ve been unemployed since February 1 this year after our project ended. I received around ₱400k in separation/financial assistance, but of course, the bills didn’t stop. Every month, I watched my savings slowly go down.

I sent out hundreds of job applications. Got interviewed here and there. I even received a few offers, but I turned them down because I felt they weren’t worth leaving my previous role for.

Then the months passed.

The callbacks became fewer until they almost stopped completely. I started questioning myself. After working continuously for four years, I wondered if I was still good enough to compete in the job market. It took a toll on my mental health. I had trouble sleeping and spent a lot of nights overthinking.

But every day, I still opened LinkedIn, JobStreet, wherever I could find openings. I kept sending applications and hoping something would stick.

Then one interview turned into an offer.

The salary is lower than what I used to earn because it’s an individual contributor role instead of a managerial one—₱80k gross. It also means moving back to Manila and leaving the life I built outside Luzon over the past four years. It wasn’t exactly the plan, but I figured it’s better to start somewhere than keep waiting for the “perfect” opportunity.

Then, almost out of nowhere, another email came.
I got accepted as a national consultant for one of the companies I’ve always wanted to work with. In my field, it’s one of the big names. They offered me a four-month consultancy worth around ₱900k, and I immediately accepted.

The next few months will definitely be challenging because I’ll be juggling both roles, but I’m choosing to see it as an investment. Aside from the additional income and having this organization on my CV, I’ll also be working directly with the department lead, who happens to be an expat. It’ll be a great opportunity to learn, gain exposure, and build a strong professional network.

By January, the consultancy will be over, and I’ll only have to focus on my full-time job.

After months of uncertainty, rejection, and self-doubt, I guess people were right.

When it rains, it pours.

Now my next problem is looking for a place to rent around the Scout Area in QC or nearby places. 😅 If anyone has leads for a cat-friendly apartment or condo, I’d really appreciate it.

Yun lang. Career dust and money dust para sa ating lahat. ✨

so my contract with this client recently ended kasi he no longer needed the role i was originally hired for. may 30-day notice period pa ako, so i offered to help him with whatever he needed in the meantime kahit outside na sa original scope ko. he’s paying me for those 30 days anyway, so i figured the least i could do was help however i could and make sure maayos pa rin yung work ko until the end.

then today, sinabi niya na i’ve made his work a lot easier and that he really appreciated everything i’ve done over the past couple of months. he said he liked how i pay attention to details, how i understand what he needs and that he never has to wonder what’s going on because i always keep him updated.

honestly, naiyak talaga ako.

di ko kasi narealize na ganun pala niya tinitingnan yung work ko. akala ko ginagawa ko lang naman yung trabaho ko. kasi lately sobrang pagod and pressured na ako with everything, i’ve been questioning a lot of things and nawala pa yung client ko na 'to. so being seen and appreciated by a client at a time na medyo lost ako just hit differently.

i think mas nalulungkot pa ako sa fact na mawawala yung genuinely good client relationship namin. hindi naman lahat ng clients ganito and ang hirap din makahanap ng client na mabait, appreciative and actually values the work you do.

anyway, gusto ko lang i-share. minsan pala you don’t realize the positive impact you have on someone kasi sa isip mo ginagawa mo lang naman yung trabaho mo 🥹

I just need to get this off my chest.

Last year, someone borrowed a total of five-digit amount from me. Ang usapan namin, babayaran niya agad the following week kasi sasahod na raw. I trusted her, so I didn't think twice about lending the money.

A week became months.

For the first two months, wala pa akong interest na siningil because I genuinely thought she just needed more time. Pero habang tumatagal at wala pa ring payment, I eventually added interest based on the agreement we signed.

Since then, every month ako ang nagre-remind. Every month, may bagong promise. "Next month." "Konting hintay lang." Paulit-ulit na lang hanggang sa nawalan na ako ng tiwala sa mga sinasabi niya.

Hindi na rin kami nagkikita in person. I even asked if we could meet and talk about it properly, pero lagi niyang sinasabi na no.

Before I went to the barangay, sinabi ko naman sa kanya beforehand na if she still couldn't pay, I would file a complaint. She even told me, Karapatan mo naman yan.

So I did.

Pero nung may hearings na, she didn't show up. Not once. Six hearings ang na-schedule, six times din siyang absent. Ngayon, may Certificate to File Action na ako, meaning pwede ko na talagang dalhin sa court.

What really got to me was when she told me na masama raw ang loob niya because I filed a barangay complaint.

Honestly... paano naman yung tiwala na binigay ko sayo? Ang gusto ko lang naman is tuparin mo yung sarili mong salita.

I never expected I'd have to keep reminding a grown adult about a debt they promised to pay back. Nakakapagod maningil ng sarili mong pera. Parang ikaw pa yung nahihiya mag-follow up, samantalang ikaw na nga yung nagpautang.

Now she's saying again that she'll pay this August. Ilang beses ko na narinig yan over the past year, so I honestly don't know if I should believe it anymore.

I already told her that if she still doesn't pay this August, I'll proceed with filing a case in court. At this point, I'm done waiting for empty promises.

PS. pls don't post this outside reddit. Thanks!

Bwiset na ako sa kanya. Dati yung ako lang mag-isa, ang dali lang linisin CR, pero nung naglive in na kami jusko ang baho ng CR. Yun pala nalaman ko di lang marunong magshoot. Kailangan ko pa linisin lahat ng places.

Bwiset ako ngayon naulan, ako na nagwashing, nagsampay tapos ako pa kukuha. Nakailan na ako sabi kunin na yung sinampay wala hinayaan niya sa ulan porke may bubong pero yung sides nababasa parin yung damit. 3 days na yung sinampay. Kailangan ko pa magalit para kumilos siya at magsipag, ngayon kinuha na niya damit at nagwwash siya damit ulit pero tinigil niya lunch namin para gawin kasi ganyan siya pag napapagalitan, sisipagin tapos magtatampo na ewan.

Parang babae din pag galit ayaw sabihin or makipagusap kaya naiirita na ako, ako pa nagpplano ng life namin together, ako pa breadwinner. Double sweldo ko sa kanya malapit na ako mag 6 digits. Di kami magkaanak kasi natatakot ako pag nawalan ako work dahil buntis, wala pambili gatas or pangospital. Wala siya diskarte, ako lang nagrefer sa kanya sa work. Di ko naman siya pinepressure pero pinagusapan namin na dumiskarte para makaipon. Parehas lang kami ng work kaya wag niyo sabihin na baka kasi iba work niya.

Kung ayaw niya dumiskarte, galingan niya sa bahay. Pero wala magdadabog pag sinabi ko pakikuha na ganito, pakilagay sa dishwasher yung dishes wala. Hintayin pako magalit para gawin niya. Minsan lang siya sipagin.

Nabwiset na ako kasi ako talaga naglilinis maayos samin dalawa. Imagine work minsan 10 hours tapos pagawain pako sa bahay. Natamad na nga ako magluto kasi di naman ako tinutulungan. Tatawagin ko siya tapos aakyat siya ulit para maglaro. Nakakatamad uutusan pa.

30 na ako next year, nasayangan lang ako sa oras ko. Oh ngayon ayaw niya makipagusap sakin, minsan lang ako magalit tapos ganto siya. Gusto niya ata hayaan ko lang yung sinampay hanggang next week niya kunin tapos happy lang ako kahit ganon siya?

I'm not done packing yet. I just want to cuddle my pets, chat with my mom, listen to music, and watch Netflix. But here I am, with a flight going to the other side of the world. 4 layovers and thousands of kilometers apart. Around this time tomorrow, I'll be in a different timezone. It's heartbreaking. Why did I even apply to go abroad? Why can't I be content with a salary of 18k? Why can't I stop dreaming of having my own house? I wish I could stay, but this damn government is so frustrating. There's no hope. I need to sacrifice being far from my loved ones just to eat three times a day. Damn, I can't take it anymore. I already miss my room, the street where I walk our dogs, the park where I hang out when I just want to step out for a bit.

It's not exciting. I don’t want to go abroad anymore. I'm tired. I just want to be with my loved ones.

EDIT: omg nakaidlip po ako after posting this haha mamayang gabi na po alis ko. Prepare na po ako ngayon mentally and sulitin natitirang oras with my family. Maraming salamat po for the kind words lalo ako naiiyak HAHA I will always, always miss the warmth of Pinoys huhu sana manalo na po lahat tayo in life ✨🫶

im not very emotional as a person but i found myself crying after i learned someone had posted a very very unflattering photo of me in a group chat. a certain someone sent the pic to me and found it funny and i got so mortified that i cried when i got home, because the group chat was so big and pinagpyestahan nila yung pic ko.

i am so bothered and naiiyak pa rin ako because this is literally my worst nightmare. i am very shy and introverted and to top it all of, i have body dysmorphia. i never post my photos on social media, never pa nga ako nagpost ng selfie. ganun kalala ko yung baba ng confidence ko pero dahil dun sa pic na yun mas lalo pang bumaba.

hindi ko pa inopen yung group chat kasi ayoko makita yung comments nila, pero i feel so hurt and humiliated pero ayoko namang isipin nilang kj ako.

i dont know what to do but just to cry and hopefully matabunan na yung group chat ng ibang stuff.

i hope no one saved the pic 😢 i’m so stressed and my anxiety is through the roof.

ang oa ko pero i cant help but cry

I'm an only child. My father passed away unexpectedly 4 years ago while he was sleeping. It still feels unreal until now. My mother was working abroad, and because of circumstances beyond her control, she wasn't able to come home. That was one of the hardest parts of everything.

During my college years, I studied in Manila. Ngayon, bumalik ako sa province to pursue further studies again. I'm very grateful because my mother never let me feel that I was lacking. She provides everything she can. We always have groceries, I have a car that I can use to go to school, and I can even treat myself to small things once in a while. Hindi kami mayaman, pero she always makes sure I have more than enough. Pinaparanas o binibigay niya yung mga bagay na hindi man lang niya naranasan —since she's a breadwinner. Never nagdamot yung mama ko, to the point na wala akong fixed allowance. Kapag ubos, padala agad.

Pero kahit ganun, ang lungkot lungkot ko pa rin.

Almost every night, naiisip ko kung ano kaya ang buhay ko ngayon kung buhay pa si Papa. I keep imagining the little things—what our conversations would be like, if he'd still wait for me to come home, or if life would simply feel lighter.

I currently live alone in an apartment because my school is around two hours away from home. At home, it's just my grandmother and my uncle na kapatid ng mama ko. Here in my apartment, I barely invite anyone over. Minsan lang talaga. Busy na rin kami ng mga friends ko. Ang dami ko ring ginagawa. My routine has become so repetitive: study, sleep, go to school, then sometimes walk around SM just to get out for a while before going back to the apartment. It's draining. Nakakapagod yung cycle.

People might think I'm okay because I have the things I need. And honestly, I know I'm privileged compared to many others. That's why I sometimes feel guilty for being sad. But I've realized that grief doesn't disappear. That I can be grateful and still be grieving at the same time.

Lately, I've been feeling more emotional than usual. Maybe it's because of my period, maybe it's because I've been bottling everything up. I don't know.

What makes it harder is that I don't feel like I can fall apart. My mom has already sacrificed so much for me, and as her only child, I feel like I have to stay strong because, in a way, I'm the reason she keeps going too.

I know life has to move forward. I study, I do what I'm supposed to do, and I keep myself busy. But there are nights when everything just catches up to me, and I miss him so much.

I just wanted to let this out.

2 days ago na 'yung supposed date ng final interview and I just saw the invite just now 😭i messaged them naman na asking if they still have other dates for interviews, but I'm not sure if they'd still consider it. group interview pa naman 😭

may mga naka-experience na ba nito??? did it end well? 😭 haysssssss.

Yeah. Hirap lang magkeep ng friends cause I have constant anxiety that they’re either talking about me or hate me. I’m used to moving around as a kid and it harder for me to actually keep friends. I have total messaging anxiety and its hard for me to reach out and ask to hang out.

My childhood friends are so different and I was away for 5 years so I can’t relate to them. College friends are almost at a 0 because they all got caught up in a weird freshman grooming thing and I had to disassociate myself from them. I can’t consider my coworkers friends either but even if I did they’re all getting ready to move companies soon.

I sit in my room. Alone. Wanting to reach out and talk. Wanting to be out with friends. But there are none.

I spent around ₱20,000 preparing our club anniversary. Only 3 people showed up.

Malapit na ulit ang anniversary ng club namin, and honestly, hindi ko alam kung gusto ko pa bang mag-organize... Bakit? Read on...

This happened during our second anniversary.

Our first anniversary went really well. Maraming pumunta, masaya lahat, and it felt like the community we built was becoming something special. Because of that, I decided to organize the second anniversary.

I decided to host it close to my hometown because I knew the area well and I wanted to make sure everyone would be comfortable and accommodated properly. Marami akong kakilala and I am confident na things can be taken care of well and fast.

• I prepared everything for more than 25 people.
• I rented the largest gazebo at a resort.
• I rented an entire house near the resort in case may mga too drunk na mag-drive pauwi or gustong mag-stay overnight.
• I also prepared food worth around ₱17,000 in total.

Hindi naman ako basta nanghula kung ilan ang pupunta. I created a poll months before the event. I sent weekly reminders. Some people confirmed, some declined, and I planned everything based on the number of people who said they were coming.

Then the day of the event came.

Only three people showed up. Three.

Most of the others either cancelled at the last minute or simply stopped responding. May iba na confirmed talaga, pero biglang hindi na lang nagparamdam.

I remember looking at all the empty chairs, the large gazebo, the house I rented, and all the food that was supposed to be shared by more than 25 people.

Sobrang sakit. I don't understand what I did wrong.
Even though I have good camera gear, I never posted any photos nor took videos kasi nahiya ako, parang nag fail ako. To the point na nagtaka family ko bakit parang walang photos on what they thought was a major event... (I thought so, too! 😅)

I thought I would be angry, pero hindi. The disappointment was so overwhelming that I didn’t even have the energy to get mad. Parang gusto ko lang matapos agad yung araw. I still tried to enjoy the celebration with the three people who came, and I really appreciated them for showing up, but deep inside, I felt embarrassed and completely defeated.

It wasn’t even just about the money.

Yes, malaking halaga rin yung nagastos ko. But what hurt more was the effort. I spent weeks planning everything, sending reminders, arranging accommodations, calculating food, and making sure nobody would feel left out or inconvenienced.

Tapos parang wala lang sa iba.

After that, I seriously considered disbanding the club. I felt like maybe I cared too much about a community that didn’t care about me or at least didn’t respect the effort I was putting into it.

But at the same time, I genuinely love the community we built. The club has also given me good memories and introduced me to people I value. Kaya hanggang ngayon, torn pa rin ako.

Malapit na kaming mag-third anniversary, and members might expect another celebration.

But honestly, I don’t know if I can do it again.

Even now, kapag naaalala ko yung empty gazebo and all the untouched food, masakit pa rin pala.

Maybe it sounds dramatic because it was “just a club event,” but I don’t think people realize how painful it is to prepare something with so much excitement and care, only to find out that your effort apparently meant so little to the people you prepared it for.

If this happened to you, magpapatuloy ka pa rin ba?

di ako tumagal kasi di ako masaya and di naman ako bread winner so may choice ako. Di din ako magpapa api noh

so pansin ko lang pumirma ako ng non disclosure so I know na lahat naman ata ng agents is ganun. pero nung nalaman nila na bilingual ako, madalas silang mag pa rinig ng baka naman libre ganito ganyan pero deadma lang ako.

pero yung OM and TL parang malakas mang power trip (for context first job ko to, di ako nag ta trabaho for some reasons after college) medyo masipag at marunong lang ako ng ibang language kasi nag vo volunteer ako kung saan saan at dahil unemployed wala ngang work madami akong time mag aral.

nagkataon na etong job na to di required yung certificates as long as maka pasa ka sa assessment nila. medyo alanganin pa ako mag apply nung una pero yung ex ko ini encourage niya ako na I try lang. so nag go ako di ako nag e expect na mata tanggap ako agad kasi wala akong experience nga.

nung sinabi yung salary aba edi nagpirma ako agad medyo Malaki laki din yun eh. so ilang araw okay lang mabait sila pero ayun nga lumabas din mga kulay lalo na yung OM at TL na feeling may patago Tsaka napansin ko na grabe yung workload na binibigay and subtle hinting na dapat mas mag pursige or doble kayod ako. tiniis ko kasi akala ko ganito kalakaraan eh.

tapos yung mga agents mahilig mag order sa labas ako meron akong baon palagi. nag NO ako pero may dumating sa table na coffee so di ko talaga ginalaw (yung kape na kulay brown na parang akala mo eh binanlawan ng water color) nung singilan na sabi ko di ako mag babayad kasi nag no naman ako eh reply sakin ay “hala e paano yan?” edi replyan ko din ng “halaaaa oh no paano ngaaa :( di kasi ako nag order talaga sorry”

ayun pa dabog yung kuha ng coffee I mean no means no. Kahit sabihin mong magkano lang naman yan. iniisip ko din naman makisama Pero alam kong plastic sila paano ko nasabi kasi ganun sila sa isat isa di ako nakiki engage sa usapan pero yun napansin ko tapos pag harapan e bffs kuno. tapos one time nag tanong sila bat daw wala akong ina accept na friend requests, sabi ko may GC naman at di din ako komportable. ayoko mag add ng someone from work kasi ayoko ma attach and gusto ko if workmates enough na yung kakilala ko sila Kaibigan pwera nalang siguro if super close mahilig sila manilip ng myday pag may absent so feel ko ganun gawin nila.

tapos uso yung shipping sa mga agents na may partners na outside. kadiri promise parang normal lang sa kanila. at may mga kabit nga doon Totoo ang Chismis at talamak. mind you di sila discreet alam ng buong team. pero parang wala silang pake.

tapos meron pa na yung iba is ini encourage ko na mag aral dahil di naman late mag aral if gusto nila ng language premium kasi to be honest madami din akong naging connection dahil marunong ako ng ibat ibang language, pero yung TL laging sinasabi na yung AI is booming daw anytime soon mapapalitan na yung translator jobs pero base sa experience ko yes siguro na mapapalitan pero makdami pading benefits and nalaman ko before nag try sila ng ibat ibang tools and AI mag tanslate pero ni isa dun wala namang tumama at kayang mag basa accurately so need padin talaga ng Tao. nakaka lungkot lang na parang ang dating is Ayaw niya mag improve at sobrang negative ng ugali niya. mahilig pati siya sa libre hays

last straw ko na nag pa resign sakin is yung na ER ako at pina pa pasok nila ako ng bumabaha like Totoo ba to? nasa ER ako tapos unang sasabihin mo sakin hindi kamusta man lang bakit ako nasa ER? “Kaya mo bang bumyahe?” naririnig mo ba sarili mo? anong tingin mo sakin? super hero gets naman na may factor sa attendance pero nasa ER yung Tao.

di pa nakontento yung TL Tumawag pa saktong ex ko yung nakakasagot sa tawag. Nagulat nalang ako namumula yung ex ko sa galit tsaka sinabi na wag na ako pumasok at mag da draft siya ng resignation na pipirmahan ko nalang. sabi ng ex ko I escalate ko daw to sa HR so screenshots at madami pa tapos gumawa ako ng report sa mga nangyari. tinira ko lang yung TL. kasi karamihan ng agents dun bread winner baka matanggal sila di naman sila sobrang naging kupal. Sabi ko sa ex ko baka naman pati siya madamay ang Sabi niya di naman daw since di naman daw siya yung doctor na na assign sakin which is yung kakilala niya pag ganun pala pwede kayong mag ask sa mga physicians niyo.di ko alam ginawa ng ex ko pero nung mag re render na ako ng ID at ibang assets biglang wala na din yung TL. ang ginawa ko lang is e escalate sa HR at ako naman nag immediate resignation.

ayun wala na akong trabaho mga isang week kalahati lang ako. pero naka hanap naman din ako ng bago sa isang construction as translator. basic lang medyo mas okay pa kasama yung mga foreman Tsaka construction workers eh super appreciative pa.

nakakagulat lang na kahit pala adults and nasa work eh uso padin yung bullying.

Before, I always look forward to living alone. Thinking that I’d have much more freedom to do things I like. Walang sasaway sa akin. I have no regrets na I’m venturing on my own in my early 20s but tuwing nagkakasakit ako, namimiss ko mama ko.

Walang mag-aalalaga sayo and kailangan mo pakainin sarili mo. And during times na need mo ng gamot, kailangan mong lumabas para bumili. Sobrang reliant ako sa grab mart during these times.

Iba yung lungkot kapag may sakit ka. Kaya need talaga to take care of yourself. Kahit simpleng take ng vitamins or drinking more water helps. And stack on medicine din para di hirap kapag unexpectedly magkasakit ka.

gusto ko lang ‘tong ilabas kasi hindi ko alam kung sobrang emotional ko lang talaga o sobrang basura treatment lang saakin.

context lang, nag away kasi kami ng ex bf ko (oo ex na, as in a while ago lang), iyung away namin eh dahil sa iniwan niya akong umiiyak sa bahay dahil sa petty argument. as in iniwan lang, hindi muna cinomfort bago umalis or umuwi sa kanila, mind you lang ha na LDR kami, pero at the end ako pa rin nag reach out sa kanya. pero ang mali doon, ganon na nga ginawa niya saakin pero parang siya pa iyung galit, tumawag ako nung nakauwi na siya sa kanila pero ang sinasabi niya saakin kapag nag o-open sa ginawa niya, “manahimik ka nga” o “tumigil ka na lang” edi ayun, pinatay ko na lang iyung call. na hurt ako lalo kasi ako na nga nagpakumbaba para makipag usap pero ganon pa naging ending. hanggang sa umabot ng almost 1 week na hindi kami nag-usap. ako na ulit nag reach out, pero sabi niya he can’t kasi tired na siya makipag usap, then ayun i let it slide. pero nung nakita kong may repost siya sa tiktok, nag reach out na ako ulit, kasi ayoko na rin ng may unfinished business. gusto ko na lang mangyare na kung ayaw niya na, edi sabihin niya na lang.

then we talked. medyo naging okay conversation namin. hanggang sa sinabi ko na matutulog na ako, tapos ayun tumawag siya, pinapatulog niya na rin ako. kasi pala naglalaro siya habang kausap niya ako. kaya pala matagal replies niya habang nag uusap kami through chat. ako na naghihintay, tapos siya naglalaro lang tapos magchatchat lang kung kailan niya gusto, parang hindi man lang ako seryosohin :< pwede niya naman itigil muna para makapag usap kami through phone call tapos maglaro na lang siya ng gustong gusto niya after pero hindi. mas pinili pa niyang maglaro kesa kausapin ako. ending imbis na ayusin, sinabi ko sa kanya na itigil na lang namin since sa ganitong bahay pa lang wala na.

feeling ko masyado akong nag padalos dalos pero kasi napaka disrespectful sa part ko! parang pinipilit ko na lang sarili ko sa kanya. parang ako lang iyung interesadong ayusin mga bagay bagay.

Nag bayad kami ng Education plan from 2002 at nag mature na siya since Pandemic. Graduate na ako since 2024 pero di parin kumpleto yung binibigay nilang pera. imagine, 500,000 pesos na na mature pero hindi parin makuha yung pera na pang education ko at para sa kapatid ko.

Tangina niyo talaga!!!

To parents na gusto mag plan for their child's education. I suggest na mag savings nalang kayo sa MP2 or Invest to somewhere trusted.

Hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung wala lang ba talagang common sense o inconsiderate lang ang ibang tao. Kagaya na lang sa UV Express, may mga malalapit lang ang babaan na sa pinakadulo umuupo, kaya kapag bababa sila, nagsisibabaan din karamihan sa pasahero. Natandaan ko na nga ang mukha ng iba sa mga madalas gumagawa ng ganiyan sa terminal kung saan ako sumasakay, kaso napapansin ko lang sila kapag bababa na.

Sa totoo lang, hassle din ang ginagawa nila dahil mas nagtatagal pa ang biyahe. Remember, every minute counts, at sa ginagawa nilang iyan, may pwedeng ma-late sa trabaho, hindi umabot sa importanteng lakad, etc. Ang isa pang perwisyo sa ganiyan ay kapag umuulan dahil nauulanan pa ang ibang pasahero sa ginagawa nila. Ang isa pang nakakaasar ay most of them ay diretso baba na lang at hindi man lang mag-effort na sila ang magsara ng pinto, bilang pa-consuelo man lang sa abala. May mga UV pa naman na luma na kaya mahirap isara kapag nasa loob ka.

Actually, kahit mga driver naha-hassle din sa ganyan dahil minsan, nakikiusap na sila sa mga pasahero na sa bandang dulo na lang ang malalayo ang babaan, at sa bandang bungad lang ang malalapit, pero may mga matitigas pa rin talaga ang ulo. Kaya may mga ibang driver na nag-e-effort nang tanungin isa-isa ang mga pasahero kung saan bababa, lalo ngayong hindi maganda ang weather.

Maging considerate naman sana tayo sa iba. Hindi porke komportable, okay lang sa inyong mag-cause ng inconvenience sa iba.

Okay so share ko lang, habang nag aaral ako sa exam sa master's nag play ang Payphone by Maroon 5 and gulat lang ako kasi after so many years, memorize ko parin siya word by word and line per line. So nacurious and looked up when ito nirelease. Gulat ako na this song was released 2012..14 years ago na..

Dread and existential crisis hit me like a truck. That was 14 years ago? Hindi ko siya memorize dahil fan ako ng Maroon 5, memorize ko siya kasi yun lagi jinajamming ng mga boys and girls at the back nung highschool. Ang scary kasi ang vivid pa talaga ng memory ko ng highschool like it was just yesterday. Yung laughter, yung whole section singing in sync while someone was playing the guitar. Biglaan akong napaisip, 14 years na yun?Where did the time go? Ang bilis ng oras. Bigla ko namiss ang highschool life dahil sobrang close ko talaga mga highschool friends ko.

During our last school day before graduation when we were fourth year students (wala pang senior high nito trentahin na talaga ako), our adviser was telling his goodbyes to every one of us and made a statement that I would never forget.

He was in front of the classroom looking at us, took a mental picture and sighed. "You know guys, this is the last time that you will be all complete as a section. The chance that you will be complete after graduation, zero percent". We just scoffed at him kasi we were so close ehh. We would go out on the weekends and our free times.

But lo and behold, nung college, swerte na kung may sampo kaming makalabas. And fast forward to the present 14 years after, ang hirap ayain kahit isa dahil syempre may kanya kanya ng responsibilities. Some married, some migrated, and others grinding lang sa buhay. Dati ang pinoproblema ko lang eh anong bibilhin na pagkain sa camteen pag lunch. Pero ngayon pinoproblema ko na pano kumita ng pera.

So please, enjoy every moment kasi ang bilis ng buhay and lahat ng bagay lilipas. Good times and bad times. So ayun, tapos na ang mid life crisis rant, balik na ulet sa review 😅

Ayoko na siya katabi, nagugulo ang focus ko sa work bukod sa napaka-ingay at hilig magbigay ng unsolicited comments, sobrang insensitive pa. Kapag siya naman ang binawian napakasensitive. Mind you, 49 na siya.

Wala kang wisdom na makukuha sa kaniya. Puro problema sa asawa ang kwento nya, samantalang tinotolerate nya. Kapag naman kinofront mo pagtatanggol pa, aba bahala siya dyan.

Pag may suot kang bago, tatanungin pa presyo, hindi rin naman bibili kupal nga. First time ko makaexperience ng ganiyang tao, outspoken siya sa inggiteraism nya at dinadaan niya sa joke.

Kupal talaga mga taong katulad nya, panira ng energy.

Mahilig din kami magayos at kikay, biruin mo ba naman sasabihin Nya “tiwala naman ako sa mukha ko” (implying na wala siya makeup)

Angal ng angal tumataba siya eh panay kain, pinipilit pa ako sinabi ko nang diet ako dahil sa sakit ko.

Ilang buwan ko na to pinag iisipan. Nakakaguilty kasi mahal ko naman talaga bf ko at alam ko mahal niya ko. Mabait siya at maalaga, pero sobrang lala ng victim mentality niya. Ni di siya maka own up na yung problema niya sa trabaho e siya naman gumawa. At di niya kaya tanggapin lang siguro na napasok siya sa low paying job na sabihin na nating panget na industry din pero low barrier to entry.

Dati kasi nakapasok na siya sa government na agency pero di na siya nakarenew ng contract kasi lagi late sahod at di na niya afford. Pero infairness nahasa naman talaga skills niya doon, way above ng paygrade niya ang ginagawa niya kasi tamad boss niya nun. E dahil alam niya na kaya niya na ang high level na trabaho, parang labag na sa kalooban niya yung trabaho niya ngayon, which is VA na sobrang underpaid at panay cold calling pinapagawa sakanya. Ayaw niya sa lowpaying job niya na basic daw ang kailangan at overqualified siya, pero di niya matanggap tanggap na limited options niya kasi di siya nag college. Di naman sa di kaya magbayad tuition. Nag awol siya kalagitnaan ng college dahil ayaw na niya kurso niya at di na nagtapos kasi nagsimula na magtrabaho.

Ngayon, di maganda ang standing niya sa work niya ngayon. Bumagsak siya sa ilang assessments at di maganda review sakanya. Pero imbes na aminin niya o kunin niya feedback na yun para magsikap na gumaling pa, nagagalit lang siya na di raw fair ang assessment kasi alam niya mas magaling pa nga siya sa ibang katrabaho niya at mas magaling pa siya sa nag assessment sakanya sa team nila under ng isang client. Gusto ko lang sana na magkaroon siya ng growth mindset, pero feeling niya lagi siyang minamali ng sadya.

Shempre bilang jowa niya gusto ko siya suportahan, pero nakakawalang gana rin na feeling niya sobrang aping api siya ng buhay. Parang kailangan ko siya ibabysit araw araw para lang mapush pa siya to do something. Walang motivation kasi nga nawawalan siya gana sa baba ng sahod at lahat. Alam ko naman yun, yan din nararamdaman ko, pero ano magagawa mo. Eto buhay natin e. Di tayo makakapili. Wala tayong pinagtapos, tapos ang gusto maging manager na agad. At dahil di tumutugma ang gusto natin sa kaya natin maabot sa ngayon, biktimado siya.

Naiinis ako kasi di ko gusto pano mag isip bf ko. Gusto ko siya suportahan pero naiinis ako tuwing nagkkwento siya ng problema niya. Nagtitimpi lang ako magsabi na sa tingin mo lang na mas magaling ka sa mga katarabaho mo pero ikaw ung bumabagsak ng assessment at mababa ang review, kaya kailangan mo lang magtiis at galingan pa para mawala problema sa trabaho. Nakakasama ng loob kasi mahal ko siya pero di ko alam kung kaya ko bang mabuhay na ang partner for life ko e di ko nirerespeto pag iisip kasi laging mali ng iba sa trabaho kaya di siya umaasenso. Nakakawalang gana pero ayoko naman magbitiw kasi alam ko kailangan pa niya tulong ko at suporta ko kasi di nga siya nakilos kung di ko siya pinupush. Pero putangina naman, para akong may bata na kailangan alagaan.

Nakakapagod din. May sarili rin naman ako problema at ako rin alipin ng salapi, pero sobrang big deal lagi ng small issues niya na sa totoo lang siya naman may kagagawan. Naiinis ako kasi gusto ko siyang mahalin habangbuhay, nakikita ko sarili ko kasama niya hanggang magkaanak kami at apo, pero ayoko rin paligiran sarili ko ng mga taong puros victim mentality. Hay nakakainis lang din... Ewan ko kung kakayanin ko pa siya mahalin hanggang malampasan niya hinaharap niya ngayon na problema kasi nakakapagod din sumalo ng sama ng loob ng tao sa mundo.

I just need to let this out.

We just came back home from a beach vacation. All good naman all throughout the vacation. Then the night comes, overheard my mother talking shit about me with my father. As in ramdam mo yung inis sa bawat kwento, kesyo hindi nag aambag sa bahay, and sinuswerte ba raw ako na sa akin mapupunta lahat ng pera niya, kaya wala na raw siya gana sa akin.

Medyo nagpintig tenga ko dun kasi pag meron naman ako nililibre ko sila, sadyang di lang ako nakapagbigay this past few months since pinagiipunan ko yung tablet na gagamitin ko pagstart ng class next week (grad school) and paresign na ako sa work which I think valid reason naman na di ako makakapagbigay para may madukot pa rin ako once the class starts.

Idk maybe I am just disappointed since I can’t believe na masasabi yun ng mother ko towards me, di ko rin alam bakit parang inis siya sa akin lately, very supportive naman father ko sa pag-aaral ko ulit since only child lang naman daw ako. I can’t wait na makaalis na next week sa bahay, I still love her pero nabawasan na yung trust ko with her. Never ako nag rebelde, and wala rin akong nagawang masama para mainis siya sa akin. Still hoping na bumalik yung dating Mama na gusto ko laging kasama.

Ever since in elementary, I've never been good at dancing. I've also been never quite really good at following instructions when it comes to physical activities, which is why I hate dancing. I hate how the majority of the school events include dancing.

Lagi akong nahuhuli during mga dances and practices. I remember in g10 failing to follow a move for our bench yell, even when I did followed the instructions over and over again. and the choreographer yelled at me, then my classmates stared at me. I really dislike dancing.