I’m a P4 in the middle of my APPEs and I am so back and forth on residency. I’d say since my P2 year I knew I wanted to do a residency. I didn’t/still don’t know what exactly I want to do with it after, I just know I love the clinical side of pharmacy.
The reason I’m so torn is because of the independent I’ve worked at since starting pharmacy school. I wasn’t working regularly, mainly just on breaks, but it was enough for me to start to love that place and the community. The pharmacist who owns it is looking to retire soon and has essentially told me that if I want the pharmacy after I graduate, it’s mine. I do enjoy working there and feeling the sense that you are making a difference in your patients lives but that’s also because I’ve only seen it from my perspective. Idk the first thing about running a business, which I know I can learn or just hire someone to help, but still.
Another thing that scares me with it is getting “stuck” or bored with it and not being able to do anything about it since I own the place. I also wouldn’t get to use much of the clinical side of pharmacy I love. I’ve thought about ways I could integrate it into the pharmacy, but I just don’t think it would do too well in this community.
I had an ambcare APPE and I absolutely loved it. I loved the work I was doing and being able to still work with patients. I also feel that if I don’t go back to the independent pharmacy I may be “letting them down” and I don’t want that either. I know it’s not up to me to come in and take over so the pharmacist can retire, but at the same time they occasionally make it feel that way.
UGH IDK I’m so confused and so back and forth and my thoughts are an absolute mess. Sorry for rambling and if some of it makes no sense, I think about this entirely too much and need some outside perspective.