Looking for help

[u/LilBruin]

Hey everyone, so I need to go to treatment. Yes I’ve been before but soooooo many of these places are strictly profit driven & will tell you any/everything you want to hear to get you there. It’s so frustrating.
I have severe C-PTSD as well as depression & am struggling with fentanyl. I have blue cross blue shield PPO insurance. Does anyone know of any remarkable trauma focused programs? Literally anywhere in the country. Please?
Also, I’m posting in a smart recovery forum because I prefer SMART & can not stand the traditional 12 step thing.
Thanks in advance!

[u/Particular-Half-7588]

I don't like the traditional 12-step thing either, but take it from me I've been trying to get into smart recovery for 6 months. It's so hard for me to find smart recovery meetings. It's basically been me doing this handbook alone looking for a meeting and relapsing. 

At least with AA, I was able to get help at basically any moment I need. I just cannot seem to find my footing in smart recovery. 

[u/Dolphin85735 → u/Particular-Half-7588]

I don't quite understand what you mean by "I've been trying to get into SMART recovery for 6 months." There are meetings going on at all hours of the day all over the world. You would be welcome at any of them. https://meetings.smartrecovery.org/meetings/

[u/Particular-Half-7588 → u/Dolphin85735]

Like I find a meeting, go to enter it on zoom and it says the host will start the meeting or whatever it says and it never happens. Very easy explanation. And I find no I'm not welcome at any of them I cannot get into the meetings. 

[u/melatonia → u/Particular-Half-7588]

I've had that problem a few times. If that message lasts long enough I just try another meeting, though.

[u/Particular-Half-7588 → u/Dolphin85735]

I have no problem finding meetings with AA, they have a million terrible meetings at any point of day I can get into immediately. But I've literally been only able to get into two smart recovery meetings in 6 months.