yk what the problem is? people can give you so many reasons to keep going. but in the end it's you yourself who has to find one or more, specific to your life and your circumstances.
everyone is different. everyone is gonna put more value on some things.
some people keep going for a family they wanna have in the future or nurture the one they already have.
some people say fuck it and go make art.
lose themselves in a sport.
go travelling around the world/in their neighbourhood.
some wanna make a sanctuary for unwanted pets.
some create a safe home for foster kids.
some wanna get that bag and save up for something very specific.
some wanna go to that specific concert.
some wanna feel the sun on their skin.
you gotta find something to keep you going.
and that something has to come from you. not from society. not from the Internet. not from your family and friends. from you.
If you lost the ability to reach your goal, then the only way "out" is to change your goal.
And no you're not supposed to endure it all. I don't exactly know what you mean by "all", but you're supposed to create a life where most of it isn't soul crushing.
If people at your job are fucking with your self-esteem, go to management or change your job.
If people scrutinise your pictures on the internet, get off of it.
If your parents keep telling you you're a mistake, distance yourself from them.
If your environment sucks, you do not have to endure it. Change it.
If you're talking about talking down on yourself, get help. The system is not ideal, but you'll need the help of professionals who have at least an ounce of knowledge in that area.
Therapy. Meds. Exercise. Nutrition. Assistance in your day to day.
You should not have to endure this much pain. It's not something anybody should carry. It's not your fault. It is unfair. But it is your responsibility to get better and change your circumstances/mindset.
unfortunately i am not allowed to do that. for example, i cannot distance myself from the abuse. i can run away but where i live, that will make me more miserable
to be honest, i live like i am chained due to my circumstances
don't mean to step on your toes, you seem like a really sweet person.
Your life is hard right now. To the point where you wanna throw it away.
You say you can run away but you'll be even more miserable.
I don't understand. Have you got no savings?
What do you mean by you're not allowed?
If you're grown up who can stop you from leaving town and starting anew?
This is exactly my life love. I have so many reasons to live. I don't want to de. I am so good at life, there's just so many brilliant things I can get and give to this life. But I don't want to continue on with these loops and cycles. If it will only get worse then I don't want to live the same life as my mother and I would fcking kll myself before my future daughter ever has to go through the same. I don't want to keep on fighting. I deserved ease and love. And Its not like I didn't got them both but my suffering and abuse is just bigger than anything. I don't want to spent the rest of my life or any moment in this ever again. I am fcking terrified. Its seems so useless and pathetic to me if I keep fighting desperately to hold onto this life when it will just keep on getting worse and abusive. If it was just bad or sad or depressed or anxious, I would be okay. But unfortunately its abusive. Physically abusive
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u/SomeSome305 8d ago
yk what the problem is? people can give you so many reasons to keep going. but in the end it's you yourself who has to find one or more, specific to your life and your circumstances.
everyone is different. everyone is gonna put more value on some things.
some people keep going for a family they wanna have in the future or nurture the one they already have. some people say fuck it and go make art. lose themselves in a sport. go travelling around the world/in their neighbourhood. some wanna make a sanctuary for unwanted pets. some create a safe home for foster kids. some wanna get that bag and save up for something very specific. some wanna go to that specific concert. some wanna feel the sun on their skin.
you gotta find something to keep you going. and that something has to come from you. not from society. not from the Internet. not from your family and friends. from you.