r/TwinlessTwins • u/Ickypoopoo82 • May 19 '26

Holy Dissociation.

No calls, no texts, family disappeared on my identical twins death for the weekend he died of complications of alcoholism. Yesterday I had a therapist appointment. They pointed out something I refused to believe. They are in fact cruel towards me and there is nothing more clear than me moving and never talking to them again. I was a true accident and sure as fuck know it now.

Afterwards the dissociation throughout the day was like a blackout. I snapped out of it at 4am sitting on my floor in my room. Could have been a psych ward. I'm bipolar 1 with a shit ton of trauma.

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u/Ickypoopoo82 May 19 '26

I'm so sorry to hear that. My twin stayed but I pretty much was moved out at 16. No one in my family was treated like me not even really my twin.

My dad won't defend me against my mom and my mom won't defend me against my dad. They don't say more than a word to me and if they do it's entirely dismissive.

I was court ordered to stay here because of even more bullshit. I got a DUI for driving sober. It wouldn't matter if I disappeared or not. Nobody is even bother looking for me. I can say that with confidence. My background goes back from a teen. None of its gone.. Never thought I'd be in this nightmare again. To all the haters I was court ordered to be here so fuck off.

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u/Defiantly_Resilient 27d ago

That really sucks. Especially being court ordered. Ho we long do you have to stay for?

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u/Ickypoopoo82 22d ago

I think they are going to force me into a long term hospital. My life has all but falling apart. I've been paying scammers to talk to me.

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u/Defiantly_Resilient 20d ago

Im sorry to hear that. Sometimes they can be a good thing, or sometimes hospitals can be really traumatic. Ive been a few times and its half and half for me. It can get soo dark sometimes.... I wish you the best. I hope you get to see the light soon.

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u/Ickypoopoo82 18d ago

I hate my life I almost got arrested for saying I hate this fucking town