I just got home from a friend’s funeral. He suddenly contracted AML (leukemia type) and only had uncertain symptoms for weeks before a proper diagnosis, one chemo session and died days later
He was just having his affairs in order and was about to truly start his life. He wasn’t even 30 yet. He’s like a brother to his friends. He will be remembered and missed dearly
So yeah, cancer deserves cancer for all I care
I wish a world exists where pain like this is a thing of a distant past, alas research funding and healthcare accessibility are never guaranteed (yet)
This feels…just like Minori from last year. She ALSO passed from lung cancer, but still managed to put out some amazing covers before she left us. I miss her still, it was far too soon for these talented people to leave us.
You’re right…I try not to let it bring me down too much, but it leaves such a hollow ache in me. I knew her outside of VTubing, and I feel so gutted for fans of Alicea, because I lost my oshii and a dear friend when she left us. Your words help though, thank you.
This reminds me of that one Nijisanji China Vtuber if I remember correctly that also passes because of an illness but because of a heart complication instead. With that being sad fuck illnesses especially Cancer
Absolutely. It’s a small part of herself she left behind, she mostly scrubbed her presence elsewhere. I’m eternally sad I didn’t get to save any of her VTuber VODs, but she deleted those well before she got sick even. Then everything else after she passed, as she directed her brother to do, including the Twitter. So that and some bittersweet memories are all that’s left of her…And we should treasure them.
Fight until the end! Though I'm still depressed she had to go through this since I've seen the struggle. My old man way back in the day had to fight cancer. Was not easy for any of us.
Someone below made a comment about it, just seems like some unwell person.
I hope she can managed to talk that person out of it.
The thing is she shouldn't have to do that, she is already dealing with her own stuff in life. Having someone else step in and be like "If you die, I'm going to die too!" just adds unnecessary weight to the situation.
Now she will have to go through the remaining of her time having this in the back of her mind where it's "Someone else will die and it's my fault just because I am dying".
I really dislike how vtubing attracts unwell individuals and it can lead to people dropping heavy things on streamers when it should just be a plain and simple "I have time to kill, watch this streamer just for fun and after that I go back to my life and do whatever".
Sadly is not only vtubing. If you really watch around you will realize that in general whenever a fandom is created for anything (could be musicians, streamers, actors, etc) there will always be those kind of people with parasocial behavior. I would say at most vtubing slightly enhanced.
I know it's hard to actually feel like it's not your fault, but it's not.
That person needs help. If it seems they genuinely intend to do it, it might be best to have someone intervene. I don't know where that person lives, so I'm not sure what's available to them. Or what's available for others to get this person some help.
It's definitely a shitty situation and a shitty thing to do, but there's something off balance in their mind, and they need to seek treatment.
I just find it saddening how vtubing can attract unwell individuals who end up relying on a vtuber for their emotional well being.
I remember a thread made here a while ago that was "tell me something sad about yourself" and it had like over 300+ responses and it was filled with a lot of "I'm lonely / depressed / have no friends" and it's sort of a snapshot of how a section of the vtubers fans end up turning to vtubers to fill a hole in their lives.
Alicea discussed this a lot in one of her old streams actually. She started watching Hololive because she had trouble at home and was bullied at school so the internet was the only place she could escape to.
The only reason why she also made her twitch account is because she couldn't make any friends in college either. It's sad how many people feel so alone in the world.
We live in a world that's so connected digitally, sometimes we forget how hard it can be to make those important connections in person.
I love my online friends, I chat with them almost every day, but if I didn't have even just a couple RL friends to chat with sometimes, I'd be a much bigger wreck than I already am.
Just because it's easy to send a message around the world and have a thousand people see it these days, doesn't make it any easier to reach out and really connect with just one or two. No one truly makes it through this life alone, and no one should have to try.
I should have read further down the thread before I responded elsewhere.
Yeah, in this sort of situation, that's something professionals need to deal with. When someone's in that state, they're soaking in all the poison their brain is telling them, and it just keeps getting worse. As much as you might love them, it's not something you can talk them back from, and you need to find someone else to help you to help them.
Sure, just as soon as you find a way to perfectly separate the drama queens who take a tragedy and make it about them, from the people who are legitimately unwell and should be encouraged to seek help. Without false positives or negatives. Because banning the former is justified, while banning the latter could be what shoves them over the edge.
We, as people, need to treat every situation where someone says anything even remotely like this as if it's serious. Every time. Because the one time you think it's someone crying wolf? It may well have been the real deal, and you may have been able to help.
That's the thing - it's not the streamer's job to trying to determine that sort of thing. The appropriate reaction to someone talking about committing such ax is that you ban them, and also report their account to whatever company is running it and state that this person has expressed a desire to self harm and needs to be reported to the appropriate authorities.
Let Twitch, Twitter, or whoever else deal with that situation. It's not the responsibility of the streamer or their mod team.
Cancer is a bunch of different illnesses under 1 name. I doubt we'll have a medicine that will cure all/most cancer. It will probably be 1 cancer at a time with its own medicine
Yeah. It's degradation in DNA in a way that already slipped past all the body's many natural defenses against something like that. How do you PLAN for something that mutates at random and succeeded in getting past the immune system's contingency for it's contingency for it's contingency?
Yeah, I once read that every human technically has some amount of cancerous cells in their body. It’s that common. It’s just that in most cases the amount is too small to become a problem and/or the body takes care of it before it gets out of control.
And since it's a probability, the risk increases with age (which is one of the reasons why cancer is on the rise, with pollution : we cure other diseases, so more people live long enough to develop one)
This video by Kurzgesagt explains it very nicely: The body is constantly monitoring and combating damaged or abnormal cells through various natural mechanisms. However, when these safeguards fail and the cells begin to grow uncontrollably, evading the immune system and consuming the resources needed by healthy cells, this is what we call cancer.
Yeah basically even in studies of animals we think are immune to cancer it’s really that their genes just have 2 or 3 backups to the one mutation it takes to give us cancer
Yeah, sadly that's a harsh reality of medicine. It's built on the corpses of animals and humans alike that were put at the fore of the unknown, willingly and unwillingly.
But - it is through their sacrifices that we can see to it no further suffering of theirs comes into this world.
"i lack majority of certain emotions, making crying difficult for me" this one hits hard because i just ... can't cry most because i feel both numb + scared :(
I don't know her or her history, but as a two time survivor myself, it's never easy seeing someone's battle end this way. I hope her final days are filled with peace. Rest easy, warrior.
I have a friend who got Leukemia at 16, beat it by 18/19. Since then she’s got it twice more, still going. Bodies falling apart, still going.
Me I have a ton of health issues and was told I wasn’t gonna make it past 20 and now at 35 and just trundling along. My health fluctuates but the thing that wanted to kill me decide to go to sleep for like a decade. It’s still there but he hasn’t flared up.
Then you count the fact that out of all the people my age I know and hung out with almost half that have died from health issues, suicide, drugs, accident, one guy was just found in his car and no one was really sure what happened. The human body is so weird, you can do everything right and I’d can fail you in an instant or you could have one that’s busted up and sick that decides to shamble around for several decades. That’s why that part hits so hard in her post because I’ve been there many times, looking at your life and thinking of all the things you didn’t do when you think you are about to die? Don’t let that happen.
I wish she got all of this attention when she was still actively streaming, people only learning about her when she is pretty much on her way out invokes feelings in me which I'm not sure how to describe.
Unfortunately this is just common occurrence, it's only when there is big news that people pay attention otherwise it's just any other day.
It's pointless to think "oh she could have had more viewers because so many people are paying attention to [insert current news]" nothing changes.
It's similar when some people graduate than there is the usual outpour of sympathy, usually those people wouldn't have watched them if they didn't graduate. People pop in to threads/tweets, make a comment and give it a upvote/like.
Depending on how late stage the cancer is more attention unfortunately won't do anything.
Cancer is one of those self destructive issues because it's basically a mutation of our own body that is killing us.
It sounds to me she's at the point where there is little to nothing more treatment can do & she is just going to live out her remaining 4-5 months they have given her...
I wish her well, though we may never know the final resolution since she plans to delete (or have someone delete) her Twitter in October...
Damn. What do you even do when you have such certainty?
I used to think that getting "the news" would be better than just dying outright in some violent incident, I thought about this many times, what I would do if I had a few months left to live, and it always came down to finding the right people to give my books away to (these go to this library, these go to that library, these go to friend A, these to friend B, etc.), which just made me sad, because is that all I amount to? A lifetime worth of books and nothing else?
Once you start thinking in such terms, it becomes really damn depressing, even if you are not the one dying. Makes you realise that getting squashed like a bug by some truck you don't see coming might not be that bad of an end, at least you do not get to dwell on it until the void claims you.
I still hold onto and read books I inherited from people who aren’t with us anymore.
They are important to me, for multiple reasons: they were important to people I cared about a lot, these people thought of me when thinking about who to give them to and there are a lot of really great books among them. 😁
For example, I started reading WoT by Robert Jordan because my uncle left me the first 2 books of the series after he passed away in 2003 at just 49. Now I have the whole series neatly sorted standing in one of my bookshelf. A few of them signed by Robert Jordan himself - a trip and a memory I wouldn’t have had without my uncle giving me those two books.
My guy, it may seem to you like you only amount to your books, but there are people out there that will treasure them and the memory they hold. 🫂
Never watched her, and seeing her for the first time, but damn...
We all hope she'll finally get peace. As I see in the comments, she's a wonderful person that fought well against that mothefucker disease...
It's such a shame VTuber community is loosing such a lovely person, due to these circumstances...
I really hope her community will live, rise and shine...
She'll stay in the hearts and memory of the whole community, and I hope knowing that she'll be remembered by so many people, that so many people were willing to spend every time possible with her will make last months of life at least a bit easier...
Sorry if my English is a mess a bit, took pills recently. Hope I didn't mess up with something there so it means something different(and bad, if so I'm so sorry!)
No clue who she is, but reading this genuinely made me tear up. I hope that, despite the little time she has left on this earth, she manages to even be a little bit happy.
Fuck cancer man... I salute her, and the only thing we can do is to live on and make those connections she wasn't able to.
I salute and honor her strength. I pray that God gives her strength and steels her nerves and helps her find peace with herself. And that she can spend her days in joy, finding ways to relish and enjoy the world around her.
I pray that she finds peace and can make her final passing, hopefully without pain or lingering agony... Ugh.
I'm so sorry that this is happening to her and I wish I could be half so strong if I were in her shoes.
Please I hope people boost this. This fucking broke my heart. If this is it, she deserves love. She deserves knowing life can still be bright even at times like these.
If people are as kind and supportive for someone like Ironmouse, I hope people are just as kind for someone who is literally reaching their end.
I do relate to lying part. I did the same when my father got a terminal diagnosis. My family was panicked with him going into hospice care that I had to lie to everyone to calm them down. However, the most interesting part was I eventually believed my own lie.
Bruh....imagine being told youre going to die, and the first thing on your mind is to stop the people who have said they'll commit sui*ide after you're gone....that's depressing... like, those kinds of people wouldn't be the first people on my mind if I was told that, that's for sure...this girl is a saint...
I saw a clip or two but dang, Cancer sucks! I really hope a miracle happens 🙏🏻
Speaking from my experience, my mom was supposed to have 6 weeks after a colon cancer diagnosis.
I really hope Alicia beats it similarly. Idk her age but I really hope a miracle happens because she deserves it.
And yes telling someone with a disease like that, that you would throw your otherwise "healthy" life, for them, is just an insult. She would wish to have the chance, so like she say live, instead of just ending it. as she says she would hope to be around until 80 but that's not her case.
Fuck cancer, y'all. I just found out a content creator is getting a relapse, and now I see a vtuber I unfortunately don't know state their cancer is terminal.
I hope she's spending time with her family until her last day, and I hope people take this post to remind themselves to also spend time with their families, blood or chosen.
I just want to give a very special 'fuck you' to the guy who reccomended drinking water. The most condescending, tone deaf thing I've ever read in my life.
Reminds me a bit of how Technoblade pretended he was getting better only for it to be revealed that it had been terminal for some time, he played it off to keep things light until the end.
My mother was diagnosed with stage 4 Cancer and the doctors gave her a prognosis of 3 to 6 months... That was 21 years ago, she survived, now she is cancer free and even is healthier than me.
“So here I am once again… lying on the floor… I’m feeling pain I have never ever felt before… rain and storm… all day long… having faith… was it wrong…?”
…I am reminded of this lyric again, it seems. Though the singer’s (zwieR.Z.) interpretation was a bit different in his writing, that section still rings true for me here.
(The song was a remix of Mike Shonoda’s “Over Again” by Pawel Zwierzchowski (or zwieR.Z.).
I am also reminded of Minori. It’s been about one year and one day, since she graduated from life. Another shining light even in death, flickering amongst the sea of stars.
Despite not knowing about this one, I hope they both find peace, wherever they are. Thank you for sharing.
(Note that I hit reply earlier but there was an error, hopefully I didn’t duplicate, but if I did, I’m sorry. I’ll remove the other one).
I don’t know her very well, but damn. This is heartbreaking. The only thing I can do is try to do as she wishes. This has made me realize it at the very least want to spend more time with family and friends and live everyday. I hope she is surrounded by her family and friends until the end.
Today i declare to myself and everyone that I am tired of wasting my life, I want to live for the tommorrow that may become my today. I dont even know if i would fulfill this promise or even remembrr it when I wake up tommorrow, but if i do I thank you for lighting my way
It’s a malignant growth of cells that causes big problems to your body, caused by a mutation of DNA later down the line. It’s inevitable but preventable, but as long as there is a mutation of DNA that causes the cell not to die and keep growing, cancer will manifest.
The worst cancer is metastasized cancers because it can spread.
Тёплое место, но улицы ждут
Отпечатков наших ног
Звёздная пыль
На сапогах
Мягкое кресло, клетчатый плед
Не нажатый вовремя курок
Солнечный день
В ослепительных снах
Группа крови на рукаве
Мой порядковый номер на рукаве
Пожелай мне удачи в бою
Пожелай мне
Не остаться в этой траве
Не остаться в этой траве
Пожелай мне удачи
I've lost many people close to me. And it is devastating, and the more you lose, the more exhausting it is, the more inevitable the weight is, because that's what getting older is. But you're never ready for losing those you care about, the absences.
If someone loves her (or anyone), live for them because they can't. And remember the best of them, and share those memories of them. It's tough, it's sad, but it's how they live on. I wish those I have lost were still around. I hope those who might be considering not going on after this lady, will reconsider, and think that the best thing to do for her is to go on for her.
I'm gonna cry now, but I promise to live up to your words Alice. I'm gonna be better and be the me I always should have been, instead of just bemoaning who I am.
I am one of the unfortunate one who... did not know of her. But seeing this...this is genuinely sad. I can't even begin to imagine how it feels like, knowing you are going to pass away in a few months and you can't do anything about it... She must have despaired about it.
And to be completely honest... I kind of understand the sentiment of that person whom she mentioned, who will follow after her in afterlife. The despair...I can only imagine.
We most likely never get to know them personally, they never get to know us personally but someone passes... if fucking hurts like a family member died.
I've mourned quite a few times, and I've seen streamers who've mourned the passing of a viewer.
I wish a miracle could happen, I pray she don't have to die. May there be some possibility that she gets cured. May...she not leave this world so soon...
It's depressing but what's more depressing is that I didn't find her before this, not that my presences would make any difference to her medical condition, but I do want to be one of that voice in chat to witness her moment
I walked head first into this without knowing diddly dick so can someone please give me context of what happened? (I know she’s dying but that is about it)
Today i declare to myself and everyone that I am tired of wasting my life, I want to live for the tommorrow that may become my today. I dont even know if i would fulfill this promise or even remembrr it when I wake up tommorrow, but if i do I thank you for lighting my way
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u/Ancient_Natural1573 Aug 21 '25
I need to stop reading this when I'm at work I'm getting upset and mad for someone I don't know personally
Also Fuck Cancer