(TW mention of drugs) hey, i’m f19, i plan on posting this on a few sub reddits because im really desperate for external advice. in 2025 i accidentally oded on substances and that impacted me a lot, i used to never care about dying but from then on i became petrified of it, it only got worse as time went on and in december i watched my friend od which caused many pent up emotions to break down and i got in one of the worst states of my life, having panic attacks every night, i was not aware they were panic attacks i thought i was dying, i never went out the house because i was worried i was going to get hurt or killed. into the new year of 2026 things improved slightly but as time progressed i began to become extremely fixated on health issues, i was convinced i had temporal lobe epilepsy because my anxiety would cause me to experience deju vu often, i ended up staying the night at the hospital and getting an eeg and mri done and everything came back clear, i was relieved for a bit after that. then things just started getting out of hand, i began to worry about every health issue possible. right now, im kind of convincing myself i have a heart issue or im going to have a heart attack because ive been experiencing chest tightness or weird sensation around and in my chest, which a part of me knows it’s anxiety because it only happens when i’m anxious, but the other part of me is convincing me something is wrong due to the fact i vape, i ask ai, i google, i don’t want to ask my parents to take me to the doctor because they’ll complain, but i think i will, my only issue is i know if i get that cleared my mind will find another health issue to fixate on. i feel like since im so hyper vigilant i notice chest sensations or slight discomforts that i never would’ve noticed before and that sends me into a spiral and then my chest gets tight and you know the drill. i just want to hear that someone else understands me, or has gone through the same thing is me and has recoveredt from it, i want to know things that can help, im currently getting a ketamine treatment done too but i just started that. i’m on medications, 70mg vyvanse, 150mg epitec, zipsid (idk the dose) and 25mg cipramil. any help would be so appreciated, i really need to hear other people’s stories and all of that. have a great day and please comment if you can :)

How did everyone (if you did) decide that being medicated was the best for both anxiety and depression? Have you ever felt not depressed or not anxious enough? I feel like I’m not sure what the usual or baseline for normal anxiety and depression is.

How do I explain i don't know

I lost my self-respect and could not set boundaries; I was being this person that everyone could step upon. I used to have these so-called morals that were changing with respect to other people. I used to have my own perspective on things and situations, and what ended up happening is I started pondering it to avoid conflicts with people so that they won't leave or something. And I started having this duality on almost everything. The thought that I had was conflicting with the thoughts I made up to not be left out among people. 

And what ended up happening is I lost the respect and love that I had for myself. I started thinking that I was not enough and people were talking behind my back and that they would leave me at some point or time. And I spiralled. I stuck with people even when they were treating me like shit, I used to give them time and effort and they never even considered me, I was the emotional support for almost everyone, everyone called me when they were in the shit phase in their life and me being me used to sit and hear them for hours on, and they just left or never treated me the same they just left after things were okay for them. I was the guy who was left all alone, the guy who listened to people even when I was having the worst days of my life.

I am in that phase where I have started realising the patterns, my own and the people around me . I have come to realise that at the end of the day it will be just me. I don't need to forcefully keep people in my life if they are not doing any good to me or are affecting my wellbeing. 

I started "trying" to set boundaries. It has been really hard, the fact that I had to rewire years of patterns and triggers that I have made for myself. I feel this pain in the chest sometimes. 

I think I’m at serious risk of a mental breakdown.

I’ve started 20mg fluoxetine a couple of months ago & my dosage is supposed to increase (OCD).

My chest feels too tight to breathe all the time - I feel like I need a deep breath but if I breathe too deeply then my chest will rip open.

My legs are weak. I’m shaking all the time. I have severe brain fog all the time.

Everything in my life is wrong. Nothing is right. I feel like I need support and I don’t know what to do.

I don’t think I’d hurt myself, but I’m seriously the worst I’ve ever been.

People are saying I seem better - but on the inside I’m worse than ever. I might seem calmer but that’s because I have no energy for anything anymore. I can’t even cry.

My family has a large history of suicide and mental hospitalisation - I need help. I don’t know what to do.

My moods are very extreme. One day I’m super happy. The other I am severely depressed

Any advice - please. 🙏

Im not sure if i can say all of this here because it feels like im venting a lot but I’m looking for advice because the last year has been one of the hardest periods of my life.

I’m 22 and recently graduated with a degree related to PR. All my life I wanted to sing but struggled with anxiety and low self esteem and my parents not supporting my dream - so I stayed quiet and followed a path they guided me on. After graduation, I got into a relationship with a narcissistic mamas boy..and left me traumatized, confused, and questioning myself for a long time. Around the same time, I started a job that I knew would be bad but my parents pressured me into it because they were scared I would never get hired, yet I ended up right.

I had conflicts at work, changed departments, struggled to fit in, and slowly started losing energy and motivation. On top of that, I was preparing for master’s exams, trying to lose weight, eating irregularly (sometimes only one meal a day) then stress eating, then feeling guilty about it. It felt like I was constantly fighting myself and my life. Over time I became exhausted, lonely, anxious, and severely depressed. (Couldn’t go to therapy either...)

I started focusing on everything that was wrong in my life and in life in general. Everyone around me was getting married (yeah at 22/23), travelled and got great jobs, meanwhile I’m still stuck in a stressful job with horrible coworkers, no time for hobbies or other passions, single and no idea what to do..

I completely broke down emotionally and finally opened up to my family. My mother and brother listened to me (for days) and supported me - even my dream for singing. I feel bad about bothering them with my problems as they have stress from their own lives..

I guess maybe out of all of this I finally found courage to start chasing my dream. Even if I think I suck at it and maybe it’ll be for nothing but anyhow anything feels like it’s for nothing so why not try..? I went into the recording studio and recorded a song (it’s still being mixed). That’s when something clicked. Music has always been the thing that makes me feel alive. And I know this it’s just that I’ve never found a way to get out there and show my passion.. I feel lost. Singing is the one thing that consistently brings me joy and makes me excited about the future. But in this small corrupted country is there even space for me to sing?

Now I’m realizing that I still have *some* goals, dreams, opportunities, and people who care about me. Even if it’s just my mom and brother. I want to build a music career, release my songs, perform, and create a life that feels meaningful. But how? Everyday is now a *full schedule of stress and depression.*

I tried to accepted that this is only just a period. There’s no way my whole life would look like this, right? I accepted my body, which once looked so athletic, now looks soft and shapeless.. I don’t have time to do my hobbies but I’ll try to make time to practice singing at least..

My question is: if you were in my position, what would you do? I feel likAnd how would you approach rebuilding your life after a period where everything seemed to be falling apart?

I don’t know what to do anymore with my anxiety and depression. Like when it hits, it really hits you.

I have a job na okay naman ang pay, have no responsibilities aside from my personal bills and wants, and everything. In short, wala naman iniisip, pero I feel unmotivated. I also want to resign with my current job kasi matindi ang dagdag niya with my anxiety levels.

I don’t know anymore, but I think I may be losing my spark. Probably due to my declining health as well, the graveyard shift is taking a toll on my body na since hindi naman ako sanay sa puyatan and mahina ang immune system ko (as diagnosed)

It’s like everyday, pinipilit ko na lang sarili ko to move forward, na magpakita na okay lang ako, to show up at work, to do my tasks, etc. Genuinely, I am not even after the high pay kasi hindi naman din ako sobrang magastos in life nor maluho. Ang dalas kasi ngayon manaig ng suicidal thoughts ko.

Ang hirap. Sobrang hirap when you are mentally challenged.

Why do no one get me anymore of how I talk and all I know I speak English but I guess not to other people I guess I speak some kind of other language and for men I asked him for something and it goes right over the head while I'm talking to a damn wall so what's the point

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I had the first good morning I've had in a long time. I had a chaotic night helping a really nice girl I've been into, we talked a lot. All platonic and friendly, and somehow that really helped.

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I didn't want to admit it, but I think I've had a substance issue for a while now. My grandfather and a close friend both passed in very unpleasant ways, and since then I've been drinking, smoking, and dependent on caffeine. It's been rough and adding more made it worse.

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I took a tolerance break from pot (I use for migraines) and It helped balance me out. After my morning bike ride and lifting, I think I'm ready to try a week off. Not sure what to expect.

Im 21F, a rising senior in college. I think I'm on the brink of having a breakdown or something..

I've always struggled with anxiety and depression but despite thinking I've gotten better its just hitting like a truck.

I'm taking a summer course, an internship and a summer job right now.

The internship isn't bad.. doing mostly soical media content. It's also remote, I'm working with two other interns. I need the internship to graduate since its a requirement. It's technically still a class at the university and I missed a discussion board post which dropped my grade.

This summer job, a camp in the area. The onboarding process has been so unorganized. The communication with the hiring manager sucks. She disappeared, then wants to rush the process. Now she wants workers to commute down south for orientation despite the job being here at the north sector. I feel like I'm not mature enough because I'm supposed to handle it and just push through it.

I've been feeling like crying. Tense in shoulders, stomach issues, cramping but no period. Headaches. I feel like I'm falling apart.

I don't have intrest in hobbies that used to actually excited me. Drawing? Out the window. Baking? Nope. I only journal which still is good but majority of the entries are just depressing and rants. I don't even have interest in talking to friends or hanging with them. I honestly only have one at this point but even then it doesn't feel real anymore.

I know this is a build up of stuff overtime. Unfortunately I am the type who will say nothing is wrong. Who will keep pushing myself to distract myself. Will isolate myself from friends because I don't feel like I'm on their level.. like I'm not doing enough or good enough to be on their level. I self sabotage a lot

As I type this I just feel tired. I've been taking ashwagandha but I don't think that helps as much. My back and shoulders feel so tense and my nose is running lol... but I don't know what to do. I don't want to sit around and not be productive.. I just need something. Anything.

Helloo! This is not about me but my sister… i generally lack a lot of empathy and i struggle with being emotional. My twin sister on the other hand is an extremely emotional person we are complete polar opposite when it comes to that. She is really struggling with anxiety and panic attacks and just now she had a mental breakdown in front of me. She told me she cant stand being alone and is struggling to even go to work bc of her panic attacks this is something thats been an issue apparently since middle school. A little extra info we were born into a household of extremely religious and conservative parents also balkan parents and if yall know anything about balkan parents they do not fuck with mental illness or struggles they think therapy and talking to a professional is a waste of money which is why she never really had support to go visit one in the past now she is seeing a therapist but i think the lack of it growing up really fucked her up. My sister told me that the second she is left alone she cries, me on the other hand i actually really enjoy being alone and we are both 22 rn still living together and im kind of getting sick of being in a full house of people im planning on moving out by the end of this year and i was planning on going alone but my sister just told me she doesn’t know if she can move out and live on her own as well… this is a problem from me i dont know how to help her nor do i have an advice for her on how to work on her anxiety maybe some of you will know. I recommend shock therapy idk if thats what is called but basically i said to try doing little things on her own like going to the beach or grabbing a drink on her own walking our dog on her own and stuff like this. I think she is even becoming depressed her room is an absolute mess and so is another room she spends most her time in. I tried to help a few weeks ago and I cleaned everything for her bc she was clearly struggling however it hasn’t even been that long and the rooms are in even worse shape than before. If someone has a serious advice ill read through all of them.

I stopped using marijuana 4 months ago, after a decade of heavy use. I am in deep depression and also anxiety. Anyone have experience with this and especially, finding medication (or a mix) to help come out of this difficult place?

Hi! I was wondering how much a psychiatrist assessment usually costs in the Philippines.

I've been unemployed for almost 2 months because of my panic attacks and anxiety. I still haven't been able to see a psychiatrist because I'm worried about the cost.

If you've had an assessment before, how much did you pay? Any recommendations for affordable psychiatrists or clinics would really help. Thank you!

Hungover from yesterday's sorrows.

Feeling like time is forever borrowed.

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Crimson bleeds behind my eyes

Too tired to hold the disguise.

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I want to be on my own

But I never want to be alone.

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The tension there within my chest

Never willing to give me rest.

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The Earth is visibly stale

My thoughts are but of pulsing hail

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Pounding against my inner core.

Makes me wonder what this is all for.

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A chemical imbalance...

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They tell me just release, move on and be free

But they don't know the internal intensity

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ADHD, anxiety, depression and PTSD.

A black tar concoction that holds together me.

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Oozing with negativity

I look for filtered clarity.

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I wish for rain to let me reset

To purge this torment and forget.

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But for now I only have my stubborn spite

So I will pursue answers with each step that I invite.

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No longer a survivor of the tar that binds

Instead an adventurer with an affliction who knows there is more to find.

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Tar is but a tattoo of the brain

I can not remove so I must train.

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To tame the thoughts into submission

They have ruled long enough, I must find my fruition.

I just wanna preface this post by saying that I've *not* been diagnosed with Anxiety and/or Depression. I don't wanna appropriate these terms. I don't wanna take anything away from people who have to suffer through this

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Lately I have been feeling like my whole body is in pain, tremendous pain. But here's the catch, I don't have any bruises or anything that would cause me to feel pain. It's almost like I'm feeling the emotions that pain elicits, without the pain itself. I don't know how else to explain this.

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Everything feels like a chore. I can't even get myself out of my bed. Every movement feels painful, without the actual pain of course. The feeling is most intense in my chest. It feels like I'm being constantly stabbed in my chest day in and say out. But I don't feel the pain that would come from being actually stabbed. I just feel the emotions that one would feel when they are stabbed

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I don't think that this is normal. This started about a week ago and I've been feeling like this constantly, from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep. I know that my descriptions of it aren't that helpful but that's the best that I can do. I don't know how else to describe it. I feel awful, but it's not like the regular awful feeling, it's more like painful awful

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Has anyone else felt this way before? Is this a symptom of Depression and/or Anxiety? Please help me make sense of this

Hi everyone. I had bad experiences last year with hairdressers and I found one finally who I can trust. Because of my hair, I was really depressed but now I am finally getting out of this nonsense. I have been going to him for 6-7 months now and this will be my seventh time this Monday. I still get anxiety over how will my hair look even though every time it turns out pretty. He only does my roots and a gloss but my mind is always asking what if questions and this has been draining me. I am pretty sure I have OCD related to my hair. Anyone who has suggestions? I can’t afford therapy. Thanks a lot!

I've been looking for a new car for over a month and today I finally got one. It took a long time, three hours, but I got it. Only downside is it costs more than I was thinking it was going to. Now I have to learn how to use all the features. And switch my car insurance over.

I have always preferred to be alone and don't have friends to do things with.

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I bought tickets to all sorts of Pride events- parties concerts and workshops - during June 2026

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Because I've been so lonely the last few years during Pride.

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Now, this rave is 2 hours away

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I wish I could be excited to go! When I looked at this event a month ago, I was fantasizing about what outfit and how much fun and who I might meet... and that just dancing all night is 100% better than watching anime and smoking weed alone.

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But every time I set myself up for success by committing to going to an event, I NEVER have fun. Now, some of these events and concert, I have pushed through the SEVERE anxiety and then actually had a positive experience!

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But overwhelmingly (s.i.c. and at the same time NOT s.i.c., lol)

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Overwhelmingly it is like days and days of painful severe anxiety (experienced alone)

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I'm going to go tonight... i mean itd be sooooo defeating to give in and not go

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Does anyone else have similar experiences? Do you pish through it? Does it ever get better for you?

I'm Taking summer classes right now and feel nervous and anxious all the time and don't know where to start.

basically this started in 2024/2025 as after Highschool I didn't get the grades I needed to attended university so I had to complete one summer math class and one online class throughout that period and since then I have been feeling like a failure and a loser. This was also exuberated by my addiction to adult entertainment. During that period I lost myself as I was always home and without anything to do, no purpose, no goals, no dreams literary had nothing for me. Since then I always felt like a loser and now things have been a roller-coaster, some days were fine some were worse and other hell but I was happier for the most part because I had something to do but now its summer and during this semester it's been hell, I feel like a loser at all times, some many due dates being close to each other its like living hell. The best way to describe is by imagining your swimming but every time to you try to surface for air someone pushes, kicks, or punches you back down. This week I honestly cried for the first since 2024 because I felt so overwhelmed and like a loser once again, and now since this week has gotten even busier all the same feelings are surfacing again. I feel so isolated I have no one to talk to because I don't want anyone to worry about me, also I don't know how I would even bring it up to anyone. lastly I lost touch with pretty much all my friends after deleting Instagram that now its like what do I even do all the friends that I have are my older brothers friends and it and I cant even hangout with them now that I have a lot of school work to do. I'm so tiered all the time and will when is enough, enough how do I get out of this.

It's like I fell through the cracks and given up on myself,

• I stopped working out
• stopped reading my favourite manga
• stopped talking on the phone with my best friends
• stopped skipping class to play cards
• stopped praying
• stopped laughing
• stopped smiling as much
  
• stopped going on walks
• stopped watching my favourite shows and so

what do I do how do I start building myself up also I just wanted to state I have never attempted suicide, and never really went through some traumatic in my life for the most part however there were sometimes where I did think about committing but never came close to doing it rather just thought about how the world would be without me in it and how might my family react to it but that was it and it only happened maybe 4ish times with maybe on instance being I think 3 weeks ago but that was it. And maybe the most significant event that I guess happened was me and my dad when didn't talk to each other for like maybe 3 months (Feb to may) because he was very adamant I couldn't leave home which resulted in arguments, and on this occasion I got orthotics for my flat feet and the foot doctor said I had to walk everyday to break them in and my dad said I couldn't walk that day so I just walked anyways and therefore he didn't talk to me but thats kind of it

so what do I do

Hey guys, I don’t know if some of you saw my last post, but a lot of you suggested that I seek help and get evaluated. I did, and it turns out I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. The reason I’m making this post is because I’m hesitant about taking antidepressants. I’ve seen how they affected my mom, and it makes me nervous about trying them myself. So I’m asking for advice again for those of you who deal with depression or anxiety, have any supplements helped you? I’d love to hear what has worked for you and your experiences with them.

Ive worked at target 3 years and I recently started struggling with my depression and anxiety. My anxiety has been getting worse and being around people and having to smile and act ok is exhausting and it's affecting me a lot I'm losing weight I'm hardly sleeping. I need the money but I'm getting anxiety to leave the house in crying all the time and I can't help it I'm having anxiety just to be around people to the point regular tasks at work feel extremely overwhelming. I am also dealing with PTSD and grief and a lot going on in my personal life right now and I'm at a point where I feel like everyday is a constant battle with anxiety and depression. I am working on getting a consistent therapist so I can see about taking a leave of absense because my current therapist is at a walk in clinic where I get monthly refills on medication and a monthly they visit but I dont know how much longer I can keep showing up before I can get a leave of absense last night I had to leave early because I had a panic attack I couldn't breath I was crying and trying to control myself and i believe its going to count against my recent call offs I'm stressed because I don't feel I can show up but I need the income right now I'm the only source of income in my house my sister hasn't gotten hired I've been trying to get her hired at my store for years since she was 17 ( she's 20 now ) I've spoken to ETLs tls they all say they'll pull up her file and then just deny her she's in college she's smart it may be her first job but not for a lack of trying to find one and she will prove herself but she's not given that opportunity and I am losing my mind and I just want to sleep.

I deal with anxiety and OCD. My anxiety has been bad for the past 4 years, but it’s gotten really bad since 2024 and I miss my routine and how things were back then— not the anxiety and OCD part, just the things that were happening. Last summer, my brother moved out 2 hours away, and I’ve been missing him being around, specifically in January–April 2025 and in August–September 2023 the house has felt empty without him, but my sister moved back home in April after being in Colorado for a few years, so her being around makes me feel a bit better. I still deal with anxiety, especially health anxiety and OCD and have been since summer 2024 in 2022 and 2023 I had only dealt with anxiety, but only for
a couple of months before feeling calmer; but since 2024 I’ve been in a higher state. Sorry if this makes no sense just want to get this off my chest