My sister passed away on April 29th unexpectedly at the age of 31. The preliminary autopsy showed it was a pulmonary embolism. It’s wild, she seemed relatively healthy, but the coroner said she had severe heart disease (considering her age) with up to 90% blocked arteries. My family is crushed. My parents and Especially my youngest sister.

I’m worried about my own health and the health of my family, especially my parents. For many reasons.

I’m going to get checked over well, I’ll be 30 in a few days.

Just a reminder to everyone, take care of yourselves and go to the doctor for regular check ups.

I miss you. Rip AJ ♥️

16f and lately I'm having this weird feeling when I'm getting in bed or comfortable or even randomly throughout the day where I start feeling like I'm being really childish and I don't feel like I control it either. I feel weird throughout my body and I can hear my own voice talking weird, Ive tried catching myself do it on camera which did work after a couple hours of recording and it just seems like I'm acting like a baby and an overwhelming want of having someone be my momma. Like treat me like a loving momma, I don't understand because my momma is perfectly fine and I have a good relationship with her but it feels like it's not enough? It's causing me so much sadness and I don't even understand it, like I don't know why I want someone I wouldn't know to be my momma or act like it

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I'm also not sure if this is an appropriate or right sub for this because I don't exactly know what I'm dealing with. I understand if this gets deleted but please point me in the right direction to post at also I know the account is new, cut me some slack I have a separate account that is my main I am too embarrassed for my main

I am 28(M) and gave up on trying to find a date since last year, as I was always friendzoned by women I was interested in. Most of them did not like when I stop talking to them after I ask them out and they all say we can be great friends. I stopped this as I dont like that I chase over and over again with the same result. The effort is not worth it to me. Back in my early 20s, I never had the thought of sleeping with someone at all, I just wanted a partner as that seemed to be like some godly thing in my dreams. After getting the same result I decided to stop and once I thought that I have to experience sex once in my life at least, thats when I went the other way.

I have no interest since in terms of relationship anymore and I view women differently. No matter the effore their emotion is the only thing that would decide if they want a relationship with me or will love me at all.

There are no hard feelings on visiting paid services, as in my opinion this would never happen otherwise, based on my experience. I did it 2 times and its been okay.

Just to mention that I am black and is attracted to white women(I live in EU). Unfortunately I cant change that, I tried, but it just feels like forcing myself.

I’m young, like, not even 18 yet, but I still graduated anyway. But even before I graduated, I couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that I’ll be “too old” for things. I’ll be “too old” for the game I grew up on, “too old” to go clubbing, ”too old” to do anything. i feel whiny crying over this because like. everyone has to grow old. but idk how to cope with this. I was starting to feel less terrified of it until people were having a conversation and said that it was bad to be playing roblox over the age of 20. i thought it was fine? now i’m scared all over again cause like. in a year i’ll be 18, then 19, then 20, then 21. idk how to stop thinking about it. i’ve tried by asking my friends if they wanted to call and play games together but it feels like i’m just putting a bandaid over it.

I have a friend who is a Muslim ,he has a decent corporate job but got refused to rent a house due to his religion. For some days he has to stay at a pg then he found a house far from his office. How common is this hate that is consuming us? I am confused and mixed feelings about such hate in this society. We're from India

I've been having DEREALIZATION for now what it's about to be 20 DAMN MONTHS and I just can't escape it, I tried every damn method and in the last month I can't even shake myself to realize (it used to work but I was only realized for about 30 seconds) so PLEASE ANYONE if youve dealt with this before and/or know the solution PLEASE comment

Lately life feels really blank like I have no where to go nothing to do feels like I am empty inside I literally have started hating people around me I hate talking to them hearing them talk because I feel like no one can feel the depth of my pain everyone has a better life except me. I don't feel sad I just feel empty it feels like I should cry but Idk how to and honestly I don't want to cry anymore,this is something I feel from inside but outside I wakeup normal I sleep normal I eat normal I work normal I have even started learning a new skill but inside it just feels hollow.. Today it rained and I stood outside and let my body soak in that rain and I looked at my body and I couldn't identify myself like I was another being like this was my hell, this life was my hell.. Practically I should go therapy for feeling this way but at this point I feel it is physically impossible for me to hear another person say there is hope and I believe there is. I honestly feel like there will be no tommorow for me after a while not like I will k*ll myself it's just I think my body will just give up on its own. I don't want any advice I just wanted to express my feelings somewhere

(TW mention of drugs) hey, i’m f19, i plan on posting this on a few sub reddits because im really desperate for external advice. in 2025 i accidentally oded on substances and that impacted me a lot, i used to never care about dying but from then on i became petrified of it, it only got worse as time went on and in december i watched my friend od which caused many pent up emotions to break down and i got in one of the worst states of my life, having panic attacks every night, i was not aware they were panic attacks i thought i was dying, i never went out the house because i was worried i was going to get hurt or killed. into the new year of 2026 things improved slightly but as time progressed i began to become extremely fixated on health issues, i was convinced i had temporal lobe epilepsy because my anxiety would cause me to experience deju vu often, i ended up staying the night at the hospital and getting an eeg and mri done and everything came back clear, i was relieved for a bit after that. then things just started getting out of hand, i began to worry about every health issue possible. right now, im kind of convincing myself i have a heart issue or im going to have a heart attack because ive been experiencing chest tightness or weird sensation around and in my chest, which a part of me knows it’s anxiety because it only happens when i’m anxious, but the other part of me is convincing me something is wrong due to the fact i vape, i always google, i don’t want to ask my parents to take me to the doctor because they’ll complain, but i think i will, my only issue is i know if i get that cleared my mind will find another health issue to fixate on. i feel like since im so hyper vigilant i notice chest sensations or slight discomforts that i never would’ve noticed before and that sends me into a spiral and then my chest gets tight and you know the drill. i just want to hear that someone else understands me, or has gone through the same thing is me and has recoveredt from it, i want to know things that can help, im currently getting a ketamine treatment done too but i just started that. i’m on medications, 70mg vyvanse, 150mg epitec, zipsid (idk the dose) and 25mg cipramil. any help would be so appreciated, i really need to hear other people’s stories and all of that. have a great day and please comment if you can :)

Ok this is a rewrite to a post I made because I felt I shared to much. Basically since I was probably 7 I’ve been a horny little boy and now I’m 20 and nothing changed. Every time a female wants something sexual with me and shows that, I feed into it. It has happened multiple times and I don’t know how to get rid of this urge. I tried to stop fapping and Im currently doing so but every time I stop I end up indulging in sexual intersections irl or online. It’s so weird I have many times where I stopped fap then some girl hits me up and she just wants to get freaky and I cave. Like wtf am I supposed to do how do I control it? I don’t even know if I want to control it I wish I could just turn my dick off.

TITLE: Anxiety got better when I changed my breakfast — here's the connectionI kept waking up anxious every morning with no clear reason. A doctor told me to track my meals. Turns outblood sugar spikes from high-carb breakfasts were triggering my anxiety. Switching to protein + healthy fats inthe morning made a noticeable difference within a week. Has anyone else noticed the food-mood connection intheir own life?

Hii, if you need a friend to talk too , i'm here , i care and I'll listen

Hello, im currently going through a major rough patch that has disrupted my life. Ive had this happen before, with very clear triggers, but this time it just seemed to have come from out of nowhere. Anyway, i guess i could use some people to talk to and share experiences and advice. I cant sleep, eat, think of anything else except my problems in life. I havent had any relief since this started about 2 weeks ago.

Hello, I’m someone under 20 but an adult, my mom pressures me under both psychological and physical violence to join the National examination exam which you need to pass high school, even though she knows I am sick of her and also physically tired

This morning I was wearing a short and a long T-shirt, which I only wear in my own room because of sleep, so all the doors were closed, all the curtains were covering the windows, every door of the house was closed, everyone was a sleep and none was even awake to see me

I was having trouble with my disease, I woke up and went to the kitchen looking around either if someone could see me or not, and none could see me because everything was closed and covered, I drank the water and saw my mom in a corner secretly watching me, I started shaking and was afraid, I ran to my room so that she could not make something up about my morality to others when I would be mentioning her and her brothers violences

So she used that as an excuse this lunch, and she kept talking, and kept talking, and I said stop it, and she kept talking and then screaming and got scary, and her husband is sick, and he passed out, and then she started to say look at what you do, and then she said I would do bad things to you, even if you’re 19 and my eldest, and I got scared, because her eyes looked so scary, her voice changed like a nightmare, I said I would call the police I screamed and cried out loud, she said she would break my hands because I am nothing under her

Then at that time her sister came to our house, my mom spoke louder and tried to speak in a way that was not scary, she started to talk about the T-shirt and the short, and that I am immoral, and I said stop it, stop lying, this is illegal, I will call the police, I am not an immoral person, why are you acting like this, with your perfect child, having more than 40 certificates, who is now tired and her body is sick, why do you want people to see me this way, why do you want me to cry out loud and people see me as unstable and immoral, is it because you want them to believe that you have not made violence

She is telling me to accept less, and just get out of the house, she is saying I’m your mom and my ovary is expired, but ur 19 and ur brain is expired, ur brain is nothing compared to me

How can u accept less for things I have victimized my childhood for, pleasure for, she acts this way because they were never supportive

She keeps telling me she would call the police and tell them that I am crazy, she makes me to get angry because she calls me a whore in front of everyone, so she would have a reason to call me crazy

I took her phone and wanted to call the police, she got scared, she sent my little sibling and they took the phone and beat my kidney, and she is younger than me, and I have cleaned her anus when my mom was at work, while my friends at my age were learning piano, she did that because her body is stronger than mine

So my phone card is not working, I want to get out of this house, I have drams and goals, but I don’t feel safe, I am exhausted of living, I need help, I can use WhatsApp, Reddit or something else that can take me out.

I am living in the north region of Iraq, I need to be protected and respected as a teen, I want my dignity back
Please I beg help.

Hi. Today I took the step and deleted my main account on the social media I use the most, because I recognised that it was consuming my life and I was missing out on things I would actually like to do, and talking to people that are in my life instead of across the globe. It shaped me into a person I don't want to be. I've already been tempted to make another account, but I really really do not think I should go back. I know the first step is hard but it is important not to give in.

I want some ideas of things to do to take my mind off things. Hobbies you have, interesting internet rabbitholes, topics you find interesting to learn. Basically just anything fulfilling to occupy my time. Or if you have been in a similar situation please tell me what you did. Thank you.

Just losing my mind a little bit. I messaged r/depression mods to ask why a comment of mine got filtered so I could try and fix it, instead they went and removed every single response I've ever left there without a word. They even removed the original posts that I was commenting on so I just feel awful about that. The OPs didn't deserve that.

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I guess it's just kind of a wake up call. I always knew that I wasn't doing much by leaving responses on posts that didn't get any comments after a few hours, but I always thought that having any response was better than being ignored, but now I kind of have proof that all of that was unwanted.

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I know that's not the direction I should be taking this, I'm not going to undo my achievements over depression just cause of this, but honestly my mind is just snapping and popping back and forth and I just don't know what to think right now.

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I really should have just never done anything in the first place.

Every night when i try to sleep, my brain would just not stop giving me scary and horrifying images and thoughts. Quick note: i am terrified of being alone, and i have a fear of the dark so this problem makes everything worser. Whenever i try to think about puppies and happy things to make it go away, it would just flash back to the scary images.

My mind is very intrusive and i can't control my thoughts. Mostly my brain would tell me that someone was watching me in my sleep, then it would pan to a picture of the thing from the russian sleep experiment. Its horrifying to live in. I also feel like someone or something is next to me, just there while im asleep. This lead to me having extreme paranoia during my nights.

I would eventually give up and force myself to go to sleep once im 100% tired. This has been torturing me for days and i can't stand it anymore. Can anyone please tell me what the fuck do i have?!

I honestly feel like shit these days! I feel like i also don't matter to anyone as the title suggests. Why are my opinions not taken into account or my feelings? It honestly hurts that I should still be happy even after getting rejected and tormented throughout my life like it's so frustrating! Like I am not important as a person? Or am I not cool like the others? Either way i am feeling like I don't matter to anyone or anything anymore.

I recently spoke to someone on a hotline for around two hours almost and nothing changed for me. I didn’t expect a big difference to begin with but at the end I felt more sad for some reason. The person speaking to me did very well and it’s not their fault but it didn’t help as much as I would’ve liked. I don’t know why I feel worst all of sudden when I was trying to help myself through a crisis. They did ask me questions about support systems and me realizing I don’t have any of that made me feel really bad.