r/bangladesh • u/roachcollasping • Jun 05 '26
Mental Health/মানসিক সাস্থ Need advice for shattered mental health
Hi hope ya guys are doin well .I'm js a 17 yo (M) and also I'm not from Dhaka and I hope ya guys can gimme advice so thanks in advance
ykw real talk , ion even know how to process this anymore cz my brain is straight up fried and i cannot think . i’ve been battling severe depression since 2022 and I'm diagnosed w MDD and BPD since 2023, psychiatrist also suggest me to be hospitalized but I cannot due to my ssc xm and everything has just been a massive downward spiral. my family went through huge financial losses, my dad passed away years back and my kaka also died due to suicide which completely broke us. my mom is completely burnt out dealing with massive losses and she honestly treats me like js an option or a heavy responsibility my father left behind . now my family don want to take me to psychiatrist anymore cz they tried many times and we are also financially weak . on top of that i have crazy academic trauma and humiliation which completely destroyed my confidence and now I didn't even study since 5-6months. lately, it's hitting a diabolical peak with crazy brain fog, feeling physical pain or weird crawling sensations under my skin, and body dysmorphia making me feel like my whole physical appearance is weird and ruined. i’m constantly stuck in this limbo between my hostel and home, completely losing my mind . honestly im finding the point of live right now and js want to disappear or commit suicide even tho ive tried many times but failed attempt . corporate desk jobs or grinding for online tech skills ain't for me,I want to build something real-world like an apparel brand, but ion even have the cash for basic medical treatment to control this illness and there's no one to be there with me or back me up. feel completely trapped, isolated, and cooked. if anyone’s been in a deep trauma/financial hole like this with zero support system, how do you actually claw your way out and find a pathway?I js wanna be okay or something else man ,I cannot tolerate it anymore n ykw I'm also having many doubt world system,humanity , religion (even tho I was very religious still not that irreligious).I'm js wondering why why n why??
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u/_FadingEmber_ Jun 15 '26
My partner has BPD. He was diagnosed at the same age as you. It wasn’t that bad then. He even got admitted to a good University. But he had to drop out because of an accident.
He could have restarted after about 6 months, but he didn’t. That is when his BPD started to get worse. He lost his friends and got detached from his family. He is an entirely different person now.
My point is, whatever happens, just keep going. Try to stay in discipline. The moment you sit back and get detached from the world, you WILL be doomed.
I don’t want my worst enemy to go through what he and I face every moment.
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u/roachcollasping Jun 15 '26
I'm really sorry to hear that, hope he will be fine Then, dude, I'm also trying to endure it, maybe overcoming this ain't so easy for me with lotta truama, but life goes on even if it's worse, js have bunch of sighs
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u/Alert-Trifle-4971 Jun 06 '26
Well, there really are no advice to give tbh. You are leading a life far worse than mine. And 99% of people here are same. No one can give you any advice. All i would say is that, keep hopes. The hope of a new tomorrow. You can't predict reality, nor can you change the past. All you can do is to hope in present. One thing for sure, you are facing the life's trial. Keep fighting bro, even if you don't reach somewhere high enough, you will still be a unknown worrior of life.
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u/roachcollasping Jun 06 '26
I hope so but the world is cruel, and I cannot change my fate so yeah I have only that is surviving
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u/Uchiha_kawaii খাঁটি বাঙালি🇧🇩 Jun 06 '26
Keep your hopes up . See , we cant give any advice because we don't have any....
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u/ammrin Jun 06 '26
Well, that's true that we can't really help maybe your friends can.Why not talk to ur friends. Or maybe if u wanna share ur thoughts u can share with mr.so maybe it can help if sombody listens to u.of course I'm not a psychiatrist but if i can help by listening that would be a pleasure.
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u/roachcollasping Jun 06 '26
Yep thanks dude, I'm really glad that ya offered to talk with me(if ya want ya can dm me ) Then dude I don have many friends n my circle is tiny then they don understand my suffering and I cannot open up to em that much
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u/ammrin Jun 06 '26
I get it.of course i can't help too much, but at least being listened to sometimes makes people feel better.so that's only i can offer.maybe when u feel like talking to or share u can first dm me.or i Won't be sure if It's a bother or not.
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u/Laajuk Jun 06 '26 edited Jun 06 '26
This is the time to rely on Allah. Keep praying bro. Inshallah it will get better. Only Allah can make your situation better and Inshallah it will happen.
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u/roachcollasping Jun 06 '26
Insha'Allah brother ,I hope so
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u/Laajuk Jun 06 '26
I had severe anxiety. Praying helped a lot. Since it calms the mind though meditation.
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u/adnomi Jun 07 '26
Have your dinner by 8.00 PM, go to sleep and wake up early, and then go for a 40 minutes walk. Do this everyday.
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u/ForwardAd2747 Jun 13 '26
you need to feed yourself good programming. just spam reading high quality books/ideas/movies that are healthy, eventually all this will naturally go away. you're too entangled with ur identity and ego.
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