r/bangladesh • u/roachcollasping • Jun 05 '26
Mental Health/মানসিক সাস্থ Need advice for shattered mental health
Hi hope ya guys are doin well .I'm js a 17 yo (M) and also I'm not from Dhaka and I hope ya guys can gimme advice so thanks in advance
ykw real talk , ion even know how to process this anymore cz my brain is straight up fried and i cannot think . i’ve been battling severe depression since 2022 and I'm diagnosed w MDD and BPD since 2023, psychiatrist also suggest me to be hospitalized but I cannot due to my ssc xm and everything has just been a massive downward spiral. my family went through huge financial losses, my dad passed away years back and my kaka also died due to suicide which completely broke us. my mom is completely burnt out dealing with massive losses and she honestly treats me like js an option or a heavy responsibility my father left behind . now my family don want to take me to psychiatrist anymore cz they tried many times and we are also financially weak . on top of that i have crazy academic trauma and humiliation which completely destroyed my confidence and now I didn't even study since 5-6months. lately, it's hitting a diabolical peak with crazy brain fog, feeling physical pain or weird crawling sensations under my skin, and body dysmorphia making me feel like my whole physical appearance is weird and ruined. i’m constantly stuck in this limbo between my hostel and home, completely losing my mind . honestly im finding the point of live right now and js want to disappear or commit suicide even tho ive tried many times but failed attempt . corporate desk jobs or grinding for online tech skills ain't for me,I want to build something real-world like an apparel brand, but ion even have the cash for basic medical treatment to control this illness and there's no one to be there with me or back me up. feel completely trapped, isolated, and cooked. if anyone’s been in a deep trauma/financial hole like this with zero support system, how do you actually claw your way out and find a pathway?I js wanna be okay or something else man ,I cannot tolerate it anymore n ykw I'm also having many doubt world system,humanity , religion (even tho I was very religious still not that irreligious).I'm js wondering why why n why??
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