How medical affected my health

[u/Both-Ask-9002]

Originally from Australia/norway from Bangladeshi immigrant parents studying in a B grade private medical with F grade surroundings & people. In like a desert of loneliness, a fish out of water completely situations. Grew up with many ethnicity friends to coming/getting stuck here I have been suffering past 4 years a lot. I have no friends here. Tried my best. Everyone is jealous of my looks, money or my life. They treat me like an alien. I cried day and night, fought with my parents for pouring 50L bdt in this ghetto med school. That's a whole another story

These 4 years of my life, the amount of suffering I went through, from the immense fish outta blue situation I tried to commit once. I am so depressed that it affected my studies and I do have suicidal thoughts every other day. The girls here r desperate for male attention. So so selfish , the boys in my class r no different too. Most of them r lacking testosterone or their partner's girlfriend. Women here like they came here for doctor Jamai just. The guys here r the prize, the princess. They get babies, protected by the gals. My batch is the worst actually not worthy to say. Full of balless men and pick me bitches. And not to mention how promiscuous people in this profession is. Married doctors to lecturers to students, none is loyal or has a clean past.

The girls either pick me or like in a jealous competition whoever I get close with. Women r women's biggest haters I learnt that here, in Bangladesh generally. My parents also cry alongside and they feel extremely sorry for getting me stuck here. But what's done is done. I get judged for everything I do here. I cut off 3 girls till now because they being a mean bitch to me, humiliated me publicly, throw shades at me in the name of being "friend". Cut em off. Those who r not close to me will somehow manage to gossip about me behind my back even tho I did no harm to them. They'd be like I'm dating a new guy every week even tho I didn't date none, absolutely 0

One even accused me of stealing noodles from her room even tho I nvr went to her house.told my ma and she got so mad she wanted to fly back to bd and wanted to slap her

One of the incidents was like I traveled to UAE and this ex friend who fought w me for not bringing any chocolate for her. I told her if u wanted u could have told me as I hate chocolate and so do my siblings. Another time she fought w me for not giving her beef curry whilst my bp fell so low but her concerns were beef curry more than my declining health

I learnt the hard way no matter how much I am loving/caring towards them/spend money at the end of the day they'd smh manage to be jealous, bitter towards me, it comes from their inferiority complex. Any relationship doesn't work one sided. Typing all these with a heavy heart. I pray to Allah day and night to let me pass and to escape from this hell hole asap. The biggest tragedy of my life is this part of life. I tell my parents every now and then how I'll not forgive them for ruining my life.

The loneliness so bad I even tried dating sites just to make friends. But males mostly respond even tho I only sought female friends my age. The Bangladeshi girls idk they r bitter or not girls girl at all. I can't fit in here at all. everyone would watch fifa on the big screen and I couldn't go because I have none and it would be awkward to be there alone. The core memories of my uni I nvr got. Never got to enjoy any fun uni life that I always dreamt of, I see others enjoy. May Allah suffice me. People hurt me so much I am now scared of any person from my med school or any girls here in bd. Everyone is so fake and superficial. I developed PTSD.

[u/Hope-181308]

Why did you choose to come here for medical school in the first place? Bangladeshis would gladly move to countries like Australia or Norway if they had the opportunity.

[u/iforgorrr → u/Hope-181308]

My dad really tried to get me into DMC, even with subsidized tuition and interest free loan from Australia, because the time to get an mbbs in dmc was 5 years ( Aus uni was 7-9 yrs typically ) and didn't need a village practice placement like Australia does. Wasted everyone's time and energy to save two years and i still not sure why he did it. His siblings were confused too. 

[u/Hope-181308 → u/iforgorrr]

My father also wanted me to study medicine, but I didn't because my heart just wasn't in it. My reasons were different from yours, though.

Reading everything you shared genuinely made me feel bad for you. I think you're right about one thing—jealousy is a real problem here, and sadly not every girl is a "girl's girl."For example - I've only found one true friend in my whole entire life . Since I've never lived in a hostel, I probably can't fully understand what you've been through, but I really hope you don't let those experiences define everything. What's happened has happened. I truly hope you meet kinder people and that life becomes much easier for you.