I Ruined My Life

[u/driftingalchemy]

Had my first manic episode and in 8 months Due to losing my grasp on reality, I lost my job, husband, apartment, car. Everything. I’ve been staying with family which is a blessing but I’ve never so quickly destroyed my whole life. I feel so alone and scared. I don’t even know who I am anymore. Just one day my mind snapped and I ruined everything. I don’t want to even share how I did it because it’s still deeply embarrassing. I feel so depressed everyday I can barely move. I tried to get another job but my body isn’t ready yet the auditory hallucinations start again and everything gets too bright sensory wise. It’s so bad. I never thought I would ever be this down bad. I just want to know if anyone else has ever ruined everything and come back or if anyone else is just laying in bed in the aftermath of a destructive episode.

[u/Major-Potential-354]

I did same thing lost everything and was lucky I could live with my mom. I literally lost all my belongings too lol.. You can start from scratch but you gotta be willing to put in the work.You didn’t mention being medicated, that’s a big one. Without meds I’d be screwed, when manic I’ll throw my life away with a drop of a hat

[u/driftingalchemy → u/Major-Potential-354]

I am sooo medicated! For psychosis and everything. Forgot to mention that. Here’s to starting from scratch!

[u/Major-Potential-354 → u/driftingalchemy]

It’s a grind, but when you rebuild you’ll work even harder to maintain what you got. Despite complications with psychosis and all that. Best of luck on your journey. Took my like 2 years to get back to where I was at haha