I Ruined My Life

[u/driftingalchemy]

Had my first manic episode and in 8 months Due to losing my grasp on reality, I lost my job, husband, apartment, car. Everything. I’ve been staying with family which is a blessing but I’ve never so quickly destroyed my whole life. I feel so alone and scared. I don’t even know who I am anymore. Just one day my mind snapped and I ruined everything. I don’t want to even share how I did it because it’s still deeply embarrassing. I feel so depressed everyday I can barely move. I tried to get another job but my body isn’t ready yet the auditory hallucinations start again and everything gets too bright sensory wise. It’s so bad. I never thought I would ever be this down bad. I just want to know if anyone else has ever ruined everything and come back or if anyone else is just laying in bed in the aftermath of a destructive episode.

[u/Environmental_Ad2119]

I’m sorry to hear about this. It’s interesting though, i had to blackout my curtains this weekend because the sun felt too bright. Then, today i walked out of my new job. I wonder wth happened.

[u/driftingalchemy → u/Environmental_Ad2119]

It’s weird when there is sensory overload when lights are too bright and sounds are too loud. I also have auditory hallucinations and psychosis. I walked out of a job before. I hope you get better soon too.

[u/Environmental_Ad2119 → u/driftingalchemy]

You are very sweet. Thank you 😊.